Love or Fame?

What do you want?

This modeling search is a stressful process, but it's so worth it! After Monday, I definitely feel a lot closer to getting somewhere with this and I'm just excited for the future tbh. Modeling is one of the things I wanna do in life, along with singing and writing and I won't stop trying. Not until my heart stops.

So I know I said @ least 8 comments, but now that I think about it, I really don't have the time to wait so I'll give you new chapters as soon as I'm done w/ them so here's one of them! But still leave comments! Annnd I'm proud to say that I GRADUATED TODAYYYY!!! Pics about to be uploaded on IG! Deuces! I'm leaving on Tuesday and I'm excited but I'm gonna miss posting! I'll be gone for 2 weeks! :( / :) lol but yeah, leave comments!

*Diggy*

I used the key and went into Lexi's room after doing my hygiene routine. I expected her to still be sleeping since it's still kinda early, but I had plans for us. Being with her for as long as I did really made me miss her even more. I know there's no excuse for all of the mistakes that I've made, but I do still wanna try and make things better between us. I miss her. I miss us. I miss how we used to be. I miss being able to hold, and kiss her, and tell her how much I love her. I just miss everything. Our relationship wasn't a walk in the park for us, but which relationship is? We probably weren't the "perfect couple" everyone saw us as, but we were still great together. We were perfect for each other. She completed me. I love her to death and I don't know how I could be so stupid and mess up as much as I did, but I wanna see if I have a chance with her again. I know things with her and Haven are complicated right now, and the last thing I wanna do is make it worse for her but I'm not about to live my life wondering what if tried. I rather try and not succeed than not try at all. Here I go.

When I got in, she was all dressed and already on the phone. No matter what's going on around her, she never let's it get in the way of work. She's always making and taking business calls and she just never slows down. She used to say "if time doesn't slow down for me? Why should I slow down?" She does what she needs to do and she handles her business like the true boss she is. I love watching her do what she does. I'm truly proud of her. "No...mhm...no, no, no that's not what I said I wanted Mike. No I'm not being unreas-...wait a minute, who's project is this? & who's video are we shooting? Exactly. It's all ME. This is MY career Mike. I'M the one paying you! It's MY money! What I say goes & that's the end of the discussion. Tell Cassandra I'll give her a call later and expect a visit from me soon. Don't worry about when. Just make sure everything is set. You just have one job. Don't screw this up." After saying all that, she hung up. Damn, I love it when she takes charge. But she can be brutal. "Well who pissed you off," I asked laughing. She turned around to face me. "It's not funny, Daniel. I'm tired of people asking me the same questions but when I give them and answer, they do the opposite of what I say sometimes. Then they get shocked when I handle my business. Nicki was right. When a man handles things the way I just did, he's looked at as a boss. But when a woman does it, she's a bitch. What type of shit is that?" She took a deep breath and came and sat next to me on the bed. "I was kinda mean though," she said covering her face. "Brutal," I said laughing. "But you did handle business." I removed her hands and kept one in my hand. "& I'm so proud of you. You don't take no for an answer and you make sure things get done. Your work is straight from the heart and I love that. I love how passionate you are about what you do and getting things close to perfection. You do you ma. You stay on ya boss type shit," I said referring to one of her songs. She chuckled then replied "thanks." It got silent for a few seconds. "Anyway, you look nice," she said smiling at me. "You always look nice." I looked up at her again and smiled back. "Thank you. You look beautiful like always." "Thanks. So, where are we going?" "Umm what did I say last night when you asked me? It's a surprise. You ready?" *she sighs* "sure."

*Lexi*

"We're here, sweetheart." The first thing I noticed was this colossal, fancy building that had "The Versace Hotel" written on it. "Well damn!" He just laughed. "I thought you might like it," he said. "Like it? I love it!" "that's great," he replied. He got out if the car and walked over to my side to help me out. "Thank you." "My pleasure." As he shut the door, I continued walking. I expected him to catch up, but he didn't so I looked back to see what was holding him up and caught him staring and biting his lip. I just laughed and shook my head. "Lookin ass nigga!" He looked up and laughed. "Sorry it was there and-" "you were caught slippin." "I was, haha. C'mon." He walked over to me and held my hand as we walked to the building and opened the door for me.