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#156 "Reasons"

You and Joshua broke up yesterday.

Can you imagine how awkward it is to meet your ex-boyfriend in the next morning?

Your group of friends decided to went for an barbeque party in Joshua's penthouse near the Mt.Baekdu. Because it was planned last week, the group expecting you to come along and have a good time; not knowing about the break up recently.

Of course, you don't want to ruin the atmosphere, and so you decided to keep it a secret until the outing is finished.

Heavy sighs come in and out, as you  grilled the pork bbq at the side.

"I'll be okay. I just need to avoid him. That's all," you mumbled.

Mingyu, your tall, dark and handsome close friend approached you while handling  a plate full of marinated chicken.

"Aren't you tired?" he asked before putting the plate on the side.

You lifted your head to gaze upon his perfect face. "Tired of?"

"You've been grilling for about 3 hours straight, while our other friends are out there; drinking beers and eating those. Tsk! Your feet feel numb, aren't they? Give me the tong. I'll grill the remaining meats instead. Come on," he offered but you declined.

"I'm okay. Don't worry." You avoided his gaze, afraid that this quick witted person noticed your weird behavior today.

He began to narrowed his eyes as he crossed his arms. "This is weird. Supposedly, you and Joshua hyung used to be lovey dovey 24/7. Yah, I think you were avoiding him since the sun rose. What happened?"

Those happy memories with Joshua popped inside your head. They were happy thoughts, yet you feel hurt. There is no turning back; You choose to let go, to give up and to let the pain remain like a stain that will never ever washed off.

Mingyu leaned closer. His thumb caresses your cheeks as if holding a rare treasure. That's how you realized... YOU ARE ALREADY CRYING.

Your eyes met him. His gaze is full of worries, vain and maybe, a jealousy?

To think that Mingyu is standing by your side and giving a comfort , aren't you feel ashamed?

"Don't," you protested. "Don't touch me. Please,"  a kind of beg that made him freeze.

His lips were pursed in line and his heart was about to burst in pain.

"What's wrong with her? It is wrong to comfort her? What's made her cry? And Why did she push me away?" silent thoughts shouting inside his head.

Now there is a silence. The wall stood in between, drawing a line called, "Boundary."

"(y/n)," someone called your name from afar. When the two of you looked back, you saw your other friend, Dino. "Joshua hyung seemed drunk. He was calling your name while throwing everything he saw inside his room. Aish, he also accidentally cut his hand by a broken piece of glass. No one can tame him. I think you need to check him out."

Hearing the news, you put the tong down and dashed inside the pent house. Mingyu followed you on the way to Joshua's room.

But when you are about to enter with him, you stopped Mingyu from following you. " Don't come in. This is my business," you said before turning the door knob.

"Y-Yeah," he responded, taking one step away from the door.

You entered the room and saw Joshua sitting above his bed.

The lights are turned off, and the only thing that brightening the surroundings are the flickering lamp near to his desk.

Broken glass, books and canned beers are loitering at the ground. You can smell the reek of alcohol even from meters away from him.