Multiply - Ed Sheeran

Touch And Go

Emily sighed as she looked in the mirror and ran her hand through her hand. "He has to go." She told herself. "You have to." She told herself. "You have to... touch and go." She said nodding. She thought for a smile moment. "Yeah, touch and go." She added with a tiny smile. "Touch and go."

She met Ed up for lunch since he wasn't there that morning and was leaving again that day. She kissed him as they met up and they soon found themselves with their food, talking about his busy schedule.

"Emily I know it's hard. I'm aware." He said. "But for now it's all I can do."

"How long can we be touch and go, Ed?"

"How long can we what?" He asked in confusion.

"How long can we... you know... see each other, tell each other we love each other, then leave. Ed, I wanna love you too, but this... this isn't a good sign in our relationship. I do love you. I love you more than anyone, but we're always away from each other. We just facetime and call and text. And I... I miss staying up and laughing and loving each other so much." She stated.

"Emily... I just... I mean the touring is changing a lot about us. And we can't be 'touch and go' or whatever you said. Emily, I love you. Without a doubt. But... It worries me. Us being away."

"I know it. I worry because I don't know what could happen if you're here one night and gone for three months by the m=next morning. I could end up pregnant or I find out my cancer came back-"

"Wait, what?" Ed asked in shock. He never heard her say this before. "You had cancer? When was this?" He asked a bit too loud. She hesitated.

"Teen to eleven years old." She said. He ran his hand through his hair. "I had no idea I didn't tell you! I thought I would've said something. I guess I just didn't say it." She said honestly. "I am so, so sorry I didn't say anything." Ed didn't say anything, but his face seemed both expressionless and full of expression.

"I'm not angry that you never said anything, I'm just... wow. Shocked." He said. "Since I met you I guess there are things we never said."

"Like what?"

"Like that! That was rather important. I mean if you got cancer again someday... imagine what that would be like? If you suddenly... if you did get it again." She nodded.

"I'm really sorry, Teddy." She said. She thought for a moment. "What stuff have you never said to me before?" She asked him. He thought for a moment.

"I told him a secret." Emily knew exactly who Ed was talking about. "I told him when I met you I thought you my soulmate. And that we'd never break up or we would never be... so apart like this. I had no idea how wrong I might be about that. And... when you told me to have a one-night-stand... I tried. But she saw his picture and left." He said honestly.

"Ed... have there ever been other girls you've dated?" She asked worriedly. "Since you've been with me.

"No. Not at all. I haven't even kissed a different girl in the past three years." He said honestly. "What about you?" He asked.

"Of course not. But I have..." His eyebrows furrowed.

"What?"

"Um... you know how I've been to so many different countries?" She asked him. He nodded. "Um... I um... I have been..." She took a deep breath in. "Sexually assaulted in some of those places too." She let out quickly. He put his face in his hands. "And um... I was reading some articles of other people who work for the same newspapers as I do and in their past, before this job, they had said some stuff about me and you."

"Like what?" She thought for a moment. 

"Like... like whenever you and I were out at a carnival and you tried to win me that teddy bear but you weren't strong enough and so I had to do it. They said that was rough." She said honestly. "And how you don't get as emotional when talking about... him." She said honestly. "Some people say you don't spend enough time with me."