Fucking Black Love (Marilyn Manson Fan-Fic)

The Killer is in me

//Victoria's p.o.v.://

I still layed in this bed. I was thinking about 'the old good times'. Without knowing this shit. Only loving my boy. But this time is over now. Forever. Then the door opened. Brian came in. "What do you want from me?" I asked. "I wanna talk with you." He was calm. What? But...he was...I don't understand that and I don't understand him. "But I don't wanna talk with you." I meant. "But you already do that." Brian meant and smiled with his rat face. I only rolled my eyes. Asshole. He came to me and sat on the edge of the bed:"Victoria, I am sorry, okay?" I looked at him but I said nothing. I don't believe him. He's a liar. "You don't believe me, do you?" Brian asked. Again I said nothing. I wanna ignore him for a while. "Okay Victoria. What shall I do that you believe me?" He asked again. La La La!!! I can't hear him. He isn't there! I am in an empty room! "Okay, I don't care what you think about me now but..." he took my hand and squeezed me up to him. Now he whispered:"You know I still have feelings for you. No matter what happens." He stroked over my lips and my cheek with his thumb. That was a bit unpleasant for me because I don't trust him. Suddenly he kissed me. I wanted to push him away but I didn't do it because... I don't know... I was shocked anyway. I couldn't react. I - I mean why does he kiss me? Why?! Is it another part of his brainwash shit? Is it another way for fucking me that 'our power can be stronger'? I know it sounds stupid but... I am a little bit scared what he wants to do now. I can't imagine he wants to do something good. Anyway I know he wants something bad. Something what I don't want. When he made a frensh kiss he licked off my blood from my mouth. That was disgusting. Why does he do that? I am not ice cream. Anyway it was canibalistic for me. Drinking or licking off my blood....irgh... "You're sweet like a candy, Victoria..." Brian smiled. I didn't say anything. I didn't know what I couldn't say. Then Brian's hand floated down on my body. Unpleasant!!! He wiped my blood away from my chest:"Your body is so beautiful sweetness..." What does he want from me?! He is weird. Wait... I remebered the inscription where he wrote what John did to him. He abused him, he raped him although he didn't know what he did... I compared this inscription with the things today. There were similarities. Oh fuck. What is if he wants to rape me, too? What is if he wants to do more? "Thanks..." I said a bit shy. Brian stroked over my cheek:"You don't need to be scared or shy... I am there for you..." He kissed me again and pushed me a bit in his bed. What does he do there?! I nudged him back a bit:"I don't think it's a good i-..." He interrupted me:"Don't speak Victoria...only trust me..." Brian wanted to take off my shirt bit I nudged him back:"Stop it." He took my wrists:"Don't worry. I won't do anything bad to you...Just trust me." He wants to rape me... I know it... He is like John... No, he is even worse... "I don't know whether I can do it..." I whispered a bit. "You can do it, Victoria. I know it..." Brian kissed me and took off his and my clothes. No... I don't want that!!! "Stop it now!" I begged a bit. I could start crying now. I was scared. I wanted to go away but I couldn't. "Shhh...." He layed his finger on my mouth and rammed his cock in my pussy now. I wanted to nudge him away but he was too strong. "Leave me alone!!" I screamed a bit. "Shhh.... Everything is okay Victoria. You don't need to be scared... Only let me do what I want..." Brian kissed my neck. "But I don't want that!!!" I tried pushing him away but I failed. I began to cry a bit. He should stop that. He rapes me. He hurts me. Suddenly he rammed his cock in my ass. "Ahhh!" I felt pure pain. No. It was more than pain. And anyway I felt fury. I was more than angry. He is my enemy now. I must defeat him. He is bad... "Scream for me, bitch..." WTF is going on with him??!!!! I am not a bitch and I am not his bitch. I cried more. It hurt so much. I want that Brian goes away. I wanna go to... I don't know but I don't wanna stay here. Then Brian squeezed me up to him and took my wrists:"Come with me." I pulled my arms back:"Where do we go?" "Come with me and you will see." Brian took my wrists again and went with me to the bathroom. "What do we-..." Brian interrupted me again:"Shh...don't speak." When we went in he locked the door. Oh no... What does he want to do with me? I won't suck his cock or anything else. He began to take shower with me. While that he wiped away my blood:"You really have a beautiful body..." He smiled like he wants to rape me a second time. Now he stood behind me and put his head on my shoulder:"Are you scared?" I got a fleche when he put his hands on my arms but I said nothing. I was terrified of him. "You don't need to... I won't do anything bad to you...." He gave me a kiss on my cheek "You know, I love you." I don't believe him. I can't. Suddenly he rammed me against a wall and fucked my ass. It was so hard. So much pain. Why does he do that to me?! I didn't do anything bad! Now he pressed his fingers in my chest and fucked my ass harder. "Ahhh! Stop it!! That hurts!!" I cried. But it was not only pain... It was fury, too. No...it was more than fury. I can't describe it but I know it's more than that. "Scream for me, my little bitch..." Brian whispered. Why does he say this? Why does he do that? He isn't himself anymore. He is... He thinks he is Manson... He becomes my enemy... No. He is my enemy. "I am not a bitch and...-!!" I meant. He pulled me to his body and interrupted me:"Well, you're not a bitch but you are mine. No one else can get you and you will stay with me forever..." I began to tremble a bit. No... No! No! No!! That's too much for me!!! I can't stand it any longer!!! He is the boy that I fear!! I... I must... KILL HIM!!! "Brian stop this!!" I screamed a bit. He suddenly nudged me against the wall and gave my hairs a tug:"Don't lie to me... You know Brian doesn't exist anymore..." "He does but Manson doesn't exist!" I meant. He pressed his nails in my arms. I cried even more. "Say my name!" he hit me against the wall. I first Brian turned me around and began to smile:"I love you Victoria." He kissed me and embraced me. Then he whispered in my ear:"But I know you don't do it anymore." Brian went away. What? I... I only sat on the ground. I don't understand him. "What's going on with him?" I asked myself. I stared at the ceiling. My tears fell down from my cheek. Hy feels like it's broken anyway.