Frozen Away

The Truth

You would think that this would be easy. I mean, I am the flirt, the loud mouth, the class clown, the anything but quiet guy and yet, here I am outside of a door, trying to prepare myself for this conversation. It was as if I was coming out to an un-accepting parent and while I am coming out in a way, they all accept me as far as I know.  None of them seemed to care from what little I've been awake, so why I am so nervous? Am I afraid, nauseous, angry? Or am I just tired of living my life in the shadow?

Currently, I am leaning against the wall outside of the lounge, listening to everyone make small talk about what I might say. If anything, they all seemed more concerned about my well being than the fact I have powers. Its a bit relieving, but still nerve wracking. Everything they say just seems like another nail in my coffin of lies, but its too late now to worry about that. I take a small sigh as I stepped away from the wall and into the room. Everyone suddenly stopped talking and stared at me. Glancing at the floor and pausing momentarily, I step off to the side and sit down like everyone else. I made a quick scan of everyone, returning my eyes to the floor as I tried to arrange my thoughts. Nothing about this situation makes sense, so now is as good as any to break the silence.

"Soo, uh... How about this weather?" I dryly chuckle as I keep my eyes to the floor, listening for anyone to reply but to only find silence. "You'd think it'd change after seven days.. " even more silence, "Especially after that ice storm-"

"How long?"

I look up to find everyone, and myself, looking over to Allura. Keith dropped his head a bit and turned to me.

"How long have you known?" That same soul eating gaze was staring through my being.

Glancing to the side a bit, I slowly leaned backwards to look at everyone who had drifted their attention to me.

"I... I'm not sure..." I let out a small sigh, "The more I think about it, its had to of been at least a year, if not longer, of actually knowing that I have this ability." Pausing a bit, a look to see everyone's disbelief, "However,  when I received this gift, it was sometime when we all got separated due to the wormhole."

"So you haven't always had this?" Pidge chimed in, looking to me, to Keith, and then back to me. "You weren't born with it like Keith and his heritage?"

"No," I glanced to Coran and Allura, "while Coran is correct on it being completely meshed with my DNA, I only  got it back then."

"What can you exactly do?"

"Well, ice. I can form ice  from the water in the air or project it from my body, I can melt, reshape or freeze within an acceptable temperature range. I can't turn extremely hot liquid to ice, and I can't melt extremely cold things either. I can use it to create and enhance weapons, and I can heal slightly faster." Counting on my hand, I quickly nod to myself that it is the correct amount of items. "It comes with a drawback though."

"What is it?" Hunk put his hands on his lap, leaning a forward on them.

"If I overuse my powers, my body will freeze itself and that's what you saw before I went into the pod. It lowered my natural body temp a whole lot and Heat can actually kill me. Even too hot of a shower will burn my skin. Uhm..." I nervously scratch the back of my head, debating on telling them about my mind buddy. I decided to leave that for another day. "And um.. if I get emotionally overwhelmed I ooze ice? Basically I just loose control and ice kind of goes everywhere."

The room became silent again and it was pretty clear that confusion wasn't the only thing filling the space. The tension was so think, Voltron couldn't cut through it. Everyone was sharing glances between each other and avoiding me. So much for feeling comfortable in a space I guess. If anything I'm feeling more isolated than I did before they found out. All I wanted was for someone to speak up and say anything and I looked around the room desperately for anyone to just say anything. Though, no one would say anything. I would have preferred anything but the silence. I sighed and dropped my head into my hands, and slowly brought them up and through my hair as my nerves only grew more.