Frozen Away

Day Five: We need to talk

Shiro is gone.

We may have won the battle, we may have escaped unharmed, but we lost the most important thing. We lost our leader. The the actual rift may have exploded, but so has the one inside of the castle. Since Shiro is gone, we obviously needed someone to take his place and that just happened to be the one person who didn't want it, Keith. I don't blame him for not wanting to take over the black lion, anyone could have saw how close him and Shiro were. In some ways, I feel for him. He lost the one person he could call family, and believe me, I know how hard it is to have family ripped away from you.

Every time Allura tries to talk to Keith about the Black lion he gets defensive and almost runs away. Whatever went on between him and Shiro must have been pretty serious for him to reject this so badly. Then again, I can't say much about accepting your situation because I did reject my power after all. After all... that's definitely a way to put it. After all this, after all that, after everything I still can't say that I fully accept my position. It's been 7 months since I caught the curse bug and it's been hell. The paranoia of being caught, the fear of being rejected, let's not forget the issue of control, and the good old days of no sleep due to the witch in my head. Witch, druid, whatever they call it out here, it's obvious it isn't harmless. A few times in my sleep it's attacked me and the thing has even stalked me through out the castle and missions before just watching me. As it stands, I'm starting to think it'll just be better if I cage it in my mind but I know it won't work. It's sad to say but it has more power in my own head  than I do. However, along with the wonderful co-pilot I have in my head, I've had to leave the love of my life behind since Shiro's disappearing act. My poor baby Blue, she has been ripped from my arms and replaced by Red. Now don't get me wrong, Red is great and all, but she's just a bit fast and temperamental for what I'm used to. Blue and I just had that bond you know? We clicked.

However, it is what it is and Blue seems happy to be with Allura. Red also seems to have taken a liking to me. She seems happy that I so openly accepted her paladin as our new leader, but in reality what else would I do? Keith is the best fit to be leader and the Black lion chose it's paladin. I respect it's decision and I'll respect his. Sure we haven't seen eye to eye on some issues but he's learning how to be a good leader and that's what he needs right now. It is even more important now that Lotor has showed up. We don't really know anything about him other than he's Zarkon's son and that he doesn't seem too overly focused on Voltron like Zarkon was. If you ask me, I think he's planning something behind the scenes. What is he planning? How could I know, but it isn't good whatever it is. Lotor is smart and that's what worries me. His attacks are calculated and focused with a clear idea of what he wants accomplished. It honestly scares me worse than Pidge when they haven't slept for a few days straight. Enough of that though, I have a witch to stare at.

I looked to the corner of the bridge that we were all on as Coran was debriefing us on our next mission. The Devil spawn was just watching me as I listened to what we have to do. It was a simple search and rescue on one of the few remaining free from before the war plants. Go in, use the scanners, grab the person, and get out. Simple and easy but that's never how it goes. Halfway into the mission, after we found our person, the Galra showed up. Pidge and I rushed off to return them to the planet's castle since we had the faster lions. Once we were done we rushed off to help the others and in the middle of  the battle, that thing popped up in front of my lion. I stopped for a millisecond but it was enough to get hit by the enemy and hard. Hunk swooped in to cover me as I regained my baring, assuring Red that I was alright. Hunk also made a quick comment, asking if I was okay and which I joked a reply and got back to the battle, tearing the various fighters apart. The fight didn't last much longer and we didn't even have to form Voltron, but the excitement didn't last for long. We got back to the ship and it was quick for Allura to start questioning us on the various things we did. We all had a collective groan but I had to hold my tongue once she got to me.