Holdin On

Chapter Twenty-Seven

Lauren couldn't believe what had just happened as she drove home. She felt nasty, dirty and fucked up right now. She finally pulled up to her house and slowly got out her car. She couldn't believe she let that shit  happen. She walked to her house and opened the door as she heard her parents laughing at something they're watching on the T.V. "Hey sweetie, how was practice" Her mom asked,

"Good. I'm going to just go take a shower and go to bed" Her parents both look at her with concern,

"You ok, kid?" Lauren shrugged,

"I don't feel too good." Clara stood up and walked over to her with Mike quickly following behind. Clara placed the back of her hand on Lauren's forehead,

"You feel ok but go ahead and get some rest. I'll check in on you a little later" Lauren nodded as her parents gave her a hug and kiss before letting her pass. Lauren went up the stairs to her room, slowly taking off her clothes and walking to her bathroom. She walked in the shower and turned it on, letting the cold water hit her face first before turning it warm. She then let her tears fall, knowing that  Normani was going to be hurt and pissed at her. She has a reason to. She grabbed her body wash and start scrubbing her body trying to get Selena's scent off her. Once she felt she was free and clean she got out the shower, drying herself off. She walked into her room to put boxers and a tank on to sleep in then crawled in her bed closing her eyes, mad at herself for letting it happen. Mad at herself for staying in the locker room when she should've just left. I'm  dumb as fuck. Lauren's eyes watered up, as she thought of what happened and tried to figure out how everything can change in the course of 10 minutes. She plugged up her phone and notice a few missed calls and texts from a couple of different people: Erica,  Normani, Selena. Fucking bitch. She opened the text from her girlfriend, asking her how long will she be. Lauren took a deep breath before replying, 'Not feeling good. Tomorrow?' She knows she has to tell her but she wasn't ready and she hoped to God that Selena keeps her mouth shut. I wish this was all a bad dream.

Aww babe. Get some rest and get better. Let me know if you need me to bring anything. Night 😘

-  wifey💍😝

"I'm so sorry baby" Lauren whispers before replying with a night and putting her phone on her night stand. She closes her eyes but all she can see is Selena and  Normani and the drama that is going to come. There was no way that she was going to get any sleep tonight.

Lauren was right. She didn't get any sleep and barely got any sleep on the following days to come. It was now Thursday and she was so grateful that they had a bi this week or she would've been really screwed especially since she did actually get sick. Lauren chalked it up as karma for what she did to  Normani. Every time  Normani called, Lauren would just let it go to voicemail but when  Normani texted her she would reply with one word answers. She knew she shouldn't be treating  Normani that way since she was in the wrong but she wasn't ready to say anything yet. She walked down the stairs still trying to build courage in order to tell  Normani what happened. Man,  Normani's gonna kill me. Lauren looked up at the ceiling once she was down the stairs and took a deep breath before continuing into the living room. Her parents went out to eat so she was by herself for the time being. She went to couch and fell back on it, with an arm thrown over her eyes and her other one dangling off of the couch holding her phone. She couldn't believe how she got herself in this situation and how she didn't think she was going to get out of it anytime soon. She fucked up and knew  Normani wasn't going to be happy about it.

The more she thought about it the more she grew mad at herself and knew without a doubt that she may be single after telling  Normani. Who would've thought that I wouldn't be happy about that? She clenched her teeth harder as she started to feel tears form behind her eyelids. This wasn't how it was supposed to be. She rubbed her arm over her eyes and felt the wetness of her tears on her arm. She tried to will herself to not think about it but it was hard. Hard because she was gonna lose  Normani and she didn't know how to change that. Lauren was sure that  Normani was gonna get pissed when she told her and she couldn't decide whether to do it at school or  Normani's house. "If I do it at school then it'll probably be a huge scene which I don't want."  Normani would kill Lauren which she deserves and Selena ass there no kinda hope for her. As Lauren thought more about it, she couldn't help thinking that  Normani would look so hot being mad and everything. Lauren shook her head, "I'm horrible but yet it is sexy when she steps to me" Lauren giggled a little, thinking she is going crazy. Here she is thinking about how sexy  Normani looks when she's mad instead of about her messing up things between them. She shook her head and thought about the second idea,  Normani's house. If she does it at  Normani's house then maybe  Normani would be more relaxed but that means running into Zendaya. Lauren inwardly cringes, "I'm going to be on America's top most wanted list for no true reason" Lauren shakes her head, she wasn't ready to talk to  Normani. Her thoughts then switched to whether or not she wanted to be on the team anymore. How am I going to be on the same team as the person that I'm gonna want to knock the fuck out of her  everytime I look at her? She could always quit the team and hope the coaches from her top picks don't cross her off the list. "Is that possible?" She bit her lip thinking that she could find herself a trainer so that she wouldn't be out of shape or think she was too good for high school. She lifted her hand that was holding her cell phone before lifting her arm away from her eyes. She sees a picture of  Normani and her with smiles on their faces and smiled a little before unlocking her phone and pulling up the Internet. She started researching local trainers to see what their costs were and hours before the doorbell went off. She frowned, "it better not be Karrueche" she mumbled since Karrueche has been texting her. Supposedly, about the coach but she didn't want to put herself in anymore bad situations since she still hasn't resolved this one yet. She sat up and looked at the door before pushing herself off the couch to stand up. She stretched a little before walking to it to see who it is and hopefully she can get them to leave in less that 10 seconds. She unlocks the door and pulled it open to see the one person she wasn't expecting and definitely wasn't ready to see, " Normani!"  Normani turned around with a smile that slowly disappeared as her eyes traveled down Lauren's body.