Love or Fame?

I'm Sorry

HAPPY 4th EVERYONE! :) I have great news about the modeling. I don't wanna get too excited about it yet, but I am excited! I wanna get more info before I let you know what's up, but I'm still happy about it! Now, back to the story!

"You came to talk to me? Really?" I kept a straight face as I spoke to him. "Yeah, can we talk? I don't like the way we left things that night. I know you're probably still pissed off at me, and I understand, but I just wanna settle some things. I don't want you to hate me." I sighed, then put the garbage where it needed to go and went back to him. "Listen, Haven, I don't know if that's a great idea." "Why not?" "Well, I don't really wanna talk to you right now. That's why, Haven. How do I know that you're not working with them?" "I'm not working with anyone, Lexi. I just wanna talk to you, please?" "...fine. But before we start, you should know that-" "that you & Diggy are back together?" He was always finishing my sentences but this time, I wasn't amused. "I know," he continued. I stared at him for a few seconds before letting out a big sigh and walking in the house w/ him behind me. "Congratulations by the way. The news and pictures of you and your son has been everywhere." "Oh, thanks." "He's cute," he said with a smile. I thought of my son & smiled too. "Yeah. Thank you." He nodded. We sat in different couches and he continued speaking. "So, um...I'm just gonna get right to it. You've been on my mind since that night I walked out on you, which I apologize for, and take the blame for every thing that happened that night, but lately, I've been thinking about you even more." He took a deep breath before speaking. "I just wanted to fix things and to tell you that no matter what happened between us, I love you and I just want your forgiveness. I didn't come here to start any trouble, or to make you feel bad. Not even to get you back, I know your heart belongs to...him, and I understand that. You can't help how you feel right? I want you to be happy and if being with him, again-after all he's done to you-" "I think you're getting off topic now, Haven. Stick to what you came here for." He nodded. "Anyway, if you're happy, then you know, it's all good. Just make sure you know what you're doing this time. Don't put that little boy through Diggy's shit, please. He doesn't need it, and neither do you, but you're no little girl so you can handle yourself. But be careful, for the baby's sake." I looked away from him the entire time he was talking. I didn't need to hear this right now. He's making me regret letting him in. "Is this why you came here," I asked still not looking at him. "No, but why are you with him, Lexi? Honestly. You told me that you never wanted to be with him again, but you never wanted your son to deal with doing back and forth between parents. Is that why you're with him? Because of the baby?" "How is that any of your business?" I finally looked at him. "That's it isn't it?" "HOW THE HELL IS THAT-" "BECAUSE I LOVED YOU, LEXI! I STILL DO! I get what I did was wrong, but is that really the reason why you're not with me anymore? I make one mistake and you run back to the guy that made so many? What I did was stupid, but nothing like what he did, and you know it. Did you even love me? Or was I being used to get passed the pain?" "Why are you doing this? Huh? Why now?!" "Just answer the question," he demanded. "Haven, I-" I was interrupted by Dwayne crying. I let out another big sigh and stood up. "I'm gonna go attend to my son, now. You're free to leave." He sat there looking up at me with pain in his eyes. I hated seeing him like this. I hated it so much. "Please, just answer the question," he repeated. "Haven, you know I loved you." "But not the way you love him, right?" I didn't say anything. He scoffed. "Right. If you did, you'd try to work things out, but instead, you run back to the reason you cried yourself to sleep at night, right?" I didn't know what to say for a while. I hated hurting people I care about and even though things weren't great between me and Haven, I still care. "Well, you know what they say, Haven. People do crazy things when they're in love." He chuckled. "I know. Just look at all the things I did for you when we- or, should I just say when I was in love. Crazy right?" He chuckled again then stood up. "Well, Lexi, it was nice seeing you again. I promise, you don't have to worry about me showing up again. I'll leave you alone. I know where we stand now. But thanks for taking the time to listen to me." He walked over, hugged me, & kissed my forehead. "Bye, Lexi." He was about to leave, when surprise! Diggy opened door. "SPIN! Nigga you so damn ratch-" he stopped when he saw Haven. His eyes went from Haven to me. He was about to say something, but he stopped himself and went back to talking to Spin. "Spin, imma call you back. I gotta go take care of my son." Then he hung up & just stood there staring at Haven.