It's just a Julie thing you wouldn't understand 1

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                ******Julie******

"Look mom I know you are worried about me and all but that doesn't mean I appreciate you taking things to personal here okay. I mean I'm old enough to  know I have to take my medications so stop acting like I'm some kid okay I can take care of my self okay". I look at my mom to see she was crying. "Look at me mom please look at me I'm not going to die okay. I'm still here look at me I'm will always be here even if I die I'm always going to be a part of your heart okay". "But you don't understand love it just hurts so much to see you going through all this by yourself". "Even if I could share this sickness trust me I wouldn't what to share it with anyone cause trust me you don't want to know how it feels. But hey I'm still alive right so smile for me now I don't ever want to see you crying because of me again I know it hurts for a mother to see her own kid go through all this but I know I will make it out alive okay. Can we please go back before everyone starts wondering what's taking us so long".

Coming back the only place free was next to Alex since Sara was busy talking to Mary. I toke a sit next to him and look around to see Angel peacefully sleeping in dads hands. Mom toke her from him and toke her upstairs to place her in her bed. "Okay I have and idea let's play a game", Sara said out of nowhere. "We used to play it when we were little it was the only way mom and dad could tell us everything" , she said. Okay so what the game? Mary asked. "Well someone would spine a bottle and if the top of the bottle lands on you that means you will answer any questions the other person ask. And the people asking would be the person at the end of the bottle. The rules are simple you can ask what ever you want and the other must answer them but most only tell the truth and if you don't know then it's okay".

"Hmmm I think I will pass on this game Sara", I said. "Why is that Julie is there something you are hiding from all of us or what?" "Why do you always think that way of people and no I'm not feeling fine I'm just gonna sit back and watch you guys so go ahead". "You know this is a family tradition right?" "And does it look like I care and when was the last time this so call family tradition happened. You know something is only a tradition if you do it every year right". "Come on girls let it go" said Mary.

Sitting back I felt so dizzy and my head felt like it was going to explode. I bend over to pick something from the floor I felt something warm run out of my nose I look at the floor to see it was blood I tried standing up but ended on the floor I felt all eyes on me. Mom came to my side.

"Hey Julie are you okay?" My vision became fuzzy my head was killing me and I could still feel blood running down my nose. "Mom she is bleeding",Sara said as she tried lifting my head up. "Sara go get a bucket with some water". I heard footsteps before everything went black.

"Will she be alright?" "I think so at least I hope so", I heard people saying. Opening my eyes I close them back because of the pain in my head and eyes I tried once more only to grown in pain. "She is up", I felt two people standing next to me opening my eyes with less pain than before I look around to see mom and dad standing there.

"Hey baby how are you feeling?" mom asked. "I'm fine just testy and a little headache. So what happened I mean want I'm doing in a hospital?"

"You past out and we couldn't stop your nose from bleeding so we brought you to the hospital as soon as possible" my mom explain.

"Aah okay so when I'm are aloud to go home?" "That we will see how about you just relax and Sara can you please get the doctor?" The second Sara left and my dad too since he went out to inform everyone I was fine, I turn to my mother.

"Did you tell them?" "No Julie I didn't but maybe you should. I mean everyone was so worried I almost told them. But then again it's not my secret to tell I mean most people would tell their family so that if something like this happened they would know why".

"I know mom but I'm not ready yet okay I would tell them when I think the time is right". "And when would that be Julie when would you finally decided that this is not how things work?" "Stop this mom just stop it okay you don't get to talk to me that way okay I might be your daughter but that doesn't mean you have the right to judge me. I said I would do it when the time is right why can't we just talk about something else?" "Why?" "Because you are stressing me out and I don't need this right now all I want to do is go home go for a swim and relax". "I don't think that would be possible". "And why not?" "Because we are going home if we were home none of this would have ever happened". "Just great maybe you should lock me up in my room forever that way this would never had happened. Maybe you should have done same with grandma instead of living her to make great memories. So you think if you lock me up in my room no of this would have happened well there you go wrong. But hey you are older and know better but when I leave one day and don't come back please don't come looking for me. And don't you try asking why cause it because of all this crap I have to deel with".