It's just a Julie thing you wouldn't understand 1

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Going down stairs after sleeping the hole night with out no nightmares check the time it was 7 in the evening I can't believe I slept all day going inside the kitchen I heard my grandma calling my name in the dinning room. Entering the room Alex and his family and mine were sited. "Omg did you and your sister have a fight again who many times have I told you to stay away from her Julie" my mom said. "Look if this is why you called me I'm going back to my room I snap." I started walking but mom stop me "look here Julie you can't go around looking for trouble you know Sara." "Look mom you know what I hate is that you didn't even ask what happened or who started it but concluded I was the one who started this. This is the same thing you do every fucking time even with Kyle you lied to the coups saying it was self-defence my ass you know what mother don't pretend like you don't know what happened here everything Sara beats the crap out of me but no being the lovely mother you are you never ask what happened it always me something I which you guys weren't my family." Mom slap me across the face making me lose my balance and falling to the floor. "Why don't you just let me go back to my room that way you guys can enjoy your family dinner." Standing up I went to the kitchen taking a cup of ice-cream some cookies and drank putting them on the table Sara walk in with Alex. "Hey does cookies are mine you can't take them" Sara said. "And why not there is one extra packet in the cabinet" I said opening the fridge taking out a bottle of water look at her "do you need anything from me?" She walk over look me dead in the eyes I smiled and said "so Sara didn't we have an agreement that you would leave me alone and stay the fuck away from me and  I will not even look at your fiancé or even sit in the same room has him." I look at Alex who had a confused look on his face. "Oh she didn't tell you why I beat the crap out of her and she out of me one is because she wouldn't keep her hand to her self and second because I have to stay away from you and that I don't mind since I have no interest in you or your wedding. But let's be clear here I'm not attending the wedding that will be over my dead body not after all she has done to me" and with that I pick up my things. "Tell me one thing Julie why do you hate me so much Sara ask?" "Hahah you don't know then you most be living under a rock but since I'm so sweet I will tell you. One because every time I seems to fine someone who love me you always end up being the reason for are breakup. You are the reason for me being unhappy your are the reason for Kyle being in the hospital for what jealousy you are the reason I hate this family you are the reason my one hand is not functioning.      everything that has ever gone wrong is your fault how many times did I end up in the hospital because of you why because of you jealousy because you can't stand to see anybody happy but your self. You are not my big sister she was a kind and loving person to be around she always looked out for me and gave me advice she was my best friend she was my hero she was someone I looked up. But when I see you standing here having her face is makes me made cause to me that sister I once had is dead and the person standing here is just some left over or let's say the bad side of her. Look I will leave this house for you and your fiancé and the rest of the guys you are going to bring in but just so you know karma is a bitch and what ever you do to someone goes around to don't forget that if it doesn't happen know it will soon or later trust me on this and when it comes it will leave you standing like and empty shield. I don't hate you Sara I'm just disappointed in who you have become. I don't hate you I just lost respect for you. I don't hate you I just don't want to give you the opportunity to hurt me again. I don't hate you but let's put it this way if I had a bucket of water and you were on fire I would drink the water. But most of all I hate the fact that I don't hate you not even close not even a little bit not even all. Anger is our natural defence against pain so when I say I hate you it really means you hurt me." "But Julie I'm sorry." "I don't care what you say so don't even speak." "But after all you said it sounds like you do hate me." "I don't hate you hating you would mean I care. Didn't give a fuck yesterday don't give a fuck today probably won't give a fuck tomorrow. I just hate what you did to Kyle he was only trying to advice me because my big sister was being to much of a slut to luisent to my problems. Talking negative about a person doesn't define who they are it defines who you are Sara! You would learn from you mistakes if you weren't so busy denying them." Mom turn me around "Julie how could you say such things to you sister we are family." "Before offering self-righteous advice about how family should act maybe you should look inward and accept responsibility for your own cruel behaviour!!! I not saying you are a bad mother I just saying some people should have to apply to be parents. My patience is wearing thin and by wearing thin I mean you are one smart-ass comment away from being bitch slapped so hard Google won't be able to find you... here's a thought... maybe you wouldn't have to mention you are a Christian all the time if you just acted like one most of the time. You know what mother I wish I could order karma like a pizza and have it delivered in 30 minuets or less." "God Julie are you on you period cause you sure are in a bad mood." "No I'm not in a bad mood mother I'm in a hey if I get the opportunity to punch someone in the face today I'm taking it mood! You people are so ungrateful. No one ever thanks me for having the patience not to kill them and with that I went to my room."