Holding on to What is Left {Editing as of 03/24/15}

Come home?

She opens her arms slightly while a tear rolls down her cheek.

I run into her and wrap my hands around her neck. She bends down slightly and squeezes me. I start crying into her shoulder, letting all the tears come out.

"My baby, my baby..." My mom coos.

She rocks me back and forth, kinds like when I was younger.

In the old days.

We stand there for a long time, hugging and crying, and also the doctor looking at us awkwardly. She finally lets go, and leads me over to her bed. I sit down, and cross my legs.

"So, tell me everything. Everything you know I have missed. And also tell me why Justice isn't here, where is she?"

I break down in tears. Right then and there. I tell her from the very beginning, September 11 2001 all the way to present day.

I tell her about how they gave Justice custody of me at such a young age, about school, me cutting, Justice killing herself, me trying to kill myself multiple times, and also Jordan.

Mom seemed really upset about Justice, but her face lightened up a little when she heard about Jordan.

"So when can I meet this man who saved your life?"

I turn to face her.

"Well, he is actually in the parking lot waiting for me right now. Want me to invite him in?"

She brushes my bangs out of my eyes.

"Of course!"

So I do. I calm him and tell him my mom wants to meet him. He seems a little hesitant at first, but he decides to go ahead and come in.

I watch him walk slowly through the door, and my mom takes a good look at him. She bends over and whispers in my ear, "Looks like you got a hotshot there! He's a keeper!" I blushed a little bit, and when I saw Jordan smile I knew that he heard. I probably turned 20 shades of red.

He walks over and sits beside me and grabs my hand. I intertwine my fingers with his, and my mom just looks at us and smiles.

For the rest of the evening, we talk. ALOT. We talk about school, life, and even tell my mom about minecraft. She had no clue what we were even talking about, but she listened in anyways. All of a sudden my mom gets a straight look on her face.

"Kat?"

"Yes mom?"

She starts to play with my long brown hair, and tucks it behind my ear.

"I want you to take me home. Soon."

I start to cry. MY MOM WANTS TO COME HOME!

She then tells us its time for us to go, and that we need to get some sleep (even though it's 9:30).

Me and Jordan walk out, and I decide to go up to the nurses station.

"Excuse me ma'am, when can Leonor Bowett leave the hospital?

She types something into her computer and puts her hand up to her face.

"Looks like she can go home tomorrow with in home care and regular doctor visits."

I smile.

"Okay. Thank you so much!"

Me and Jordan drive home in almost complete silence. I don't know why, but it feels good. He turns to look at me and smiles. I smile back, and then I feel tears starting to flood my eyes.

My mom. She is alive. Jordan. He loves me. My life just seems so perfect right now!

He reaches over and pats my thigh, and I grab his hand.

We are perfect.

I somehow fall asleep along the way, and I wake up to Jordan carrying me to my room. I pretend to act asleep so he can keep carrying me.

He lies me down onto my bed, and sits beside me.

"Okay, you can quit faking now!"

I open my eyes and cant help but smile. He pulls off his shirt and goes to a bag beside my bed.

"Mind if I use your shower, Kitty?"

"Nope! Go right on ahead!"

I watch him go to the hallway and close the door to the bathroom. The television remote is right beside me, so I decide to pick it up and turn it on. The first thing that pops up is spongebob, so I go ahead and leave it.

I get up and pop some popcorn, then walk back down the hallway to my room. I can hear Jordan singing pretty off key to the song "I miss you" by Blink 182.

The corner of my mouth turns up Into a smile, and I keep walking.

After about 15 minutes, I hear the door open to the bathroom. Jordan walks through my door with only his boxers on and his hair wet. I feel myself jump up and down inside for some reason. He comes over to me and steals some of my popcorn.

"Watching spongebob like a little kid, eh?"

"Sure am!"

I get up and go to the bathroom, and change into a spegetti strap shirt and some spanks. I throw my hair up into a simple ponytail, then walk out of the bathroom. Jordan is sitting on my bed with MY popcorn watching spongebob, just like I was a couple minutes ago! I run up to him and say:

"Hey! That's MY popcorn!"

He runs across the room with it.

"Not anymore!"

I jump over my bed like a ninja and almost crash into him. He sets the popcorn on top of my dresser, where I cant reach it.

"Hey! Give that back!"

He grabs my hips and pulls me close to him.

"Nope!"

I wrap my arms around his neck and lean close to his face.

"Pretty please?"

He looks at me and rolls his eyes. He leans in and kisses me softly.

I jump up, and cross my legs around his waist. He kisses me from my forehead down to my chin. I then use my legs and push up against the side of the dresser and grab my popcorn. I run into the living room, and crash onto the couch.

I see Jordan run down the hallway and jump onto the couch with me.

"You tricked me!" He says, and pretends to bat his eyes.

I get on top of him and lay there. Jordan puts his face into my hair and wraps his arms around me.

******************************************