I'M SORRY (Daniel-André Tande)

Part 5

5.

As I was suspecting Andy was pissed at me because I disappeared just like that. Stefan calmed him down and I explained to Andy what happened, I didn't tell him about what happened with Danny. I couldn't, Andy sacrificed so much for me and I didn't want to make things worse than they already were. I didn't go to the game because of everything that happened with Danny and Stefan. I was thinking about the kiss, I didn't feel like that for a long time but it wasn't that special. I liked Stefan but he just wasn't the guy that could make me happy everyday for the rest of my life or maybe was just that my heart still loved Danny. Stefan was everything I was looking but he just wasn't the one. Maybe I was watching too many romantic movies or I was reading too much but I could feel in my heart that he wasn't the one at least not yet.

I was watching the game on the television, the guy from Poland won, Maciej. Andy was fifteenth and Stefan was fourth, Danny was sharing ninth place with a guy from Slovenia. I was glad that we were leaving tomorrow back home, I really didn't know if I'd survive another meeting with Danny. Next competition was on 24th November in Ruka, Finland. I had more than enough time to prepare myself for that three days in Finland. To prepare for Melissa's questions and everything that was coming. I was glade that Summer World Cup was over and that Winter World Cup was starting because the Winter WC was better and more interesting. I didn't know why Andy took me with him to the last two games of Summer WC, maybe mom asked him to. I needed to prepare for next few months because it'd probably be hell.

I heard cars and people talking loudly outside, that meant that Andy will be here soon. I was hungry I didn't eat since yesterday but I was used to not eating, after all I was a ballet dancer. I was right, Andy knocked on the door from my room in 15 minutes, he came in without me even opening the door. It wasn't fair that he had keys to my room and I didn't have keys to his room after all I was older. He didn't say anything for a minute, we were just lying on my bed looking at the television but none of us probably cared about what was on it.

"I need to tell you something," he finally said after a minute or two. He didn't look at me, he was still looking at the television. I had a feeling that he was talking to the television and not to me.

"I'm listening," I said and turned off the television. I looked at him and waited for him to say something to me or just look at me. He did. He looked at me and took a deep breathe.

"We didn't find you just like that. Danny called me and told me, he just saw you. I didn't believe him at first but I went to check it out. I saw how Danny saved your life and how he whispered something to you. I was just watching, I was afraid that you'll kill me if I'd say something or do something. I saw you ran away and I didn't run after you, I was watching if Danny will but he didn't. Then I saw Stefan running after you and everything that happened after that. Stefan likes you and you like him. What's the problem?" he asked me and I didn't know what to say. Andy saw everything but he didn't do anything, he let me talk to Danny. He wasn't angry, anymore.

"It just doesn't feel right. He's sweet, cute, handsome, smart. He's everything I ever wanted. But..." I said but Andy took a deep breathe and I stopped. I looked at him and he just hugged me. He didn't say anything, he just hugged me.

"He's not the one," I whispered and started crying. He was hugging me for ten minutes until someone knocked on the door. He went to open it, I recognized the voice. Markus. They talked for a minute and then Markus left, Andy came back to me and wiped of the tears from my cheeks.

"We're ordering a room service. What do you want?" he asked me and started talking what he wants. He was the best brother I could ask for.

"I think I'll have spaghettis," I said and he made the call. I heard how he was asking something about food but I didn't pay attention.

I was preoccupied with looking at my phone, I was searching for Melissa's Instagram. I couldn't find it so I just went to Danny's and looked at the comments on their pictures. I was right she was commenting on their pictures, I didn't want to read her comments so I just clicked on the name. I was surprised, there were more pictures of Danny than Melissa. I went back to my profile and looked at the last picture that was actually a video. It was me doing a pirouette, it was a good one. I had problems with my head during the pirouettes because my head just didn't want to turn so fast like my legs did. I looked at the date when I posted it. 4Th November last year. I didn't post anything since then because after all that happened with Danny I couldn't.

"What are you doing?" I suddenly heard Andy asking me. I looked at him and he was looking at my phone. He was doing that again. Not looking at me just at the shiny little thing that's called phone.

"Just looking at my Instagram," I answered him. I looked outside, it looked cold. It wasn't windy and it wasn't raining but it looked cold. Andy grabbed the chance and took my phone out of my hands.

"What are you doing Andy?" I asked him and tried to take my phone from him but I wasn't successful

"I'm posting something on your Instagram," he said and gave me my phone back in three minutes. I opened my Instagram as soon as the phone was in my hands. I looked at my profile and saw what he posted. It was a picture of him, he wrote: World's greatest brother.

"Aw. You're so self-satisfied," I said and we both laughed

None of us said anything after that. We were both quiet until someone knocked on the door. Andy opened it and a waiter with our dinner came in. We ate it all together, we both ate each others food and in the end we had no idea who ordered what. That was us. Sophia and Andreas Wellinger. World's greatest siblings.