I wanna tear you apart • Niam

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The darkness of the night slowly crept up on them, Niall and Jackson laid on a blanket sprawled out on the backyard.Similarly like their first date.But as the moon slowly rose, Niall's guilt came back.When Jackson attempted to deepen their kiss and pull him closer, the panic flooded him, he began to sweat and the blood rushed to his face and body.

He pulled away harshly, silently screaming as he untangled himself from his fiancé."I cheated"He blurted out, already feeling the tears fall down his face.

"You what?"Jackson said dumbfounded, standing up as he looked down at the crying blonde on the ground.

"I had sex with Liam,"He looked down to his lap, trying to avoid Jackson's harsh gaze.

"When? When did this happen and when the fuck were you gonna tell me about this?"Jackson said, the coldness of his voice made Niall flinch as he felt his eyes dampen more with tears.

"It was after I tried to break it off, I wasn't gonna tell you because I thought I could get passed my feelings for him but-"

"You mean to tell me you're still in love with him, for how long? Our whole relationship, or just when you decided to come back to Ireland."He screamed loudly, backing away from Niall in disgust.

"I came back for my parents, you know that."Niall whimpered,"I didn't mean for it to happen, it just did."

"You didn't plan to tell me before I traveled all this fucking way.You told me that all you were having a hard time, not that you were fucking your ex." Jackson rushed inside the house,having Niall trail behind him.

"I'm sorry baby, it won't happen again."Niall pleaded,"It was a mistake."He tried to reach for Jackson arm, being pushed away as he reached for his clothes that he had stored away in the empty drawers in Niall's dresser.

"You really wanna know what the mistake was?Coming all this way and thinking I could actually spend the rest of my live with a man that only thinks about himself."He said calmly, throwing his bag over his shoulder,"Once I get home, I'll send you your stuff.Dont bother coming back."

"Please, you don't think you're being a bit harsh, Jackson."Niall said, slurring his words as he found it being hard to breathe.

"Harsh? You don't think that it's harsh that you didn't plan on telling me you're still in love with your ex? Or the fact that youre using your dead parents as an excuse to come back here ?"Jackson breathed out, slamming the door behind him,Niall clutched his chest as he slid down the door, the tears continuing to stream down his face.

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It had been a couple of days, Niall had been calling Jackson day after day and receiving no response.Although he did have feelings for Liam, Jackson had never done wrong by him.But as Niall thought of this, he realized how in love he was with the safety Jackson and his relationship felt.Being with him, he knew jackson would never cheat on him, never break his heart like Liam had time and time again.

So maybe that was the reason why  he still clung to hope that him and his fiancé would get back together.

Liam and him had not spoken for over a week and honestly, Niall was okay with that.Although he was curious on Liam reasoning for ghosting him, he felt that it was because he realized that maybe he didn't want to be with him after all.

But after this, Niall really hoped to fix himself.Not shortly after Liam, the blonde jumped into a relationship with Jackson, never truly processing the feeling of being alone.

So he thought of his only single friend that he still confided with this secret.Aaron.

"Hello?"Aaron's voice rang through the phone speaker.

"Hi,"Niall gasped out, smiling as he had not heard Aaron's voice in so long.

"Hey Niall, how are you doing?"Aaron grinned through the other side of the call, he truly missed his friend and he hasn't seen him since that short meeting at his parents' funeral.

"I'm doing alright, Aaron.Thats what I was calling about, I wanted to see if we could meet up, I could really use a friend right now."He spoke, a mix of shame and hopefulness laced through his tone.

"Yeah of course buddy, luckily I have this Friday off.I can drive down early in the morning and we can spend the day."

"Yes, that sounds perfect."

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Niall was woken up that Friday afternoon by a knock on his front door.Aaron stood there, Niall took note on how grown he looked. A dark full beard now covered the lower half of his face, giving him a real Steve Rogers look, but other than that, his looks didn't quite change.

"Hi!"Niall said excitedly, for the past couple of days he had felt sad and anxious but seeing Aaron, made him forget it just for a little.Reminding him that he finally had his person with him."How are you?"

"I'm good, I'm good."Aaron leaned down to hug him, seeming to have also grown a bit taller."Let's go inside before you neighbors question if you have a new lover."He wiggles his brows, laughing.

"Yeah, dont need more of those now a days."Niall self deprecated, detaching from Aaron's welcoming hug.

"What does that even mean?"He said, slinging his bag down and kicked off his shoes."By the way I'm gonna stay a few days, I called in my sick days for this weekend.Nobody should die by then."

"Right, you're a forensic.Is it creepy investigating that stuff."Niall grimaced, knowing he couldn't see the sight of blood.

"Well, I went the route of blood analysis, so like an overview of that is that by seeing where the blood at the crime scene was at, I could tell where the suspect was standing or how he did it."Aaron explained, seeing Niall become interested with his work."Now tell me what's up with you?Last time I heard from Zayn taht you were getting married still."

"Wow, if I really want to explain that, let's have a couple drinks yeah?"

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"I think I really love him."Niall hiccuped, pounding down his fourth shot of tequila."But I can't do this anymore, I'm just so scared, Aaron."

"He's hurt you before Niall but if you truly want him, then go after him."

"I cant, if he hasn't talked to me since that should be a clue by now, right?"

"You know what you should do? Stir away from all this boy nonsense and just try to build a new career here or a new life.Be a better Niall, one that isn't deciding who's wiener to suck on!"

"That's disgusting."Niall cringed,"Please don't ever talk about my sex life."

"Hey,"He slurred,"Momentarily I was apart of it remember."

"Again, that's disgusting."The blonde giggled, holding out his glass so Aaron could pour him another.

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Honestly Aaron is one of my favorite characters.I love him sm
But anyways thanks for reading lol
•J