Seventeen imagines

#67 "Confessing is hard"

svtshortimagines #Mingyu (#67)
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Love.

Love is the most powerful thing in the whole universe and the greatest gift humanity got from above. It can mirrors ourselves, our actions and the way we approached people around. Love can makes us inspired and moves forward as it pushes us to do our best in every tasks we will encounter. And for me, it is the main reason I became happy as ever.

However, love indeed is a scary thing to feel. Pain, discouragement and regret; those things blinded all the people who want to step forward to their love ones, but they got coward as soon as they approached a moving way. Yes, I, myself, is a coward.

That is why, I respect people who can gulped their pride and can open their eyes and sacrifice their heart to face the results in the future. How brave they are, I admire it. Whenever I heard a confession, it made my heart thump fast! As I wish I can be them and confess,not just to the one involves, but also, to my own self.

Today, I decided to confess my feelings to my closest friend, Lee Jihoon. I will tell him that I like him, not just a friend, but a man I want to have by my side romantically.

Its been 10 years, yes, 10 years we've been together. But in those past years, I never thought of saying my feelings to him. Just like I said, I've been scared. But now, I must do it. Not just for me, but also for him. I don't want to kid him, thinking I always hanged around with a mind of a friend.

Now I am waiting for him outside the gate of his school.

My hands are trembling, as well as my knees. The wind is cold but I feel it as two times cold than the others. I thought there is a lump between my throat since I couldn't gulp nor breathe in peace. Should I go back?

No!

I must tell him!

This courage to tell it to someone you like, I gathered it for almost 10 years! It was so special I can't throw it away!

"Uhm h-hi?"

A voice came out of nowhere. I looked from behind and saw a tall man standing behind. He has those pretty face, I think every girl can fall for: perfect alignment of his brows, those chinitos eyes, pointed nose and pinkish lips. He has a tan skin, bringing a perfect ambiance of a real man. All in all, he is like a man that those girls out there  wished for, TALL, DARK AND HANDSOME.

I looked around and checked if there is anybody around, but saw no one. Why did this pretty young man talking to me?

"Do you know me?" I asked and pointed myself.

"You are (y/n) right?" He asked. And if I am not mistaken, his cheeks are reddened. Maybe, the weather is too cold for him.

"How did you know me?" I asked as my eyes wandered at his uniform. Oh? He is attending the same school as Jihoon. Maybe, he saw me hanging with him.

"I like you!" He shouted.

I was bewildered. Did I hear it wrong?

"Y-You mean a-as a human?" I flustered.

"No, as a woman. I like you for years. It took me years to confess. My name is Kim Mingyu, please date me!" He shouted with those reddened cheeks of him.

I respect people who had the courage to confess to the one their love. I envy them and admire them. And then, this man came to me and confessed.

My heart beats crazy and it pounds 2 times per second.

How will I answer a person who looks like me? A person who held his feelings for years? And a person who decided to confess today?

"I---" I'm about to answer.

"Yah what are you doing here?" I heard Jihoon voice.

My eyes widen as I titled my head and looked at him, Jihoon is approaching.

Jihoon looked at the man named Kim Mingyu and asked, "Do you know him?" He exchanged look to us.

"H-He is..." I blabbered.

But Mingyu cut my words, "you don't need to answer for now! I will come again in front of you and... And you can give me a chance to prove myself. Okay?!" And then he run away.

"What's that?" Jihoon muttered while looking at him.

"Ahh!" Mingyu shouted because he bumped his forehead in the light post. He stood up and ran away again.

"Why are you here?" Jihoon asked me.

I looked back at him and held my chest.

Jihoon put his hand on my cheeks and asked, "Your cheeks is reddened."

Because of that man, I can't confess to him today. So I need to hold back this feelings and this tears I've been hiding.

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