Holding on to What is Left {Editing as of 03/24/15}

Our Last Moment

~Jordan's POV~

"Let's order pizza while we wait!" I say to Kat.

"Mmm.... Yes! I want a cheeseburger pizza!"

She is so beautiful. Aside from all the IVs and casts and stuff, she is still so beautiful. She has my heart, and there is no way I could possibly live without her. She is the love of my life.

I step out into the hallway, and decide if I want cafeteria pizza or pizza from the place across the street.

DEFINETLY the place across the street. It is so much better than cafeteria food, Kat would enjoy it.

I go through the big doors leading to the parking lot, and I walk in the direction in which I parked my car.

It feels like someone is watching me...

I shrug off the feeling, and open the door to my car and get in.

The song 'Chocolate' is playing by The 1975, one of my favorites by them.

As I back up, thoughts flow into my head about when Kat first came into the hospital.

Why did she yell stop when I walked in her door, and then suddenly I'm cut across my elbow only seconds later? Something is going on with her, but I just can't figure out what it is.

I get on the road and start to pass across the intersection. Suddenly, I see something big and black, and it seems to be looking straight at me.

"What the-"

Then, darkness.

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About 3 hours later, I wake up. Sorta. I can't open my eyes or move my body, but I can feel and hear everything around me.

I can tell I'm in a hospital, because I hear the beeping sounds of the machine next to me, and I can feel myself on a bed.

What happened?

I hear footsteps, then hear someone come in.

"Oh God..." I hear someone say.

Then footsteps, almost a running, come closer to me. Someone grabs my hand, kisses it softly, and then rests their head on my shoulder.

Kat?

I try to move my body, make some kind of sign to tell her that I can hear her, that I know she's near, but I just can't!

"I'm so sorry it did this to you... It's all my fault... You won't hurt anymore because of me. I'm so sorry..." Kat says.

How did she do this to me? What does she mean? I don't get it!

She intertwines our fingers together, and the warmth of her hand feels so good.

Kat lets go, and starts to move something around, and then I hear a pen writing in paper. She's writing a note.

After Kat finishes, she folds up the paper and puts it in my hand. Then, she brushes my cheek softly and kisses me like she never has before. It was so sweet... Almost too sweet. She is up to something. Kat pushes my hair back, and gets up.

Then I realize, she isn't here to visit me, she is here to say goodbye.

I try screaming, moving, shifting my weight, but my body won't let me! It's as if I'm paralyzed, but I know I'm not. Something is holding me down.

Something comes into my mind, it creeps around each corner and memory, I try to search through the darkness but can't find it.

All of a sudden I see a black mist looking like thing, it comes towards me and puts a nasty hand on my shoulder.

"You're too late Jordan. You shouldn't have come into her life... She was mine... Always mine..."

"No, she wasn't. What are you?"

Suddenly, he just disappears, into thin air...

What was that?

More importantly, what is Kat thinking of doing?

Now that the blackness is gone, I can finally move. I try to sit up, but have no luck. I reach beside me and press the nurses button. She comes into my room a few moments later.

"What do you need?"

I manage to barely whisper, but I say my words clearly.

"Go check on Katie Bowett please. Do it for me, okay?"

The nurse nods and runs off down the hallway. Not but a minute later, I see a cluster of nurses and doctors running down the hallway.

"What's going on?!" I try to yell.

A doctor comes in my room and sits down beside me.

"There is a young lady down the hallway who locked herself in the bathroom. We are trying to get it open, but she isn't making any sounds to tell us she is okay."

"What do you mean 'to tell us she is okay'? What are you guys not telling me? She is my girlfriend, I deserve to know!"

The doctor gets up and starts pacing in front of my bed.

"We saw blood seeping out underneath the door. That's why we are worried."

Now I definitely know what Kat has done. She killed herself. That explains the note, why she came to visit me, everything.

A nurse from down the hallway yells for the doctor in my room, and he runs out. But just before he does, he says: "I will let you know what happens in a little while."

But he doesn't need to. I already know she's gone.

I close my eyes, and try to send a silent message to Katie, if it was somehow possible.

"I love you."

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It's been 1 month exactly since Katie killed herself. I'm out of the hospital now, but everyday for me is a struggle to stay living. The only thing I have to live for now are my fans and youtube friends.

Each and everyday I get up early. I go to the flower store, and purchase 3 white roses. Every Saturday, I purchase 3 red roses. I take them to Kat's grave, and place them in between her and her mothers tombstone.

After I get done, I go to Katie's house and feed her cat, and make sure her home is clean. Then, I go home and play minecraft. When it is time for bed, I go back next door to Katie's house and sleep in her bed, because that's where I feel comfortable. That's where I feel her closest to me.

Sometimes, if I can't sleep, I turn on South Park and act like Kat is still with me, and I laugh at the stupid racist jokes they make.

But there is one thing that I do twice a day, once in the morning and once at night:

I say, "This day I live for you Katie, for this is the day I dedicate to you. I will see you again, either if its in heaven or hell. One day, we will be together, and have no problems at all."

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The End

Hello everyone, and I'm here with news about my new fanfictions.

I created a new Fanfiction about the apocolapyse happening. It's involving all the Cube members. It's called "Finding Bee".

There is now a sequel to that story, called "Aftermath." Not sure if I should continue it or not.

I have also just now started a new Fanfiction, called "The Reason." It is a Graser Fanfiction.

Go check them out if you'd like! Thank you so much for reading this story.