"Julie, Sara's voice trembled as she confronted her long-standing adversary. The weight of their tumultuous history hung heavy in the air, an unspoken tension that had festered for years. 'Why do you hate me so much?' Sara finally asked, her eyes se...
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I have never felt so bad before in my life hearing all does things come out of my little sister mouth yesterday hurt me even more than I expected Alex was with me all night trying to comfort me. I have never cried so much in my life before I have never felt so bad about anything in my life but when Julie said does words to me with tears in her eyes I knew I had crossed the line I was way past the starting line to even get back I was so selfish and selfless I can't even live with myself. I can't even believe I let myself become such a monster I can't even believe all what I did to her and not only her everyone I have ever hurt. Especially Kyle he will never have a life because of me and for that I can't leave with my self I still love him and I will always do it just I got angry seeing him with my sister that it made me wanna kill him thinking he was cheating on me why he was just giving Julie advice because she couldn't come to me not after I had stole her boyfriend. I get she is mad and probably never want to talk to me again but she is right I'm not the person I use to be. I have become this person I'm not because I was so jealous of her because I was scared she was going to get married and I will still be living in my parents house I couldn't believe my 13 year old sister had her first boyfriend when I haven't had my first kiss. I felt like she was trying to humiliate me or make me feel on wordy of any guy. I just felt like she made me a laughing stock it might not be true but I definitely felt that way. I have become this person I don't even recognise when I look in the mirror at first it was nothing to me it was like second nature but after seeing the way I hurt my sister with all this my being happier I realise I became such a with that seek for love. But I already had it and I let it go just because I was to jealous. Waking up Alex was already awake he smiled and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I stood up going inside my bathroom I noticed all my make up for last night was all over my face I look horribly just the way I felt watching my face I came back to the room to see Alex sitting on the bed I toke a sit next to him. Looking at my hands "hmm I know we need to talk but can we please do this when I get back home from Italy please?" "Sure so when are you leaving and when will you be back?" "I'm leaving tonight and I will be back in a week I think it's best if I go and clear my mind and think about what I really want to do with my life. I need you to do me a favour when I'm gone." "What will that be babe?" "I want you to please have a talk with my sister and let her know I'm truly sorry for everything I know Julie and when she is mad she will do anything just to avoid me and her being in the same room would be a teribel idea. She can be an angel but can also be the devil when she thinks you dissever what you get so please talk to her for me you are the only person she listens to and I hope she will find a place in her heart to forgive me even though I know it will take time." "Sure thing I will talk to her that is if she gives me a chance to say a word but don't bother I will do my best." "Thanks babe" giving him a kiss on the lips we head down stairs to make something to eat. "Hey mom." "Hey baby you look horrible I hope this one week in Italy will help. I have never seen you this mess up before are you going to be okay cause I have to go to work now." "Yes I will be fine mother just need to make some breakfast and then take a shower and I would be fine." Julie entered the kitchen all dressed up like she was going out taking a glass of water and an apple she started walking out when mom stop her. "When did this new attitude begin you walking in on us and not even saying good morning and were the hell do you think you are going to?" "Well first of all isn't morning and secondly I'm going to school in case you forgot like you always do it are high school reunions before everyone goes off to college or look for a job or look for something better to do with their life's." And with that she left the room we heard the front door opening and closing after that mom left to for work leaving me and Alex home. "Well I should start making breakfast" I said and Alex decided to make us some coffee. It was really nice to have him around at times like this. Sitting down we started eating are pancakes after a few minutes I broke the silence. "Well I have been thinking after all Julie told me last night that it would be a great idea to go visit Kyle parents and apologise for what happened as for him I'm not aloud near him because of a retreating order. But I hope if I talk to his parents they would let me see him so I can apologise for all the horrible things I have done I really am a horrible person aren't I?" "No Sara like your mother always say everything that happens happens for a reason sometimes good and sometimes bad. But just try and make things better with everyone okay." "Sure."
