Love or Fame?

Chapter 100

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What to do, what to do? As I say there thinking, I heard Diggy running up the steps. I wiped my tears and sat back leaning my back against the headboard. When he made it upstairs, he slowly opened the door and the first thing I saw was his head. He was trying to be as quiet as possible while he was checking to see if I was up...or nah. When he saw me looking back at him, he smiled. "Hey Sleeping Beauty," he whispered. "Hey babe," I replied with a smile. He walked in and hopped on the bed beside me causing the bed to shake and me to almost fly off of it. "Was that necessary," I asked laughing. "Well excuse me for being happy to see my wife to be," he said with a smile. I got sat up again returning to the position I was in before that earthquake took place lol. "Well thanks for the earthquake," I said to him. I looked up at him again and all he did was look into my eyes and smile. "What," I asked. He didn't reply. He just kept smiling. He removed my hair from my face, then spoke. "Where have you been all my life," he asked. I smiled and pulled him closer so that I could kiss him. When we pulled away, I spoke. "Where have you been," I asked him. He smiled. He was leaning in for another kiss when his phone rang. *Diggy sighs & looks @ his phone* "excuse me," he said heading to the bathroom. I got up and went downstairs. I sat by the island and thought about my conversation with Chris. I don't know if I should tell Digg or not. Even if I try to stop him from attacking Chris and becoming a target, he won't listen. I just want him to be safe.

10 minutes passed and I heard him running downstairs. I quickly wiped my tears and when he came in the kitchen, I put on a smile. "Finally," I said with a smile. "I feel like I've been wait on you for forever," I said. He walked over to me and smiled. "Well then we're even b/c I've been waiting for you my whole life," he said. He finally got to the island and stood across from where I was sitting. He just stared at me. "What," I asked. "Nothin. I can't admire you," he asked smiling. Then he furrowed his brows and tilted his head to the side a little. "Now what is it," I asked. He took a few seconds, but finally replied. "Babe, have you been crying," he asked. "...no," I replied getting up. He watched me walk away, then followed. He followed me into the living room and before I could sit, he pulled me in his lap. I avoided eye contact until he gently turned my head to face him. "Look at me," he said. After a sigh, I looked up at him. "We both know that I know you too well to not know when your lying to me," he said. I chuckled and said "funny," He looked at me confused. "What's that supposed to mean," he asked. "When I was telling the truth about me and Damian, you didn't believe me. But then when I lied, you believed me," I said. He looked away. "Lexi," he mumbled. "Don't start," he said looking at me again. I sighed, got up, and apologized. "What's goin on with you," he asked. I slowly paced as I thought of how to tell him. There's no easy way. He walked over to me to stop me from pacing. "Baby, talk to me. Please. I know something's wrong," he said. "...I don't know how to tell you this. I don't wanna hurt you," I said as tears ran down my face yet again. "Just...tell me," he said. I started off by saying "so I'm pregnant." "Okay. I know that already," he said. "&...I-I don't know...who...the father is," I managed to say. He immediately let me go. "Wh- you- you don't- what," he said. I sat back down on the couch and waited for the explosion. 3, 2, 1..."WHAT?!" There it is. "Just let me ex-" "you slept with someone else?!" He interrupted. "No Diggy! Well I mean...yeah, but I wasn't con-" "HOW THE HELL CAN YOU DO THIS TO ME," he yelled. I kept trying to speak, but he just wasn't listening. Every time I spoke, he would interrupt and yelled even louder. As tears streamed down my face, I felt as if I was falling into this deep hole or the walls were closing in on me and no one can hear me screaming. "Diggy, please, just-" "DIGGY PLEASE NOTHING! I TRUSTED YOU AND YOU GO AROUND SLEEPIN WITH OTHER DUDES LEXI? REALLY? YOU WERE LIKE MY ANGEL LEXI! SOME ANGEL YOU ARE. More like thot," he said. He punched the wall and started pacing again. I wanted to say something but I was crying so much, I couldn't even get my words out. Did he seriously just call me that?! I probably raped, if Chris was telling the truth, and I get called a thot?! Do I look like Logan? Suddenly, he stopped and looked at me. "D-Dig-" "you did sleep with Damian. Didn't you," he asked. I shook my head no. "THEN WHO THE HELL WAS IT LEXI?! I'M HERE THINKING THAT WE WERE WORKING ON OUR RELATIONSHIP, WHILE YOU HOEING AROUND SLEEPING WITH OTHER NIGGAS," he yelled. I just wanted to beat the crap outta him. How can he say all that? Call me that? How? He wouldn't even let me speak. I wiped my tears but they just kept falling. I finally had the strength to get up, go over to him and slapped him. He held his face and looked at me. "All this time we've been together," I managed to say with a shaky, cracking voice. "I've done nothing but love you. Then you cheat on me, & I take you back. Now, I regret it. You haven't trusted me after that. You accuse me of sleeping with other guys to get back at you. Diggy, you know I would never do that to you," I said. "I did," he said. "Lexi, you're pregnant and you don't know who the father is. What the hell do you expect me to-" "I EXPECT YOU TO LISTEN TO ME," I yelled. "Chris rapped me and you're here-" I got interrupted by his laugh. "Chris rapped you? THE NIGGA'S BEEN IN JAIL, LEXI! The only guy I know you been around is Damian. Unless there's another one I don't know about," he said. "It's funny how you say you know me well enough to know when I'm lying. Yet, you can't realize when I'm telling you the truth," I said. He just scoffed and walked away. "I'm out," he said. He opened the door and was about to step out, but he turned and looked at me again. "You're lucky Logan's in jail," he said. That broke me. I stood there shocked at what he just said. Those words just cut me like a knife. He knew that it hurt me and to add to the pain, he smirked and said "sex with her was beyond amazing. I can't even lie. It's a shame I can't have some of that right now. It's been a minute since she's suc-" that's all he could say before I took the picture frame and threw it at him. Before it could get to him, he quickly shut the door. I heard the car start up and he drove off. I can't believe he said all that. & the fact the brought up having sex with Logan really got to me. We've had our ups and downs, but lately, it's been a lot of downs. Was taking him back even the right choice? A lot of people said we shouldn't get married. I thought they were just haters but now, I'm starting to think that they were right. I slid to the floor and cried some more. I can't believe what just happened. What's going on in my life? Ever since I took him back, he hasn't been the same. He's had trust issues & I'm tired of it. I'm done. I'm so done with it all. I looked down and started rubbing my stomach. "Just know," I said to my baby inside of me. "I'll always love you."

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