Fucking Black Love (Marilyn Manson Fan-Fic)

15 Days later

//Jeordie's p.o.v.://

Fifteen days after Brian and Victoria came into hospital. I still couldn't believe it. It was so bad. My best friends could die. And I didn't hear anything from them. Nothing from their parents. Maybe they are already dead. But no.... I don't believe that. I would know that then. I think I should go to the hospital today. Then I can go with Laney although she doesn't like them so much. Well, it doesn't care. They are my friends.

I went with Laney to the hospital. "What exactly happened to them?" She asked. "They wanted to kill each other..." I meant a bit sad. Laney looked at me:"What?! And you wanna go to them?! They can kill you, too." "No they don't... That was different..." I became sadder because of the thought what in the old house happened. So horrible... "There is no difference. Killer stays killer." She meant. "There is a difference! I saw them when they almost died in this fucking house! They only spoke of them!" I was upset. Apparently she doesn't realize they are more than mybest friends. But then she embraced me:"Keep calm, okay? Maybe you're right but if they survive they will live in the psychiatry floor, you know." "It's better there than being dead in a coffin or somewhere else." I meant. Laney gave me a kiss on my forehead:"You're right, but...when we're there...let's be careful, okay? Maybe they are...let's say strange." I looked at her and smiled:"Okay." While we were walking she held my hand. I love my girlfriend. She's always there for me and doesn't leave me alone.

We were at the hospital. It looked like there was a big problem. Doctors and nurses ran through thr hospital. But why? I went to a nurse:"What happened here?" "Oh, sorry young boy, but one patient has a pitch of a fit. I have to do more important things than telling you what happened." She went upstairs. Maybe to floor five. Laney and I went to the information desk. "Where can I visit Brian Hugh Warner?" I asked. "Floor 5, Room: 12. But it no good idea being there at the moment." The woman said. "It doesn't care." I meant. "Okay." the woman said. Laney and I walked to floor 5. Everywhere were doctors. But why? "Uhm...I... I think we should hear at the nurse." Laney meant. "No. I wanna know what happened." I said. I stood in front of Brian's door. Two doors next to it I heard screams and many doctors and nurses went in fast. Hm.... I knocked on the door. "Come in whoever you are!" I heard Brian. I opened the door. "Ah, Jeordie, Laney. I didn't expect that I see you again. Who are you?" huh? What? Why doesn't he expect seeing us again? "Well, fine and I guess you're fine, too." Laney said. "Of course. Better than Victoria. Was that her name? I think so." He said it like he doesn't care about her. Why? "The doctors go to Victoria?" I looked at him. No way! "Yes. She always talks shit that she wanna kill somebody or something. But I don't care about that." Brian said. "I thought she is your girlfriend, Brian." Laney raised her eyebrows. "Really? I thought we split up." Brian looked thinking. "Why???" I asked. I thought he loves Victoria. More than anything. "Well, I remember she did something bad and well...you know the rest." Brian meant but it sounded like that the split hurt. "I go outside for a few minutes." Laney gave me a kiss on my cheek "You should talk to him alone for a few minutes." She went outside. A few seconds after she went outside Brian's eyes were full of tears. What? "Is everything okay with you?" I asked and sat next to him. "The problem I have is that I'm not dead." A tear felt down from Brian's cheek. "What? Why?" I was confused. "I know everything. I know who Victoria wants to kill. I know what happened." He was totally upset. "Do you wanna tell me that?" I asked carefully. "You know why I sometimes go to this half destroyed house, don't you?" Brian asked me. "Yes, because of the Manson-thing." I answered. "Right..." Brian became quiet. "And where is the connection between that and Victoria?" I asked. "I became a monster...a raper...a beater...a heartbreaker..." He nearly began to cry. Oh my god. But what he says...that isn't true. Brian is a nice guy. "Don't say that. You aren't-..." He interrupted me: "I am!!! Like I said I remember everything. I've beaten her all the time!! And because of this motherfuckng diary I became insane and raped her!!! I raped her!!!!! Do you think I am happy that I spit up with her only because I acted like that in front of Laney?? Do you really think I don't care about that? And because of me she is more psycho than before!!" Wow... Brian began to cry... I am speechless. I said nothing. I didn't know what I could say. "The only thing I wish is that I could apologize to her..." He wiped away his tears. "And-..." Brian interrupted me again:"Do you really think she would accept it? Do you really think that?! I hurt her feelings... I killed her inside..." "What would you say if I talked to her?" I made the suggestion. "Do you really think it would change a thing? She hates me..." Brian meant. "Could be but...I can talk with her and...she talks with you or something else." I said. I know that's dumb what I say because I hope beyong hope. No one accept a apologise after a rape. "I don't believe it but...do what you want..." Brian meant very sad. I commiserated with him. "Okay...uhm...I go to Victoria for a few minutes."I meant. "Okay." He said. I went to room 14. Everything was quiet. The doctors and the nurses were away, too. I knocked on the door. "Y-Yes?" I heard a quiet voice. I opened the door:"Hey Victoria." I smiled shortly. "Jeordie..." She smiled. "I wanted to vbisit you just to see whether every is fine." I said and sat on the edge of her bed. "And you visited Brian, right?" She said wondering. "Yes., but-..." Victoria interrupted me:"Did he tell you what he did to me? That he raped me? Or that he has beaten me?" "Yes and he is crying." I said. "Okay." She said without emotions. Wow... "He is crying because he doesn't know how he can apologize to you."I said. "Well, then he must cry forever, because he can't apolozie to me. The things he did to me are unforgivable. And because of that I can't love him anymore. It doesn't care whether Manson is dead now or...God knows what. I can't and I won't live with him together again. Sorry but...no, I can't." Victoria meant. "At least, can you talk to him?" I asked. "I could but it wouldn't change a thing. I think the first thing I would do is going away for while. But alone. I must confess I don't wanna be in a relationship with him or something else a second time. The whole thing was too much for me. I wanna be free now, you know." She said. Wow... that was... that was... wow! "Okay...uhm... But can you talk to him please? One last time for me?" I asked. "For you, of course." She smiled shortly. "Thanks." I smiled back "But I must go now so...bye." "Bye." Victoria said. When I went outside Brian stood there. He still cried. Apparently he heard everything. "Oh...Brian..." I said. "You don't need to say something . I've heard enough..." He went away. Oh no... I think that's the totally end of Brian and Victoria but.....no, I must do something that they are in a relationship again. It doesn't care how long I need.