Fucking Black Love (Marilyn Manson Fan-Fic)

Only My Girl!

//Brian's p.o.v.://

I was more than angry. NO ONE KISSES MY GIRL!!! She is ONLY MINE!!! "I'll kill you..." I hissed. "Ohh...you wanna kill me? I am so scared." He was like a little infant. Really annoying. "You should....cause I will really do that." I choked him. "Brian, stop it!" Victoria screamed a bit. "Stay out of this." I meant. "But Brian. You make her sad. Do you really want it?" Thackery asked. "Shut the fuck up." I meant. Thackery beat my nose. It began to bleed. Fuck. I beat his face. He began to bleed out of his mouth. "Stop that fucking shit!" Victoria screamed angrily. "It's something between him and me so stay out of this!" I meant again. Thackery nudged me. I wanted to hit him again but Victoria went between us. "I would say you should go away in different directions, okay?" She looked at us. "Okay....we'll see us again, motherfucker." Thackery went away showing the middle finger. "You betcha, you jerk." I meant. "And now I come to you....What's your fucking problem that you wanted to kill him?!" She was angry. She is on his fucking column. Fuck it! I may lose her! "He is bad, okay?! And... you didn't want, either!" I meant annoyed. "But that's no reason! It was only a kiss!" Fuck I've lost her! FUCK! "Only a kiss?! Okay, then why don't you live him together and have fun with him?!" I was more than angry but I felt my heart was bleeding. It was decaying. I've lost the thing that makes me happy. I could cry now. "What does that portend?! Do you think that I love him only because of this kiss?!" I feel my heart is bleeding more. I don't wanna lose my queen. I need her! "If the kiss was bad for you, you would understand me!" I went away. I don't want to hear anyone now. I wanna be alone.
I sat behind a bush and cried. I've lost my queen because of this motherfucker. It can't be... IT CAN'T BE!!!! Why am I so dumb?! I found a razor blade in my pocket. Actually I wanted to stop that but...not now. I began to cut myself on my arm. Losing my queen was the biggest fault in my life. I cried harder. "Please come back to me Victoria...." I whispered. My only wish is dying. I know she doesn't wanna come back to me so why should I live? She was perfect.... She understood me and I.... I am the reason why she left me. I made a deep cut on my arm. At the moment I didn't feel any pain. I only felt my tears and my hurting heart. It calls her name loudly like I crave after her very much. I only hope she forgives me...

Suddenly I felt a cold hand on my shoulder:"Hey you wimp." Victoria sat next to me. I said nothing. I mean on the one hand I was happy but on the other hand not. Maybe she wants to leave me and that would be the biggest nightmare in my life. I made another cut on my arm. Victoria took the razor blade away. "And what do you want now? Do you wanna tell me it's over?" I asked. "No you stupid infant. I wanna ask you why you were....how can I say it nice....stupid?" Victoria meant. "I wasn't stupid...I only did the right thing..." I said silently. "Uhm....okay. If you think that then explain it, please." She stayed calm. Good. I didn't loose her. "I did it because....because he is a wrong person. He acts being your friend but in real-life he choose his victim and kills his soul. He wanted to do it with me either but I struggled. And....that's the reason why we're enemies and because of that he wants that you're on his column." I said. "But...you know I'm always on your column." Victoria looked at me. Yes! I didn't loose her! Haha! But I said nothing. "Did you really think only because of that I don't wanna be your girlfriend anymore or something else? If yes then you don't know me." Victoria giggled a bit and layed her head on my shoulder "But that's okay because that's one reason why I love you..." I'm glad she isn't angry to me. But the thing with Thackery wasn't over. Not yet. I must defeat him.

*SKIPPING TIME*

//Victoria's p.o.v.://

Sometimes I think Brian doesn't really know how it is having a girlfriend. But I must confess it was cute when he had a bad feeling because of that. An evidence that he loves me. But I have the feeling it isn't over. He tries to do something against Thackery. Hmm... I... I think I must read his book....his 'diary'. Maybe....maybe I will find some more informations about 'Manson' or something. But not yet. I think I will do it in the night or if he goes away. But I must watch out because... if he sees it or something... I will be dead. Totally dead. Or I might talk with him more about Manson. Maybe then he will tell me something more but... I don't think he would do that. He is too clever for such a dumb thing.

We were at home and smoked. I must confess it was a bit...a bit... I don't know how I can explain it. But well... I don't care. I looked at Brian. He looked like he was thinking about something. "Is everything okay?" I asked. "Yes, yes..." he said thinking. I don't like that. Now I try something:"Brian I take of my whole clothes in front of you." He didn't react. What? That's...how could that be? I try another thing:"You know...if we went to 'our fave room' you could do everything with me. And I do what you want." He didn't react. "Brian?!" I asked loudly. "Hm? What did you say?" He asked. "Is everything okay?" I asked again. "Yes I... I only thought about something." He meant. "About what?" I asked. "Unneccessary." He answered. I think he thinks about Thackery. I don't like that. "You think about Thackery, don't you?" I said wondering. "Like I said it's unnecessary." why did he point 'unneccessary' out? I only asked him. Hmm... I think he wants to make a plan and Thackery was a point in it. But what he wants to do exactly... I don't know. "It isn't. It's dumb to think about that what happened. Just forget it." I took a long pull on my cigarette. "But I can't!" he was very angry. "Chill...but why? I mean, he didn't abuse me or something." I meant. "But it's too much for me! You are my girl! Only mine! And no motherfucker has to kiss you or something else! They can kiss other girls or bitches but not you!" Brian went upstairs. Wow... I witnessed him like this before. And I was worried about him. Now he said that I am 'only his girl' in front of me. That was odd. Like...I am his slave or his own creature. I think... I should read his diary as fast as I can because if I didn't do that he could be crazier than he is.

//Brian's p.o.v.://

Why doesn't she understand that fucking shit?! Thackery is my enemy. My mortal enemy! And she is my Queen of Hearts! I thought our power was perfect... I thought our power was invincible... But this motherfucker destroyed it! Our power must be bigger and stronger. I must try it different that it works better. Maybe with more strictness... Yes that's it. I was too nice. Now I must use other rules. They are stricter...harder...better! Then she'll be more like me. Then she'll do what I want. Haha!! I took a sheet of paper:

My plan for the next time:

1. Torture Thackery so hard that he wanna have mercy

2. Teach Victoria with stricter rules

But I think I should be alone for today. I wouldn't be so good if we were together. Manson did enough for today. I took an absinthe bottle. I need this. Absinthe is always good. And now I must deliberate how I can torture Thackery so hard that that he wants to have mercy... hm... I could... I could make him crazy. Yes, for the beginning that's good. And then...hm... I don't know but I think for now that's good. But I must do it that Victoria doesn't know anything about this. Jeordie neither. That will be a bit difficult but I will find something. Like I said: I am genius. I know everything. I am the best. I am the Emperor.

And now I must find stricter rules. Hmmm... yes I know: Less lovely, more serious. And if she's getting on my nerves...I will beat her. I know it sounds bad but it better that something else. Then she'll more respect me and after I teached her more she'll be exactly like me. Haha I am so good! What would I do without my beautiful brain? Right - nothing. Wait...but I think I should lock the doors and the windows. She may not elope. And the good thing is then she really is my girl. HAHAHAHAAA!