It's just a Julie thing you wouldn't understand 1

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It has been two hours since I came home and I called to come downstairs and eat but she hasn't answered yet so I decided to go upstairs and check on her since I knew she was really sick and wasn't feeling fine at first I wanted to send Sara upstairs but knowing her and Sarah are not really on good terms I decided I'll go myself. when I came upstairs her room was completely empty there was only a bed and her dresser standing in there. She was nowhere to be found I can believe this where in gods name could she possibly go to? And why in god names will she do this going inside the room I noticed everything was gone all her stuff was gone when did this happen how could this happen without me even noticing something. Oh my God I was l freaking out I don't even know what to say anymore. I have to find her she's not okay I mean she is sick and I don't even know the first place to start looking for my baby what if something bad happens to her out there? I know she can take care of her self but I don't think in the condition she is in.... I mean I invited Alex family over since his mom is a doctor I thought she could take a look and tell us why Julie was just puking her guts out. I ran to my room put on some some jeans and sports shoes I am so freaked out I don't even know what to do anymore I sat on the bed with tears in my eyes that when I noticed something on my night stand. Walking over to the night stand was a letter from Julie sitting down I opened it and started reading.

Hey mom I know by the time you will be reading this letter I would be very far away. I know you're wondering why I left I really do wanna tell you this mom but I can't I'm very sorry Momi I really wanted to stay but I couldn't. I really think this is best for everyone I mean I know I'm not feeling fine or anything but I can take care of myself so you don't need to be bother about me I'm just hoping you understand I had to leave I just couldn't stay any longer even if I wanted to it was just too much. I just couldn't take anymore drama I thought me and Sara could work things out but it seems like we can never and it feels like no matter how hard I try to make things work they always end up making me feel bad. I mean it just feels like the hole world is on my shoulders I have my own problems mom and I don't need all this stress right now first of all I'm emotionally and fiscally broke right now especially after my fight with Alex last night he thinks I betrayed his trust when I didn't do a thing I'm just hoping your favourite daughter is now happy hope her all the happiness in the world and please don't try looking for me love Julie.

More and more tears came running down my eyes I can believe this was happening Julie left she left just because her sister wouldn't let her be I can believe this are my kids anymore she couldn't even talk to me she could have at list told me what's wrong well knowing my self its not like I would have done something about it. I probably would have chosen Sara side like always. I can't believe what a horrible person I've become lately I know Julie is a good kid she deserves a good mother she deserves to be loved and all I did was put all my love in one of my kids not even noticing it affected her so much and just cause I was cared she could leave us anytime soon and I thought if I loved her less it would hurt less when she is gone. And also cause I didn't want her finding out the truth about her birth . And now she's gone I don't even know what to think again this is all my fault I should've done something before all of this got out of hand but I did nothing I just sat back and watched them destroy one another like it was just a video game but now I realise it's wasn't after everything that's been happening for the last few years it's is now that I finally seems to wake up. It's now that I finally release how miserable my daughter felt all because Sara knew Julie wasn't her sister I let her do what ever she felt like she found out before even her dad did. It was when Julie was 12 years old Sara walk in on me telling my mom that Julie wasn't Daniel's baby and that I have tried so many times to tell him but I couldn't seem to bring out the words but I was going to tell him. Sara made a big sine about it and since that I left her alone to do what ever she wanted just because I was sacred she would tell Julie if I said no to her. And when she started sleeping around and I tried confronting her with that she would always used this against me but now she just went over the line I have let her go way over the starting line and now there is no way back. I shouldn't have let things go this far I should have told Julie the truth I shouldn't have cheated on my husband more and more tears ran down my face it was so hard to believe this was all happening so fast there was no where to run to picking up the peace of paper I went to my aan suite Look at my face in the mirror I whip my tears away watch my face with some cold water and whip it with a towel. Walk back to my room pick up my phone and went down stairs.