I'M SORRY (Daniel-André Tande)

Part 28

28.

Daniel was the first one. I decided to talk to him first because he was the first one that stole my heart.

I went to the competition and waited for him till the end then I asked him if I could talk to him. We went to the hotel because the medias were all over the place. I took him to my room because he was afraid that if we'd go to his maybe Johann would show up while I was there.

"So, you said that you wanted to talk to me?" he said after a few moments of silence

"I don't blame you for leaving me that morning, I was awake I could have stopped it but I haven't. I was suffering because of my mistake but nobody figured it out. Well, at least I thought so, everybody knew. And before I even realized I was with Andi on the way to the competition. It hurt so much seeing you with Melissa but I got over it. I had Stefan but somehow you still managed to hurt me. That letter. You said you don't love me. You said I was your biggest mistake. You said things that I should never forgive you. You broke me. You did but I got up. I forgot about it and tried to enjoy my time with Stefan until you started saving my life. It was just so uncomfortable but the time I spent with you, each time you saved my life, was worth of everything you did. Then the baby came. I wanted to tell you before it all happened but I didn't. And that ruined us. You know, we were together even when we weren't. And don't pretend it's not true. We've always loved each other but not the way we were allowed to love each other," I said while staring through the window

"It was easier to pretend that I don't love you anymore. I just couldn't accept my feelings..." he started but I cut him off

"WHY?! WHY DID YOU PUT ME THROUGH SO MUCH?! YOU KNEW WHAT YOU DID TO ME BUT YOU NEVER SAID ANYTHING! Why couldn't you accept your feelings? Wasn't I good enough for your high expectations?!" I lost it, I screamed at him and the tears were running down my cheeks

"It wasn't that. I think that what was going through my mind was that you were too good for me. That I didn't deserve you," he said with his voice calm

"You don't, you don't deserve me. You never did but that doesn't change the fact that I love you," I told him. He stood up and walked towards me. I was still staring through the window.

He came close and put his arms around me.

"Listen to your heart, it knows the way. I just want you to be happy nothing else and if you're happy with him, choose him," he whispered to me and left my room

I just broke my heart into a million pieces, again. How did I get here? What happened to me? I used to be stable and I never had problems with choosing. I always knew what I've wanted. But now I had no idea who I even what or what I want.

I opened the balcony's door and stepped outside. I remember when I was at home, when I whispered a goodnight to my baby. It was different now. It was light, I wasn't going to sleep. I was awake, alive but my baby wasn't.

"I miss you so much," I whispered to the sky, to my baby. Tears were running down my cheeks and I imagined how my baby's face would have looked like.

I put my hand on my stomach. Nothing. I really missed my baby, I never met it but I missed it so much. It was a part of me, a part of me that I've never had a chance to meet.

"It's not your fault. Don't blame yourself, nobody blames you. Your baby is looking down at you right now and it doesn't blame you, either. The baby's telling you to not worry so much and that it loves you," I heard a voice and felt how someone's arms hugged me.

"I love you, too, baby," I whispered into sky, to my baby.

I wiped the tears of my face and turned around.
"What do you want?" I asked Andi, we went back into the room and he showed me that he bought me roses

"Aw, thank you," I said and hugged him

"I wanted to write something but I really didn't have any ideas, so I didn't write anything," he said and we laughed a little bit

"You could write to the best sister on the world," I said and made an offended face

"You already know that you're the best sister on the world. I'd never change you for any girl. I love you," he said and gave me kiss on the cheek

"So, when are you going to talk to Stefan?" he asked me

"Today. I was planning on calling him after Daniel. But now you showed up, so I'm just going to text him now and wait for his answer, then I'll ask him to come to my room and you're going to leave. And me and Stefan will have a private conversation," I explained to him and sent a text to Stefan

"Wow, you're just going to kick me out like that? I'm offended. I'm buying you roses and you pay me back just like that?" he said and acted like he was offended

"Yep, now leave. Stefan is coming over," I said and almost pushed him out of the room

I looked in the mirror and did my make up once again. But not the full one, I just put on some mascara and a blush. I took a few deep breaths.

"One last time, Sophia. You can do this, you need to this," I said to myself and went to open the door forStefan.

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A/N

JUST 2 PARTS LEFT (and then you'll get rid of me)!!!!!!!!!!!!

A. S. T.