I wanna tear you apart • Niam

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Niall paced around his room, glancing at his phone screen while mainting his eyes set on the window.It had been two days, two days since he's cheated on his fiancée, two days since he's had sex with his ex , two days since he's spoken to anyone.He was scared, scared for anyone finding out the truth, scared that he had just gotten back  and he's already messed up everything.Liam hadn't made the effort to reach out to him either, probably thinking that it was nothing, just a rush of feelings that were quickly gone as soon as they came, that whatever they had discussed previously was just hypotheticals.

But as much as he felt that it was gonna blow up in his face, he regretted nothing.Seeing Liam for the first time in year made him remember the best and worst times of his life.Making him feel as though he was still the same person he had left behind those years ago.But he knew that once Jackson would make an appearance, everything would be irrelevant.Liam wouldn't want anything to do with him nor would Jackson.

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"Hi baby!"Jackson yelled inside the airport , setting his bags down as he softly grabbed the sides of his face and pressed a gentle kiss on Niall's lips."How are you feeling?"Niall took notice of the small bags under his fiancée's eyes and the way his hair was matted and shoveled even though he attempted to cover it with a black baseball hat that was worn backwards.

"I'm okay, how was the fly over here?"He attempted to mask his nervousness and guilt by slightly smiling up at him.Letting him snake his free arm around Niall's waist but wanting to crawl away as he felt to ashamed and disgusted with himself that he was about to hurt the only man whose ever done right by him.

"It was good, I made friends with a crying baby on the plane.The mom even took a picture of us."He said pulling out his phone to show as smiling Jackson and a small baby sitting on his lap.

"You've always been so good with children"Niall said quietly,referring to the time Jackson and him went to visit his family and saw him playing in the yard with his nieces and nephews while he help Jackson's mom with dinner.

"Maybe one day we'll both be good parents together " Jackson smiled, kissing Niall's hand as they made their way down the road.Niall smiled fakely nodding at the idea.They spent the short ride home playing whatever was on the radio and filling the air with pointless talk about work.

Once they arrived to Niall's childhood home, Jackson smiled,"This is where you grew up,bub"Admiring the traditional looking outside of the house and the simplicity that Maura had decorated the house in before she passed,"Its beautiful"

"Yeah"Niall smiled, thinking of all the good and bad memories he had of this place."Do you want to check out the city or wanna stay in?I know Greg wants to come for a visit."

"Could we go out for dinner or something?Im really hungry?"Jackson watched as Niall nodded before heading to the room to change into a more suitable outfit.

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They made their way into a small cafe that seemed to recently popped up by Niall's neighborhood."Now I don't know if the food is honestly that good but it did look pretty cute when I walked passed here the other day."Niall said as he walked through the door Jackson was holding opened.

"Well I haven't eaten in like 6 hours so anything goes at this point."He laughed, waiting besides his fiancé as they scanned over the menus to pick something out.Once they had gotten their food and drinks, the pair made their way to a table by a window.

Their time there was spent making pointless conversation and lighthearted remarks about one another.And honestly, that's what made Niall fall in love with Jackson.Back in the states, there was nothing complicated, nothing that stood between them.Just a pair of young guys falling in love, there was nothing there that made them question their love for one another.

Sure, work caused a slight strain in their relationship.But both knew coming in, that it was important to both.And in some ways, that's what made it work for them.

"How long are you here for?"Niall asked, taking a sip of his iced coffee.

"My boss gave me a month, he understood what was happening,"Jackson  sighed,"But if you want,I can look for a job here and move over here."

"Baby,"Niall paused, the guilt inside his stomach worsening,"I can't let you do that, you worked so hard for this job."

"Yeah, but jobs comes and go but you won't."

"That's so cheesy,"Niall giggled, shaking his head,"But seriously, no.Well be fine, I promise."

Jackson slid his hand over the table top to grab Niall's hand a place a small kiss on it,"I love you, I really do."

Niall smiled shyly, turning his head to hide his face and the blush that he was sporting.But as he turned to face the window, he saw Zayn walking passed his table and inside the cafe.He didn't know if Zayn had seen him, but he was convinced that he knew nothing about Liam or the night they had spent together.

So when Zayn came up to their table with a confident smile, Niall's feelings were reassured,"Hi Niall! Is this your fiancé you were talking about?"He asked, giving Niall a hug as well as Jackson.

"Hey Zayn, yeah it is , this is Jackson.He just came for a visit."Niall smiled,"Come sit."He said, pulling a chair from a vacant table.

"Just for a little, I have to get to L-"Zayn corrected himself,"To a friends house, were having dinner from here.Anyways, Jackson, how did you and Niall meet?"

"Well, we just meet at work really, he asked me out surprisingly.I wouldn't take him as such a forward person."

"I guess, Niall really knew that you were special."Zayn smiled, "Well I should get going before our coffees get cold, let's hang out before you go back Jackson, I would love to catch up with you Niall more as well as get to know you more Jackson."

After they bid their farewells, Zayn's stomach sank.Truly, Zayn knew about everything, Niall's lie and the night Liam and him spent.But now he had to make the decision whether he would tell Liam or protect Niall.He knew he couldn't leave Liam under the impression that him and Niall would have a chance now, so he hurried his pace and rushed to Liam's house.
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"I'm sorry Liam, I just didn't know what to tell you."Zayn lowered his head, not knowing how to respond to Liam's angry yet sad expression.

"No, no.Thank you for telling me, I just, I really didn't know how manipulative he really is."

"Liam , I'm sure it was just a simple mistake.Maybe Jackson came here unexpectedly."

"He would have told me, told me that he was working on patching it up with Jackson yet he let me stay here and wait for him.Im grown now Zayn, I don't deserve this.I deserve better than him and all his tactics that he's done to get me involved with his life.He was done with me for four years but the second he came back he decided I was worth his time again.Im not doing this, at all."

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God, i don't even know how to explain for my absence for these 6 months.Like truly School has taken everything from me especially that it was my junior year but hopefully before school gets more heavy I'll be completing this story because I truly like writing this and writing what I've envisioned for this story.So thank you for putting up with this lmao.
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