My online boyfriend~narusasu

XIX

"I ship us"

My breath caught. I'll admit it. There are tears forming in my eyes.

OMG THIS IS SO- OMG. Those who are getting a kick from violating my privacy by reading my thoughts and who are wondering why I'm so emotionally touched right now - you are not a true fangirl/boy. Being shipped together is the highest romantic achievement that I could probably ever achieve in life.

He shipped us! Omg he shipped us!! I can already hear the wedding bells.
I'm gonna do it in that clearing near the pond in the forest.
We're gonna eat chocolate cake together and I'll puke on Kiba from over eating and then we'll buy a big house overlooking a lake and have two kids named chunky and monkey and- HOLD IT THERE SELF! Almost got out of hand.
And this is why I should not be allowed to have a crush *facepalm*

A crush. A crush? A crush?! Omg I'm crushing on him!! Dammit I've gone and done it again.
God help me get out of this safe and sound. Hey the songs playing in my head now.

Brain you're an idiot. Wait. I'm the brain and I control my body. So I'm the idiot. Dear lord I have the attention span of a squirrel.
I can't believe I just admitted that *facepalm*

Okay lets do me a favour and stop thinking for a while.

"I ship us"

The situation is totally not helping me!! It's almost as if somebody is whispering those words in my ear. How can I not think?!

"I ship us"

STOP!! Maybe I should just not look at my screen for a while. That'll help. I hope.

"I ship us"
Arghhhh!! I want to cry.
How do I react? What do I say?

"hey. How was it?
Was it no good or are you creeped out by it"
"and this is an off chance and I'm really keeping my fingers crossed but did.. you.. not.. understand.. what I meant by it..?"

Oh fuck I look stupid now. Come on out awkward self.

"oh god no I totally get what you meant. It's just...
That was so... touching yk"

"so? what do you say about it?"

That's what I'm trying to figure out dammit!!! Play it cool. Let's play it cool. Conceal. Don't feel.
Don't let them knooooow. Well now they- WOULD YOU STOP THAT?!?!

"What do I say about it?"

Retaliation with questions. Good idea self. *facepalm*

"rate it."

"a 20"

"20?"

"out of 5"

"that good eh? ;)"

"ugh don't flatter yourself :P"

"come oooooon"
"admit it"
"You toootally loved it"

"FINE. I liked it.
A lot"

"this is so different from the scenario I'd imagined when I would tell you that"

"I can see what you mean but what did you imagine"

"I'm not telling"

"tell ne"

"no"

"okay fine don't, "

"well since you're insisting that much I might as well tell you"