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Julie

"You know I don't mind staying here you know but all I want is to be able to look at Sara in the eyes one more time and say I'm sorry for all the pain I caused her. That I'm sorry for all the heart break I cause her that I'm sorry for everything that I did to her for all the hurt. I know I have been a horrible sister to her and me not knowing the pain she was going through. I might not always have been nice to her due to the fact that I felt she hurt me but she always just tried to be happy. She might have been a really big pain in the ass but still she was looking for happiness and me being happy most have just given her a reason to hate me. I mean she might have thought why does she get to be happy when I'm not why does she get to have a family and do stuff  like go out have with different guys have a kid and steal my boyfriend when I have none of that. She might have done wrong but maybe she will try to do right when she knows I understand her reason. Can you at least do that for me please I know I might never see her again but can you at least tell her I'm sorry for all the pain I caused her for everything I did to her she didn't deserve that. But yeah me being a selfish person I am I only thought of my self. Tell her she can have Alex if that is what's going to make her happy. She can keep him it's not like I will be returning anyway. Tell Angel I love her and that no matter how hard was she was the best thing that happened to me. She is my everything and all I ever wanted was to make sure she had everything she ever needed and maybe more. Tell her her father loves her and will do what ever it takes to keep her save. I know I might not be there but I will always love her and watch over her. Tell her Sara loves her and just want to be part of her life. It might be hard but with time everything will be fine they will leave through this and so much more to come." "Wow I didn't expect you would say something like I mean she did also hurt you and stuff." " I know that but I don't want to be judgmental I also did some horrible things to her and she might not forgive me but I forgive her I just want to die knowing I forgive her and I can go knowing I died in peace in a hospital bed."

"Wait what's going on why am I fading away?" " Well dear Julie I guess the gods have given you a second chance I guess you can go forgive Sara your self let her know how you really feel and stuff. Use this chance wisely cause you only get one." "Thanks very much and please thank god for me." And with that everything turn black and before I knew it I was back in the hospital room I could hear the sound of machines and all.

Alex
Going to face Sara felt like crap. I can't believe this is the girl I have loved for the past month. When I meet her I thought I had found everything I was looking for in a woman. I even remember telling Julie that her sister was the love of my life. But all of that change the day I kiss Julie it felt I like everything I didn't have it felt like I found half of me and for Sara to beat of that part of me makes me feel like crap. How much I hate her right now is and under statement I feel like running her head into a brick wall. But I know I can't do that I might hate her as much as I want to but she is still Julie's big sister. Julie is a very nice girl and people always take advantage of that but she is also someone who knows what she wants and deserves and need. She is a very hard warming person so for her I would hurt Sara at least for now I want her to make that decision her self I want her to be the one that decided what's going to happen to her sister even though Sara didn't give her a choice. But I just need to have a word with her to know what was going on in that head of hers when she did what so ever she did to Julie and if she was planning on keeping her there any longer. I don't even know what to say to her or how to start. The closer we get the more nervous I became but I have to do this I have to do it for Angel. "We are here JJ said as he opened the door. I look inside to see Sara her once beautiful face look absolutely horrible. Her beautiful blonde hair look like crap from sleeping on the dirty floor. The second she saw me her eyes light up she look happy seeing me. "Alex I'm so happy you are here I don't even know what I'm doing here can you please take me out of here." "No you don't get to talk to me you don't even get to be next to me. Not after what you did to your sister not after what you did to everyone. I have been so piste off for the last week first not knowing where Julie was. And you just pretending to feel my pain. Your are one crazy bitch. You're looked down upon, you are pitied by everyone, you're an emotional charity case and a burden in people's lives."  "I'm sorry Alex I really I'm I didn't mean to hurt you guys I just wanted you for myself that's all I ever wanted I didn't mean to hurt Julie and I don't know why I did I'm sorry." "You can be sorry all you want but I'm out of here." I walk out look at her and said. "You have no right to be alive and should be dead.
This is why no one can stand you.
"You are now dead to me." And with that I walk way.