Breaking The Rules

Chpt. 57

Noah's POV

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I dried the rest of my hair with my towel, and walked out. My other towel was loosely wrapped around my waist, and the other in my hand.

I made my way quickly to the room, making sure her grandparents wouldn't see me half naked.

I twisted the knob, and threw my towel into the dirty clothes basket. My mom always told me not to throw wet towels into the dirty clothes because it would stink, but I was to lazy to care.

"Hey, are you okay?" I asked, noticing her teary eyes. She was sat at the of the bed, hands in her lap. She made no attempt to move, or respond back to me. What could I have possibly done now?

"When were you planning on telling me." She said, and I was highly confused. It seems like whenever we start getting along, somehow, life seems to turn on me.

"What are you talking about?" I came up behind her, and pulled her towards me.

"That you're cheating on me, I know you are." She said, throwing my practically into my face.

"This is why you couldn't date me publicly, isn't it?" Her words drained the color from my face, and whatever I tell her, she's not going to believe me.

"It was never about the stupid rule, it was always about her. You had a girlfriend the whole time." She was up, and pacing back and fourth.

"Speak up, this is the part where you tell me that none of this is true, and that you love me, and that I'm not just another girl at your doorstep. This is the part where you tell me that y-you love-"

She tried speaking, but her cries were taking over. Honesty, I was frozen to the point where I could barely feel my own skin. I am paralyzed by the mistakes I've made, counting this one.

"I love you." I said, standing up from the bed, "is that what you want to hear? You already know I love y-"

"I already know you love me? Are you kidding me?" She sarcastically laughed in my face.

"If you loved me, you wouldn't have cheated on me!" She screamed, and I might as well come out with the truth.

"We weren't dating, Bree." I said, "and I had no intentions of dating you."

"Oh, so that's suppose to make me feel better." She screamed, throwing her hands everywhere.

"You didn't let me finish.." I gritted my teeth, she's so impatient.

"This was months ago, when we just started to get to know each other. I had no intentions of liking you, or dating you. I just needed someone, and you happened to be there. During that time, I was dating Sarah. I had been dating her for about two months, we weren't exactly serious, and I was only dating her for my reputation. Day by day, I found myself wanting to be around you more and more. I'd call you, I would come over more. That one night, I took you out for dinner, and the group of seniors came in, she saw that I was with you, so I had to persuade to her that you were nothing to me. But deep down inside, you were everything I wanted. The rule was long faded by then, it was just I was hiding you from Sarah." I said, "but the minute I realized I was completely in love with you, I cut things off between me and her.. I set my mind on you and you only. I think about it all the time, hoping you'd never find out, but I knew that deep down inside you would."

"Just stop." she whispered, turning away from me, leaving me with pure guilt.

"And Bree, I was never embarrassed of you, I was just hiding you away from her, away from my friends." I admitted, "I was stupid, and it was a long time ago."

"I get it." She said, not crying, not even a raspy voice. I couldn't see her face because of the fact that she was turned away from me, but I could easily tell by the way her arms are crossed and her head tilted down towards the floor, that there wasn't a good expression on her face.

"I-I'll go.." I said, waiting for a response, which she was quick to give.

"No, I'll go." She pushed her way past me, and a harsh feeling ached throughout my body. I could feel my face go hot, and I had to stop her, I'm not losing her again.

"Stop." I said, blocking her from getting out. I felt her breath hot on me, while she was practically blocked in by my arms. Her back pressed against the wall, and I couldn't help but draw myself towards her.

Her eyes were locked to the floor, while I was trying my hardest to get her to look at me.

"Why won't you look at me?" I asked, she glanced at me for a good second before looking back at the floor.

"Hey." I said, bending down to where her eyes were focused on, I held onto her knees while I was bowed down in front of her.

"I love you." I gasp, "I love you so much, you know that, right?"

I waited for a response that I was getting. I waited for her to run her fingers through my hair and kiss my forehead like she always does. I waited for her to forgive me for my millionth mistake since we've met, but I just don't think she will this time. There is something in her eyes that are crying for me to stop staring at her, to stop pleading for her attention.

"I love you, okay?" She said, "just let me go." She broke away from my hold, and I instantly felt empty. I've always felt empty, maybe because I push everyone away.

I always push her away, when really, I need her the most.