Breaking The Rules

Chpt. 35

"Go to the bathroom." Noah demands, then apologized afterwards. "Bree please."

I could see the tension in his eyes, I almost wanted to kiss him and make a scene, so that all his friends could see us, but me being me, I pranced myself up out of the chair and left the restaurant. I'm done trying to hide away from Noah's friends, I'm done trying to be good enough for him, I'm done. I'm done with this fake friendship we supposedly have going on. I'm done getting my heartbroken by the same boy every time. I'm done crying. I'm just- done.

I pushed the double doors open, without any of the senior whores seeing me.

Little did I know, it was pouring outside and I rarely had any clothes on. The shorts weren't helping at all, and I don't know how I was getting home. How does the weather manage to be so beautiful one second, and the destroyed by H2O the next. Weather confuses me.

How am I even suppose to get home? Its not like I'm a marathon runner.

My thoughts were answered as Noah chased after me in his car. Well, he wasn't really chasing me, but he was behind me.

"Get in already.." He said after a minute or two passed. He is a dumb arse if he thinks I'm going to do what he says, like I always tend to do.

"Bree." He stopped his car, I looked back and noticed him jogging towards me. I couldn't help but notice how good his hair looked whenever is was wet, why do I have to notice those type of things? Why can't I see him unattractive, why can't his looks match his personality.

"Leave me alone." I crossed my arms like a child and ignored him. I was crying, but since it was raining, he couldn't tell.

"I wish I could leave you alone, but I f*cking can't!" He said jogging enough to walk backwards in front of me. "I can't stay away from you." He screamed over the rain. It was raining so hard that my eyes were squinting so I could see him.

I kept walking, ignoring the kind words that he probably didn't mean. Like I said earlier, I'm done with him and his words and actions.

"Stop!" He screamed, pushing himself on me, his hands trailed to my lower waist, pulling me closer to him. I have to admit, I don't feel as cold as I was a while ago, now that I'm in his arms.

But I didn't let him get to me, I pushed myself away from him. Gaining control. I feel like he's always had control over me.

"What can I do to make you not hate me?" He asked before I could walk off again.

"What can you do?" I stepped closer to him, his eyes darted to my finger pointed in his face.

"You can stay the heck out of my life! I'm tired of crying and stressing over you! I'm never going to be able to be with you Noah! I'm never going to be able to just be a friend! I'm always going to have to hide for you! Why would I want to be with you if I have to hide?" I asked pushing my wet hair back away from my eyes. Noah didn't say a word, his head was down.

"Do you know how much pain you've put me through? This is the first time I've been out my room since the day you were over! I haven't ate, I haven't slept, I haven't done anything because I'm so head over heels for you and it's not as easy to get over you as it may look. I've like you for years, Noah, for years. And when you finally start to like me, you cut me off. You just, You-" I said pointing at his face, I'm sure he could tell I was crying now, "you." I whispered while looking at the concrete.

"What?" He asked, breaking his little silence mode.

"I hate you.."