Fucking Black Love (Marilyn Manson Fan-Fic)

The Accident

//Victoria's p.o.v.://

I know it sounds stupid but I think this 'break' was good for our relationship. I don't know why I think that but...anyway I think our love is stronger now. I think that because now we have a new start and we can make the things better we did wrong. It like a game. When it's 'game over' you press the 'start' button for a second try. And I hope that this time there won't be mistakes or anything else. I hope everything will be better than before. And that 'Manson' won't come back again. He scared me anyway. I mean, Brian said he won't come back but he can't know it. Some things suddenly come back. I only hope Brian can control this. A second time I couldn't stand it.

I sat in the kitchen and drank something. While that I was thinking about different things. About the past, about the medical center, about nearly everything. In this short time so much happened. But I think it's good that some things happened. For example that I now go to this Christian school. There I met Brian and Jeordie. And I met my best friends Cassandra and Ivy. And then....came the bad things but they aren't necessary now.
The telephone ringed:
I: Yes?
It was Brian.
Brian: Hey Victoria.
I: Hey Brian. What's up?
Brian: Well, I just wanted to ask you whether you wanna come to me. We could go to the park or something. What you want.
I: Sounds good. When could I come?
Brian: Whenever you want. You could come now. In 3 minutes, in 5 minutes...
I: And what would be the best?
Brian: For me, now.
Awww, that was cute
I smiled a bit: If it makes you happy...
Brian: I would be very happy
I: Okay, then I would say bye.
Brian: Okay, bye.

I replaced the telephone headset and went outside. Hanging out with Brian was quite cool...if nothing changed. But I wonder what his parents said to him.

While I walked to his house I saw Brian walked to me. Ha, he can't expect it seeing me xD. But that's cute. "Hey" Brian smiled and embraced me. "Hey." I smiled, too. "Can we go?" Brian asked. "Of course." I meant. He took my hand and went with me in the direction of the park. I think he wants to talk about all things. About how it could go on. Or...about something different. "So...about what do you wanna talk with me?" I asked. "Well... How could it go on with us? I don't wanna make a mistake again, y'know." He meant. Ha! I am so good. But it's quite okay that he asks that. I must confess I don't really know it, either so... xD:"Uhm...good question. I think we should be relaxed. It shouldn't be too quick, y'know. When some things come then okay but... I think we shouldn't force some things." "Like what?" He asked. I looked at him:"Well, what do you think for example?" "Okay okay, I understood." Brian tried not showing his smirk. I smiled a bit. Sometimes he is so...but it's okay. He is a boy. Boys are always a bit...strange. "But... If the chance was good I could try it for that, couldn't I?" How can he always think about this?! Well...okay. I'll live with that. I looked at him:"If it makes you happy..." Brian gave me a kiss on my cheek and smiled. "You're unearthly." I smiled and shook my head. "I am not unearthly, I am incredible." He meant. "Did you eat a clown?" I asked. "I don't know. I don't think so." Brian said. "Okay." I nod. "Hey, I am only a strange boy who's outside with his pretty girlfriend. I am completely normal. You know I always think about crazy shit." Brian said. "Yes...normal..." I laughed a bit. Brian looked at me. "Okay, okay that was not funny." I stopped laughing. "Thank you. But let's go on with the question. I would say we shouldn't be too relaxed 'cause then I would have the feeling that we wouldn't love us, y'know. And I don't want that." aww that was cute. "I agree. I think it should be structured in a way. Maybe there should be something like rules. Some like... I don't know... 'Don't look at somebody's asses' or such like that." I meant. "Sounds good. Your first rule is: 'Don't flirt with other guys'." Brian said. I looked at him:"Are you kidding me?" "No." He answered "You are my girlfriend and you are only mine. You might know that." "Okay, then your first rule is:'Don't look at other girls' tits or asses. Only at mine.'." I meant. "I have no problem with it. Your tits and your ass are the most beautiful tits and ass in the world." I smiled:"Okay, Romeo. That's enough. Your next rule is: 'Don't be jealous when I hang out with another boy.'." "How could I not be jealous? You're a perfect girl for a boy and everyone wants. I must be careful so..." Brian meant "But your next rule is: 'Always stay by my side.'." "I'll always stay by your side." I gave him a kiss on his cheek. He smiled.
We went across a street. There was no car or something else. It was very quiet. "But I must ask you something." Brian began to say. "And what?" I asked. In the background I heard something like a squeak and it became louder. But I ignored it. It's not important now. "Well, you know...anyway I just wondered how you..." suddenly a car rammed us in the back. We 'flew' over the car and plunked on the ground. But the driver rammed Brian more than me. I think I only had a broken rip and a broken leg now but Brian layed there and he didn't move. He only bled. No!!! The driver got out of the car:"Oh no! I didn't see him!" "You didn't see him?!!! OPEN YOUR EYES!!!! I think you have a lisence, don't you asshole?!!!" I was more than angry. "I...I call the ambulance... Immediately." And he did what he said. I sat next to the half-dead Brian. I could cry. Why happens that to him? Why now?! I stroked his cheek:"I don't know whether you can hear but...please survive, okay? I don't wanna lose you." A few tears fell down from my cheek and dropped on his face. I gave him a kiss on his forehead:"Please survive this fucking accident...for me..." But he didn't react, he didn't move.
I heard and I saw the ambulance. Two men ran with a stretcher to us and put Brian on it. A third man came to me:"Are you okay? Can you see everything or is it blurred? Can you hear me? Can you feel everything?" "Yes...my rip and my left leg hurts but I am quite fine. What about my boyfriend? Will he suvive it? Why is he unconscious? When can I go to him?..." The man interrupted me:"Calm down, girl. We will do everything but now we must drive to the hospital and the doctor must check whether everything is okay."  I only nod. The day couldn't be more awful. I will maybe lose him. I must stay strong. He will survive. I know it. He is strong.
And if he dies then I will die, too. I won't leave him alone. Either when he's alive or when when he's dead. I'll stay with him.