I'M SORRY (Daniel-André Tande)

Part 29

29.

"Just say the words, Sophia! Just tell me! I can handle the truth, I am not a child!" Stefan screamed at me

"Fine! Fine! I'll tell you the truth! You two were the best things that ever happened to me and the worst! You both broke my heart! You both broke me! Both it doesn't matter, because I still love both of you! You broke me and I hate you because of it! But I hate myself more because I still love you both so so much! I hate myself because I don't hate you more than I love you!" I told him the truth

"I'm sorry! I said I'm sorry a hundred times! But you still can't forgive me! You are so concentrated on yourself that you don't see how other people are hurting!" he said and tears started falling down my face

"You still don't understand. I forgave youa long time ago, I just can't forget it! I can't forget it and I never will," I told him, ignoring his last sentence

"Now, tell me honestly. Can you love me more than you hate me? Can you love me more than you hate and love him?" he asked me with tears in his eyes

I stayed quiet because I didn't find the right words to answer his question.

"I thought so," he said with the tears running down his cheeks and left my room

I fell on my knees and cried. I cried and cried. Was I really like that?

After some time I got up and wiped the tears of my face. It was dinner time, so I just washed my face and did my make up all over again. I put on more powder, highlighter and everything else than I ever did. I kind of looked plastic but I didn't care. I curled my hair and went to find Andi.

I knocked on the door of his room and went directly in. He was a little bit shocked when he saw me, probably because of too much make up.

"Sophia no. I'm not letting you do this," he said and took me back to my room. He forced me to do my make up all over again, that I looked like myself.

We went downstairs to the restaurant.

"Do you want to talk about it?" he asked me while we were going to the restaurant

"No, I don't," I said and walked into the hotel's restaurant

I walked straight into Markus' arms. I felt more than two looks on me but there were only two that really mattered.

The one that wanted me to be happy and the one that wanted me. I made my decision but wasn't ready to admit it just yet.

I went to find something to eat with Andi but ate just half of my plate. My stomach was having a private party and if I'd put one more piece of food in my mouth I'd throw everything out right there.

I looked up once and that moment my eyes and his eyes met. He was far away but I saw sparks in his eyes. I saw in his eyes that he knew. He knew I've made a decision. Then I looked back down at the table and never looked up again.

I left with Andi as I came. He went with me to my room and made sure I was okay and asleep then he left. But I wasn't. As I heard that he left I got up and left the room.

I went outside to get some fresh air, that's when I met Stefan. I wanted to pass him without looking at him but he caught me by my hand.

"I know you've already chosen him. But I love you and just tell me if there's anything I can do for you to change your mind?" he asked me

"I don't know if you can do anything but you can try to change my mind," I told him without looking into his eyes

"I love you more than anything and I'm sorry for what I've told you earlier. I need you in my life more than anything," he said and kissed me

His soft lips were warm. He pulled me closer to him with my hands in his hair I started kissing him in the middle of the night. Then he pulled away.

"I need you, Sophia. So, I'm here asking you to choose me. I need you to choose me. Please, Sophia," he said and then ran away

I stared in the darkness behind him and thought about his words. After a few minutes I turned around and continued to walk like I did before. I walked around.
Everyone I saw was either drunk or high. But what did I except? I liked the noise and people shouting around me. I followed the crowd and got into some club.

I decided to party for the last time. I decided to not think about anything this night. I got drunk and maybe I was a little bit high. But I was finally getting the anger out of me. I danced and drank all night long.

I met a lot of people but no one made a big impression on me. I danced with a few guys that all probably just wanted to sleep with me. I wanted to sleep with someone too but that wasn't a part of who I was. I wasn't like that. So, when I guy tried to take me somewhere private I started dancing with the other guy.

I danced like crazy and didn't know how I got to the hotel. The last thing that I remembered was how a guy with dark brown hair put me in bed and wished me goodnight. He knew my name but I didn't recognize him. Actually I didn't really care. All I knew was that maybe that night opened my eyes.

And that maybe I've changed my mind.

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A/N

ONE PART LEFT!!!!!

I'm asking for the last time.... #TeamStefan or #TeamDanny????

A. S. T.