It was cold ass night
Namjoon and you were cuddled together in the same bed in his room.
His arms were tightly wrapped around yours, his chin on top of your head while your face was resting on top of his chest that was gently going up and down; the sound of his heat beat comforting you.
His warmth was all you ever needed to survive for the rest of your life, his smile brought light into the darkest locations of your heart
He was your everything
And hopefully you too were his everything.
But even though he fills you with love everyday
You're still so insecure
You're afraid
Right now, you're in the happiest moment of your life
And this might as well be...the last
One day, all this could end
He could just leave you
He might just move on
Or the there could be an disagreement between the two of you
Things could take a turn quickly
The thought of not having him by your side scared you more than death it self
His arms no longer embracing you was like your heart no longer beating.
He was your reason
The reason that you haven't gone to that dark place
The reason why you still smile
The reason why you still try
He's the reason you needed
And will always need
And you too want to be his reason
You want to be that person
That person he turn to when he's at a breaking point
The person who he
screams at
Laughs at
Smiles at
Cries at
Cries with...
You want him to be selfish
You want to give all of you to the whole of him
Even if that results in you being empty
As long as he was there
There is a reason
There always is a reason
