Fucking Black Love (Marilyn Manson Fan-Fic)

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//Victoria's p.o.v.://

It was 3.50 am. Brian layed next to me. He snored a bit. Well...it is okay. But I couldn't sleep. It was not because of him or...the sex was okay. Not perfect but okay. But the whole time I thought of his quick changing personality. That was...weird. Especially when he threatened me. He never did that to me and he meant he would never do that to me. The next time he'll maybe offer me with violence. Hmm... Shall I take a long high off a short pier? But then... No I can't do that. That would be horrible. And I think he would chase then. And that would be as horrible as my dreams or hallucinations. Now I thought of Jeordie's words: Brian said he wants you're only 'his' girl. Anyway a bit frightening and anyway I couldn't believe it after what he did. But otherwise...he is too cute. But I am not his slave or his sex toy. I can do what I want and I think I'll speak to him. But I can't because... He could loose control and then...he could do the things John did to him. That would be too much for me. I think I would... No... I... I think I should hold my tongue. Then everything is fine and everyone is happy. That's perfect.

I layed in a room. I was bound and shackled on something. I was scared and I began to tremble. What happens now? Will I die? Will I abuse or rape? I began to cry a bit. I need help. I definitely need help. A door opened. The raped man... Fuck!!! He smiled:"Victoriaaa. How are you, darling? Haha, you see we'll have much fun. From now on we'll see us more, y'know. Your pills are helpless now. I am invincible." He put a knife. "What do you want to do?" I asked terrified. "Something what I wanted to do the whole time..." He rammed it in my stomach. I felt pain and saw blood. Then he rammed the knife in my chest and made a long cut. "Ahhhhh!" I screamed. "Shut up!" He hit me. I looked at him like a statue. He...he hit me... "So...and what will we do now? Ah.. I know..." He rammed the knife in my head...

I sweat when I woke up. Why do I dream that damn shit? Wait... And where was Brian? I took on my clothes and went out of this room. I saw him sitting on a couch with alcohol bottles. "Brian?" I asked. He turned around:"Hey baby. Why are you awake so early?" "What about the clock?" I asked. "6 am." Brian answered. "Well... I couldn't sleep, y'know? And why are you awake?" I asked. "Well...In general I don't sleep so long." He meant. Okay... Strange.. I only nod a bit. "Everything okay, babe? You're a bit strange at the moment." Huh? I am a bit strange? He is the stranger but....well. "I'm fine." I meant. "Really? I have the feeling you keep something as a secrect what's important for our relationship." Oh fuck...He maybe know that I wanna go away. "Uhm...why do you think that?" I asked. "Because you were a bit troubled last night. When you slept you mumbled something that made me worried about you..." Brian said. Fuck!! "And what did I say?" I asked. If he knows that I wanna go away I am fucked. He would think I would lie to him or something else. "You meant you're scared and...you wanna leave. But why or what or who you wanna leave you didn't say. So tell me now." Brian said. Fuck!!!! Fuck, Fuck, Fuck!!!!! "Uhm...I don't know? I-..." He interrupted me:"Is it because of me?" "No... Like I said: I don't know why, okay?" I lied. "Don't lie to me. Say that it's too much for you!" He sounded angry. "But it isn't too much for me okay?! Actually I have the same problem!" I became angry and had some 'ticks'. For a few seconds I was tied up in knots. "What was that?" Brian asked worrying. "Nothing!" I meant annoyed. "Uhm...and what-..." I interrupted him:"Shut your fucking mouth up!!!" I took a bottle and threw it at him. But in the right moment he jumped on the ground:"What the fuck is going on with you?!" I said nothing. What did I do? I... I am insane.... I went in thr bathroom. I am a monster...

//Brian's p.o.v.://

What's going on with Victoria. She was... I don't know... Strange. Suddenly I heard a scream and a sound of a destroyed mirror. Fuck she become insane I think. I ran to the bathroom. When I opened the door she sat on the ground with a broken part of the mirror. "He is there...." She whispered. Her arm was covered in blood and she looked crazy. I was a bit scared:"Who?" I asked. "My killer..." She meant. Her hand was trembling. Fuck! I think her hallucinations come back. I sat in front of her:"Give me that." "No...he will kill me..." She whispered. "No... I stay here." I said. "He is invincible..." She looked at me. "No... He isn't real. He can't kill you." I looked at her. "He can kill me...he is everywhere..." Wow...she was crazier than me. "Victoria, babe, listen to me: Nobody wants to kill you. Only we both are here. Here is no third person." I sat next to her. I commiserated with her. "But I can see him... He stands in front of me... He wants to kill me with a knife...." She began to cry. Oh my God... Horrible... I embraced her:"Don't cry, okay? I stay with you." "You can't guard me..." She whispered. "I try..." I gave her a kiss on her forehead. "I am not quite sure whether you accomplish that." Victoria meant. "Why?" I asked. "He is invincible." She answered. "Nobody is that. So...don't think about him. Only think about us." I meant. "I try..." She took a deep breath. "You accomplish it." I said. Victoria smiled. Good. I took a towel and gave it her:"For your arm." "Thanks." She put it around her arm and made a knot. We went out of this room.

We watched a film.
Victoria layed on my body. I have the feeling she sleeps. "Bæ?" I asked. "Huh?" She looked at me "What's up?" "Nothing. I only thought you would sleep." I gave her a kiss on her head. "I don't sleep only because I do nothing." Victoria meant. "Well...the film is boring. I could sleep now." I said. "And why don't you do that?" She asked. "No... I can sleep at night. The whole day is for you." I answered. She smiled. I really love her smile. It's very cute.  "What about your arm? Is everything okay with it now?" I asked. "I think so. It doesn't bleed, it doesn't hurt so... Everything is fine." She said. "That's good. So later...we could have fun...." Anyway I wanna fuck her now. There is no special reason. I only want it. It' always cool to fuck with her. She's very good at it and she really knows what I want and I like. I think she's the one from my girlfriends who fucks me 'til I don't have power anymore. She is like... The Goddess of Fuck and I am the God of Fuck. But.... if she says yes then I will teach her to be more like me. Great plan Brian! Haha, well I know I am great and the best. But I think it would be too strinking. So... I will do it soon but...maybe then she would recognize it what I want so...it's better now. "We could have fun now either." Yes!! She is the best!!! So... I can teach her.

//Victoria's p.o.v.://

Anyway I knew he wants to fuck with me but...it's okay. Anyway I want it either. It's always cool to fuck with him. He knows what a girl want from a boy. I am honest he is the boy who fucked me best. But sometimes... I think he's a bit addicted to sex. Okay I must confess I am a bit addicted to it, too. It's so cool and...yes xD. So anyway it's good that he's addicted, too. More sex more happiness xD. But...sometimes he makes it a touch too hard. But it doesn't matter. It a part of sex so...it's okay. "Good so come with me..." Brian took my wrist and went with me upstairs to another room. "What's that for a room?" I asked. He didn't answer. Okay... Well I know he is strange so... I don't care what he does. Brian closed the door. He put some candles on furnishings. Then he came to me:"Are you ready, baby?" "Yes." I said. Then he kissed me.