Holding on to What is Left {Editing as of 03/24/15}

Mommy Day

Written May 1st, 2014. Edited and republished August 18, 2014.

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The next day Jordan isn't here. I go upstairs, I look in the backyard, and I look in the kitchen, but he is no where to be found.

I go back into the living room and pick up my phone. It says I have one new voicemail. I put the phone up to my ear and listen. It's Jordan.

"Hey babe, I went back to my house to get some stuff done. If you want me to be with you when you go get your mom, don't hesitate to ask! Love you Kitty!"

Hmm... Well okay. Time to get dressed and go up to the hospital. I go to my room and take a shirt out of my closet. Then I throw on some jeans and go outside.

The sun is shining so bright, I can hardly see! Suddenly a cat rubs up on my leg.

"Oh, hi Sam!" I say petting him softly. He nuzzles his head against my hand.

"Time to go, be nice to Veda for me, okay?"

Talking to cats is one of my favorite things to do. They look up at you as if they understand what you are saying, even though they don't.

I get in my car and drive down the road. My radio is on blast, and my windows are down.

Such a nice day.

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After I'm at the hospital for a while, the nurse comes in and tells me my mom can go home.

I grab her hand and lead her down the stairs.

"I'm going home! Finally! After so long, I get to go home..." She says squeezing my hand.

I look at her and smile.

"Your room is the same as it was before, only the kitchen may be a bit messy. That's about all!"

We get to my car and we get on the interstate. My mom looks out the window and points at the newly built mall.

"Katie! Lets go there!"

She sounds like a little kid who finally gets some freedom.

I drive up into the Westgate Mall parking lot, and enter through the food court. My mom and I walk through the crowds of people and end up getting some ice cream.

"I want Vanilla," she says. "What kind do you want?"

It feels good to be able to do this again.

"Rocky Road!"

We get HUGE waffle cones and get two scoops of ice cream.

Hand in hand, we walk all around the mall and go into clothing stores. We try on dresses, shoes, hats, and funky glasses! I finally have a happy feeling again... The whole in my heart feels like it's been filled.

"This has been the BEST DAY EVER!" My mom exclaims while throwing up her hands like a little girl.

I laugh, and we put all of the new clothes in the trunk.

Then I realize I haven't looked at my phone all day. I take out my phone, and see 37 missed messages and 4 missed calls. All from Jordan.

I look through my messages, and Jordan just keeps asking where I am and why I haven't texted back. I decide to call him, and jump into the drivers seat.

"Hello?" He says.

"Hey."

"Why haven't you answered my calls or messages?!?!"

I sigh. "Well, I was bringing my mom home and we passed by the mall. She wanted to go, so we went on a day shopping spree. I just haven't been on my phone all day... Sorry..."

I hear him laugh. "It's okay! I'm glad you and your mom have had a good day. How about later I come over? Or..." His voice trails off.

"Of course I want you to come over!" I see my mom jump a little in her seat. She seems to like Jordan, so maybe he is a good guy for me!

"Okay! See you in a few hours! Love ya!" He says.

I smile. "Love ya too!"

I hang up the phone, and begin driving home. My mom looks really tired... Long day for her I guess.

Her head is leaned against the window and she is looking out at all the scenery. She is clenching her hands together for some reason.

Oh, well.

We get home and my mom walks slowly into the house. Her eyes are wide, and she probably trying to process everything. I walk in behind her, and grab her hand. She begins to walk with me through the house, looking into every room. When she gets to Justice's room, she stops. She shuts the door and continues to walk to her room.

My mom lets go of my hand, and walks to her bed. She lies down, covers up, and is off to sleep. In her jeans and t-shirt.

Weird... I hope she's okay.

I shrug it off, and walk to the living room. I turn on the TV to South Park, and call up Jordan. About 10 minutes later, I hear a knock on the door.

Jordan walks in, and smiles at me.

"Let me guess... Watching South Park?"

I laugh and grab his waist. He puts his hand on my lower back and the other on my cheek. He leans down and kisses my forehead, then continues to walk into the living room.

"So where is your mom?"

I point in her general direction.

"Asleep. In her room."

He smirks. "Already? I thought she might wanna' visit!"

"She seemed tired, I think."

He grabs my hand and turns off the TV. Then we walk to my room, and lie down on my bed. He reaches over and grabs my hips, and pulls me closer to him.

"Hey, I got on teamspeak today and talked to H and Graser!"

I put my head on his shoulder.

"Oh really? What did y'all talk about?"

He kisses me gently on the cheek.

"You."

I smile and kiss him on the lips, then pull back quickly.

"In a good or bad way?"

"Good. They want to talk to you more and REALLY get to meet you! You wanna record with us tomorrow? We are thinking about playing some 'Mega Walls' on the Hypixel server!"

"Sure! But first I have to make sure my mom is doing okay."

He pulls the covers over us, and snuggles up against me.

"Sounds like a plan to me."

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The next morning Jordan shakes me awake.

"What? I was sleeping!"

He grabs my arm and pulls me out of bed urgently. He leads me down the hallway to the entrance of the living room.

"Look." He says pointing a finger at my mom.

She is literally sprawled out along the couch. She looks really sweaty, and is shaking a little bit. She must have got up in the middle of the night to lie down here.

"I'm going to go check on her."

I walk up to the couch, and shake her shoulder.

"Mom? Mom? You okay?"

She starts to open her eyes slowly, then all of a sudden she jumps up quickly. She backs up away from us against the TV.

She looks back and forth from me to Jordan.

"Who are you two?" She says in a startled voice.

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