The Diary of a Fallen Girl

the concept of life

The concept of life is not a concept at all. Rather, it is simply a state of being that resides within another state of existence — as if your whole, visible life only takes place underneath a bell jar. What cannot be seen can still exist, and what does not exist can still be seen. There is so much more beyond us; an intangible storm cloud creating the rain in which we reside. Our lives fold out before our eyes, and we blindly, deafly, and cluelessly live them. Why should one ponder about the questions that will never have a definite answer?

When I found you in this life, it was not for the first time. Instead, it could've been for the tenth, or even the millionth time that I'd come across your wondering soul. Spirits like us are naturally gravitated to each other by the laws of being. In all of the lives we've lived, our souls have grown a fondness for each other – a love that cannot be wavered by the uncertainties of death. In a time long before the present, my heart has belonged to yours, and yours to mine. I have had you in many forms in the past, and I will have you in many more to come.

The phrase, "everything happens for a reason," is truthful by default, but the so-called "reason" has been set lifetimes before this one. Instead, we are destined to repeat our purpose, but in a different way each time. Souls like ours are wise beyond their years. We have been in rotation for long enough to have gained consciousness on the cycle of existence, and we have been in existence long enough to have retained former experience.

Souls like us are well-practiced and confident, but not so much that we glide through life knowing what to do and how to do it. Instead, we live with an underlying feeling of guidance, knowing that we will do the right thing, but still never being completely sure. The insecurity is what creates art, and the reassurance comes from the product of our experienced lives.

Souls like us are tangled deep within each other's, for we have been here long before time, and we will remain long after time.