Love or Fame?

Appointment Day

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The Next Day

IT'S DIGGY! *Diggy sexy voice* lol

I needed some time alone. I needed to think. I had to clear my mind. I love Lexi with everything in me. She was my best friend, my lover, my everything. I did her wrong and each time she'd forgive me. The last time was the last straw. Since the first time I treated her wrong, I was so far passed the line, it was like a dot to me. She's having my baby...mine. No other dude's baby, yet I pushed her into another ones arms. I want her, but I want her to be happy. Letting her go was probably the smartest thing I've done since we got together again. I've been making all these stupid mistakes that hurt us both and that was never my intention. Lexi is an amazing person. She's beautiful, inside & out. She's funny, supportive, sweet, passionate, understanding, & she knows how to keep you in check, & keep you sane. & when she say sh loves you, she means it from the bottom of her heart. She's just simply amazing. Is it time to let go? I know she's gonna be with Haven now and even though it hurts like hell, there's nothing I can do to stop her. She's already made up her mind and I just gotta accept that right?
Anyway, I just got in Starbucks with my hoodie on. After getting my coffee that was very much needed, I went on my phone to try and distract myself. I went on twitter, tweeted about the single I'm about to drop, "My Girl," featuring Trevor Jackson. Then RT'd and replied to some tweets. After the following spree( which only happens in our dreams) I went on the gram to post a quick selfie. The caption was "came to get some coffee to start the day. But first, lemme take a selfie." You already know it got about 5000 likes in just 10 seconds. I kept scrolling and scrolling when I saw something that made me stop. Lexi posted. It was a video. She was on stage with...Haven? I pressed play and saw him kneeling in front of her as if he was about to propose or something. I didn't think much of his position, but what's going on? They sang together for a bit then Haven leaned in. "The hell you doin," I said under my breath. "Nigga you gettin a little too close." They smiled at each other as he moved the hair out of her face. He got closer, & closer, and then he...he kissed her. I really wish I never pressed play. It's like you could just hear my heart breaking. So, this is what I put her through? Knowing that she's kissing some other guy like she once kissed me killed me. Like when I gave what I should've given to her, to Logan. It devastated her. Like this devastated me or maybe even worse. Let her go Digg. It's time. I then noticed that the video was reposted from Haven. She captioned it saying "thank you for such an amazing night! It was truly an amazing first date! I loved every moment!" I just couldn't take it anymore so I quickly scrolled down. I liked a few photos of the crew when I got to Zendaya's post. The caption was "aren't they just the cutest?! She opened up the door to a singing Haven with a HUGE bouquet of her favorite flowers! Roses! #SweetestFirstDateEver!!!" Haven was at her door singing to her about how she's moved on. Digg, keep calm. Just keep moving forward. I've had enough of just sitting around here feeling dead inside. I need to get back on track with...everything. I got this single coming out and that's what I should be focusing on. I picked my coffee up and headed out.

*2 months later*

*Alarm goes off*

"Mmmm" I groaned as I stretched hearing the annoying alarm that I set to wake me up at *checks time* oh yeah, 9 AM. Wonderful -,-. I stayed in the studio until 4AM and by the time I went to sleep, it was probably 5:30 in the morning. Why did I set the alarm? Well, Lexi has an appointment today and I've never missed any of them and I'm not tryna start now. "Shut uuuup," I mumbled as I reached over to my phone to turn of the alarm. I laid there for a minute and when I realized I was falling asleep again, I immediately jumped up. "C'mon Digg, it's time to go!" I tried to build up the strength to drag myself out of this bed. Believe me, it was a struggle. I'm just so damn tired. Anyway, I managed to get up and make my way to the connected bathroom.