Love or Fame?

Chapter 114

Finally on Spring Break! Turn Up! @ least 8!

"Haven, I don't know what to say." He smiled and took my hand. "Just say that you'll let go of the past and give me a ch-" his sentence was cut short by the ringing of my doorbell. "Um, I'll be back," I said to Haven. He simply just nodded and sighed. When I went to see who was at my door, I saw Spin on the other side. "Oh thank God," I whispered. I'm so happy to see him. Because he's here, that gives me more time to give Haven an answer. I immediately opened the door and hugged him. "Thanks for showing up," I said lowly to him. He just chuckled and said "wassup w/ you?" I turned to make sure that Haven wasn't behind me, then turned back to face Spin. "I'll tell you later. Come in," I said. After he stepped in, I closed the door and we walked to my living room. "Oh, sorry I didn't know you had company," Spin said. "Wassup Haven?" "Hey Spin." They greeted each other and Haven got up. "I was just about to leave anyway. Lexi, I'll talk to you later." He walked over, hugged me, then left. "So! Wassup," Spin asked after hearing my big sigh. "Talk to your big bro!" He patted the spot next to him in the couch and I sat down. "What's bothering you? Is it Haven? You were happy I got here so he could leave right? What did he do to you? Did that nigga try something? I knew he-" "SPIN," I yelled cutting him off. He was even standing at this point. "Chilllll, Haven didn't try anything." He sighed in relief, and sat back down. "Good. I was gonna have to kill him," he said facing me again. "Okay, I don't talk to you about things like this. I usually talk to my girls. But you're here now so...here we go. Haven asked me out the day after I moved out. I explained how I had just gotten out of a relationship and he understood. He hasn't asked me again since then because I said I wasn't ready. Now, today he asked why I wouldn't date him. He asked if I have feelings for Diggy an to be honest, I do still love him, just...in a different way." "In what way?" I thought about it for a few seconds. "I love him but not in the boyfriend, girlfriend way. It's more like...just friends. I mean, we are connected because of this baby and I can't just cut him out of my life, you know? He needs to be around for the baby. He wants to be around for the baby...for the both of us, actually." He nodded. "Okay, so back to Haven. How do you feel about him," he asked. "Haven, well, Haven's just...he does brighten up my day. I can't even lie. But, I never thought about him as my boyfriend. Maybe because I told him I wasn't ready a long time ago, and I'm carrying someone else's baby, I just thought we were passed that. You know? I thought we were both good with being just friends. I haven't thought about it." "But now that you know where he's at, and you are thinking about it, what do you want? Do you see yourself being with him?" There was another pause. "Well-" "one more thing. With you and Diggy, that was nice. It was that Bonnie and Clyde type relationship or that Bey & Jay. You were more than just boyfriend/girlfriend, you were best friends. You were a team. The way y'all looked at each other, the way he'd talk about you sometimes, would get a nigga all up in his feelings and sentimental & shit. Y'all just had it good, you know? You had each other's back and held each other down. You made my boy happy and I know that he really loved, & still loves you. He hasn't been with anyone since the breakup by the way. Although it would make me happy to see y'all together, & work on this, I want you to be happy too. I want you both to be happy and I know he's not gonna be happy to see you with someone else, but you're not happy with him so I really don't know what the right answer here is. I don't wanna tell you to go with someone else and hurt him by telling you that. & I don't wanna tell you to not date anyone else because you deserve to be happy too. So, I'm just gonna tell you this, I want you to be happy so do whatever makes you happy b/c at the end of the day, it's your decision. No one dictates your life. There's no script for it. So that's all you. Okay?" I slowly nodded. "Okay. Thank you." He smiled & said "anytime. I know I'm not your girls but, I hope I still helped," he said with a chuckle. "Yeah, you did. Thank you." "Mhm." "I'm gonna go get something to drink. You want anything?" "NO NO NO! I'll get it! You stay seated. You're pregnant woman. Relax." I couldn't help but laugh. "Spin, I live here by myself. I-" "yeah, you really shouldn't. You're like a cute little beach ball, walking like a penguin," he interrupted. "Thanks. That was so nice," I said sarcastically. "Well, I used the word cute so you wouldn't get all up in your feelings. Chill." "Spin, I'm pregnant. Not crippled. But thank you. I'll have some water please." He went into the kitchen and came back a minute later. "So, I haven't talked to you in forever. A few months now, actually. I apologize for that lil manma. I just been busy, but I should still make time for family. So, that's why I'm here. That, and you never told me what the sex of the baby is yet." I told him that I wanted to be the one to tell him. I wanted to be the one to tell everyone. The main person, Diggy, already knows. He was the first one to know. He was there at the appointment. He's been at every appointment, never missed any. "Oh! Right! You still don't know! Damn, it's been a long time. Anyway, I can't wait to get your nephew out of here. These swollen ankles, not cute." When I said the word nephew, his eyes got wide and all I saw was excitement. "YOU'RE HAVING A BOY?! IMMA HAVE A NEPHEW?! Well, ANOTHER NEPHEW?! WHAT?! That's wassuuuup!" He was just so excited, and so was I. I just can't wait to have this baby already. It's about that time. Ughh, two more months! Two more months.

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