It's just a Julie thing you wouldn't understand 1

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                                                                      ********* Julie*************
"Come on Julie stop saying things like that". Things like what the truth look at me mom I might only have a few months or years to live and what are you doing. Keeping me from having fun do you really want my last memories to be of the four walls of my bedroom or what?" "Of course not Julie I don't want that I wouldn't even want that for myself". "Then why are you always trying to keep me inside. Why did we stop going on vacation it was cause of me right? Why did we stop going out together? why did I always have to stay home? It simply causes I'm sick cause oh hey she is going to start losing blood and embarrassed us all. You know what why don't we just go home okay I would stay in my room on till the day I die that way you can always keep an eye on me even though you are never there when I need you. First you tell me crap like how you want to make it up to me only to ask me to be your favourite daughter maid of honour. Believe me mom I would rather die than go to that fucking wedding and Sara can go to hell for all I care". "Julie come on don't be like this". "Be like what mother? Why do you always pick her side even when you know she is wrong? Why is it because you don't love me? Don't answer that I'm sure you don't really care how I feel so I would love it if you left". "Julie but...." "mom don't. Don't push it mom please leave".

I have been in this hospital room now for more than 5 hour and still I haven't seen or heard from a doctor. Whatever I stood up went to the bathroom got a change of clothes pack everything back up and decided it was time I got the hell out of here.

It has been two hours since I left the hospital and headed back to are beach house. Sines there was no one around I toke this as a moment to go take a swim before my parents come and tell me it's time to go back home.

I have never felt so relaxed in a long time. Just felling the water against my skin remained me that I should sometimes make time for my self. Having Angel and hiding her has been so stressful and all that I didn't even think of taking time off for myself. I have miss the ocean and the wind on my bare skin.

I feel free for the first time in months. "Julie is that you?" I turn around to see it was Alex. Why is he here he hasn't even looked at me since the day we had sex and now he is here. I look away from him not trying to make eye contact I don't need him here. "Hey Julie what's wrong why did you just leave the hospital like that without a word?" "Oh please Alex don't act like you care about what I do or don't. Is not like you have done any of that all week. Tell me something do you go around sleeping with girls and then choose to ignore them like nothing happened. I know you don't want my sister to find out and all but you behaving this way just makes me believe your are more and asshole than my sister". "Look Julie I'm sorry I didn't mean any of that but that doesn't explain why you left the hospital". "I left cause I got bored okay I wanted some alone time you know what you should try having some fun with your fiancé too. Before we all go back to are busy lives where we don't give a shit about the other person. As you can see I'm ready to go swimming care to leave when you are done".

I know I was rude to Alex but I just couldn't help it. I couldn't take it anymore. I know I have a thing for him and just maybe I'm hurt that after we share something so intimate he would just go and ignore me. I feel so bad I said whatever I said, I should apologise. Walking back to the beach to see Alex sitting down next to my stuff. Why is he still here I thought he would have left by now. "Hmmmm Alex I'm sorry for what so ever I said to you I was just upset with everyone and I kind of put it on you". " it's okay I understand I kind of over head your fight with your mom in the hospital". "Where you ear-dropping on us?" "No I wasn't I hear cause you guys were basically screaming at one another. So when I came back and you weren't there I thought I should come check home first and well here you were". "Thanks for carrying and sorry for being a total bitch it's just I felt used like you used me and were treating me like I didn't matter or something. I know it was a one time thing and I understand if you regret what happened between us but I don't want you treating me like trash". "I'm sorry Julie I really didn't know you felt that way I just thought if maybe we gave each other some space you know things would go back to the way they were before we had sex." "Things are always going to be different Alex I can forget the fact that I had sex with you and I know you can't either. We will never be friends even if we want to because we already did things that friends don't do. We went way beyond the starting line to go back now. But I totally would understand if you didn't speak to me again and trust me I don't want my sister to find out about this so I would try and forget any of this ever happened even this conversation we are having right now so. Let's just pretend like we are friends till we get back and go are separate ways you with Sara me with Angel and try to leave happily". "Hold on right there she is my daughter too you know even thought we dont have the DNA yet. I still want to see her and you too". He stood up and walk closer to me he held me around the waist pulling me closer. "And I want to be able to do this when ever I feel like and where ever". He pulled me even closer till are lips meat. I could feel my legs giving out on me so I rap my hand around Alex's neck to keep myself from falling. After are little make out I felt like the energy between us went back to the way things were just a little but it's better dan him ignoring me. "I'm going swimming wanna join?" "Hmmm sure why not it's hot anyway".