I wanna tear you apart • Niam

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Niall had moved on, Niall had started dating other guys, having sex with other guys.Yet at the end of the day, when he laid in his bed or the stranger he had just hooked up with's bed, he made up every possible scenario of Liam coming to his side and taking him back to their apartment.

He would see Liam in class, Liam would never meet  his glaze, feeling completely guilty.The blonde sighed, knowing that he couldn't feel this way anymore, Liam had cheated on him after all.Yet their cuddling sessions of Mr.Paynes couch, the late night drives to any food place that was open at that ungodly hour or the passionate nights locked up in either of their rooms, replayed in his head over and over, haunting him.There was no one he could talk to about this, he felt embarrassed about still having feelings for his unfaithful ex.

"Just tell him how you feel, after that you'll feel much better."Zayn advised  him, he wasn't sure what to say.He hated Liam, not just because of their past but even after that, Liam had the audacity to break his best mate's heart.Yet when he finally pried out the information from Niall, he knew he judge what Niall wanted.

"It'll make me look weak, I told him we were done.Itll make it seem that it's okay, I think it means that this is over, doesn't it?"

"If you need to ask"Zayn paused, feeling incredibly sad for his friend,"then maybe it is."

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Niall huffed on his way to class, he had ditched this guy who was trying to walk him to class, he felt the need to confront Liam before class.As he walked up the stairs of the classroom, placing his stuff next to his ex boyfriend.Liam looked up from his phone in disbelief, Niall was sitting with him, he thought.

"Yeah...?"Liam said softly, not knowing what to do as the nervous blonde looked at him, a mix between a grimace and a smile on his face.

"Before you say anything, I need you to hear me out okay?"Niall asked, taking a deep breath after Liam nodded slightly."Look, I don't want to get back together with you like ever.But I can't stop thinking about you, I can't forget how much our relationship meant to me .So like I'm trying really hard to get over you and the only way I can see that happening is if we stop crossing paths.As it's too late in the quarter to switch classes, i just think we should steer clear from each other ."

"O-oh "Liam didn't know what to say, his heart sunk farther, watching the blonde nod dismissively, walking to the other side of the room and sitting next to a petite brunette.

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"Come on man, we need to get you out there."Harry smiled, patting Liam's shoulder.They sat in Harry's apartment, watching some random sitcom on Netflix.Louis was sitting next to him, ever so often giving him reassuring rubs on his legs as he was sprawled right on top of him.

"I can't go out there, I literally just broke my own heart."Liam sighed,"And I broke Niall's too.He told me today that he needed to get over me and didn't want to be anywhere near me.Its really over."

"Then let's find you a fuck buddy to get over him."Louis said, ready to drive him up to the nearest party.

"That literally the reason we broke up."

"Why did you do it,Liam?"Harry asked,"You don't have to answer if you don't want to."

"I don't know why,"Liam looked down at his lap ashamed,"I guess I thought he would see that I messed up his life, I'm the reason his life was so fucked up his last year of high school.I thought he was gonna see that he could find a better man, better than me."

"Were you trying to prove that theory right then?"Louis asked, looking at his friend inquisitively.

"I don't know, I'm stupid.I fucked up and I think he was the one and I let myself drive him away."

"Come on, let's go to a party,"Harry said,"It'll let you get your mind off a bit or drunk enough that you won't even remember ."

"I'll go, but only for an hour."

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Liam stepped into the familiar atmosphere, smelling the penetrating stench of alcohol that attracted him instantly.He walked into the kitchen, having his friends follow him.He pour himself two shots, downing them quick.

"Slow down mate, no need to get drunk so quickly"Harry joked awkwardly.

"Do you wanna go dance?"Louis asked them both, looking at the dance floor full of attractive people.

"I'll pass,"Liam smiled, eyeing the beer,"You two go."

Liam didn't take much time after his friends left to open up the cans, drinking them in less time that it took him to open.

"Do you really need to drink that much?"Aaron said behind him, grinning as he took a sip out of his solo cup.

Liam cautiously smiled,"um yeah ...are you here with Niall? I can go if that why he sent you over here."

"Niall is too drunk off his ass to notice you,"Aaron smiled,as it then fell into a frown "You really did hurt him."

"I know,"Liam sighed regrettably, "I know I did.And I don't even have an excuse on why I did it, I'm stupid aren't I?"

"Incredibly."Aaron responded.

"Geez thanks."

"I'm gonna go, I see Zayn going up to a dude three times his size."

Liam continued the night, drinking in the kitchen by himself, looking through the hallway as he saw Niall dancing next to his group of friends, stumbling and giggling as he body moved to the beat that rumbled in their ears.

By the end of the night, Liam couldn't even remember his name.And as he woke up the next day, he saw infront of him the familiar head of blonde hair .

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It feels so different writing a chapter where niam isn't happy lmao
•J