Clean Bowled

Chapter 35

*Aslesha*

I wait with bated breath for his response. But there is none. I slowly look at his face above me and see that he's in deep sleep.

Oh.

I look at the clock and chuckle lightly. Aadhe ghante se mai ye sab soche ja rahi hu. Tab tak so gaya ye pagal.

I smile looking at his face. He is so good looking. Do I even deserve him? I lightly run my fingers down the side of his face and he leans into my touch. A strange kind of warmth fills into my chest and I close my eyes, the exhaustion finally taking over me.

Kal, I decide, kal I'll tell him about my feelings. That's the last thought before the subconsciousness pulls me.

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The throbbing of my head breaks my deep slumber. It's like somebody is hammering my head. I shield my eyes from the harsh sunlight and groan as I open my eyes.

Blue eyes.

The first thing I see is blue eyes gazing at me intensely. I rub my eyes and slowly sit up. My cheeks are slowly turning pink thinking about yesterday.

We kissed!

We kissed!

So it was not a dream then. Holy moly. And today I'm gonna tell him that I love him.

He is sitting on a chair beside the bed and he quickly stands up when I sit up.

This is not what I expected. I feel bile rising in my stomach but I swallow it down.

"Good morning" he says, his eyes roaming everywhere but not looking at me.

"Morning" I reply cautiously.

He gives me my shirt jacket. "Um ye.. vo.."

"Thanks" I say and wear it above my crop top. I'm starting to feel really sick now.

What's wrong with him?

Awkward. Something I've never felt before around him. He always makes me comfortable and at ease around him. But the whole situation now screams awkwardness. Is it about yesterday? Maybe he didn't...

"Okay I'll get straight to it" he suddenly speaks up and my thoughts come to an abrupt stop.

I nod for him to go on. But I want anything but for him to go on. I don't wanna hear what he's going to say. Because I know what he's going to say and I'm not ready for the harsh slap I'm about to get on my feelings. I clutch the bedsheets tightly and wait for the blow to hit me hard.

Here it comes.

"Yesterday jo kuch bhi hua nashe me.. I'm.. I'm sorry.. Mai soch nahi raha tha.. I shouldn't have kissed you like that.. actually I don't even remember much of it, it's all a blur. The whole of last night is a complete blur.. I.."

Before he continues any further I run to the bathroom, slam the door shut behind me and throw up. All the content of yesterday comes out as my eyes become watery.

I clench my stomach as some tears flow down my cheek. My head and stomach is paining so badly. It's unbearable. I am never going to drink again.

Nor am I going to fall in love.

There is slight banging on the door. "Aslesha? Aslesha oh my god are you okay? Aslesha?" I hear his muffled, worried voice.

"Yes" I croak a reply. "Kal thodi jyada pee li thi na. I'm feeling sick" I say and slide down the cold bathroom floor and put my head in my hands.