I'M SORRY (Daniel-André Tande)

Part 20

20.

As weeks were passing by I was more sure in my theory. But I didn't completely believe it, yet.

It's been a month and few days since Engelberg. Me and Andi grew apart. I backed off because I wasn't ready to tell him my suspicious and he couldn't accept it. As me and Andi were growing apart me and Markus were getting closer.

He was a good friend and I trusted him. Stefan was a little bit jealous because of Markus but until I wasn't kissing Markus he was fine.

My mother didn't question me about the call because she knew I wasn't ready to talk to her and that I didn't trust her.

I wasn't comfortable when we were out of Germany (that was a lot) because I didn't know where to go when we were in Poland or Austria. But I knew Germany good.

Now when we were in Willingen, I was finally comfortable. I knew Willingen very good because I was there a lot. It was one of my favourite places in Germany.

"Earth to Sophia," I heard Markus and saw him waving in front of my face. I shook my head and looked around the room.

"What's going on?" I asked him and he laughed a little bit. He raised his eyebrows and made a serious face again.

"I don't think that I'm the one that has something going on but doesn't tell anyone," he said and came closer. He put his arm across my shoulders and pulled me to him.

"Markus? If I'd ask you to do me a favor but not tell Andi or anyone else, would you do it?" I asked him and waited anxiously for his respond.

"What do you need, Sophia?" he asked me without hesitation.

"Promise me, Markus. Promise me that you won't tell anyone," I demanded from him

"Yeah, I promise, whatever," he said without event thinking about what he was promising.

"I need a pregnancy test," I quickly said.

He was quiet for a few seconds but then started talking again.

"Why didn't you ask Stefan? I'm not saying that I'm not going to do it but he's your boyfriend. Weren't you supposed to do this together?" he asked me. That was exactly what I was afraid of. That he was going to ask questions.

"Because I don't want to give him false hope. Because I'm not sure," I said. I wasn't sure but when I said it to Markus I meant that I wasn't sure if I was pregnant.

"You're not sure if you're pregnant? Or are you not sure if it's his?" Markus asked me. Of course he figured it out. He wasn't dumb or anything, he knew what happened a few months ago.

"Neither, Markus. So, can you just do what I asked you to do?" I said with tears in my eyes. I pulled myself away from him.

"Wait for me here," he said and left.

While waiting for Markus I was thinking. I was thinking about everything. I had no idea what I was going to do if I was pregnant but if it'd turned out that it's not Stefan's, I wasn't ready for that. I wasn't ready to be a mother.

"Sophia?" I heard a voice after a while.

I turned my head and saw Markus sitting beside me. I looked into his hands, he was holding the test. I took the test into my hands and went to the bathroom.

I looked into the mirror, into my hands and opened the box. I read the instructions without even knowing what I was reading, I read it again. Everything looked so different in the movies than it was now. Everything.

I followed the instructions because I wasn't really sure if all that they do in the movies is true. I wanted to get over that, I hurried and did the test.

If doing the test was hard for me than the waiting was way more harder. In my head different scenarios were playing, good and bad and worse and the worst.

I looked into the mirror and took of my shirt. I put my hands onto my stomach and pretended that in there was a human being growing. It felt weird and for a second I thought I felt happy but that feeling was as soon as it came forgotten.

I heard a silent knock on the door and I put the shirt back on. I didn't look at the test, I just opened the doors. It was Markus, obviously. He raised his eyebrows and I turned away from him.

I closed my eyes and took the test into my hands. I didn't want to open my eyes. I wasn't ready to open them.

"Just looks at it!" Markus screamed and he made me laughed a little bit. He was tired of me waiting, he wanted to know the answer.

I opened my eyes and looked at the test.

As soon as I saw the result the test fell from my hands. I felt Markus' arms around me. I felt how the tears started scrolling down my cheeks.

I slowly moved his arms from me and took the test back into my hands and threw it into the trash.

I went back to my room and Markus followed me. I laid down on my bed and waited for him to ask the question. He was quiet for few moments, I was surprised he didn't dug the test out of the trash.

"Just ask the question," I quietly and slowly whispered. He took a deep breathe, he didn't want to ask the question.

"How long?" he asked. I thought he was going to ask if the test was positive but I guess he already knew it was.

He was smart and he bought the test that told you how long are you pregnant too.

"7-8 weeks," I answered his question

"And that means?" he asked again

"I'm not sure, I need to see the doctor," I replied to him without looking at his face

"I'll help you," Markus guaranteed me.

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A/N

Well, my only comment is....

DANIEL WON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thank you for reading,

A. S. T.