I'M SORRY (Daniel-André Tande)

Part 4

4.

I missed breakfast the next morning, Andy didn't wake me up and I was glade he didn't. I wasn't ready to see Danny. I woke up around 11 am because someone was knocking on the door. I ignored the person and tried to sleep, the person went away but I couldn't fell asleep again. I got up and took a shower, I put on a pair of jeans and a shirt. I did my usual make up and just brushed my hair. Then I went outside for a walk, I had no idea where I was going. It was cold outside and a little bit windy, I looked at the time on my phone. 1 pm. If Andy noticed that I'm gone he was going to kill me, I turned around and went into the direction I thought I came from. I was a little bit lost and as I looked around I didn't recognize anything or anyone. I was still walking hoping I'll see something or someone familiar but I didn't. Half an hour passed and I still had no idea where was I.I started to panic a little bit, I stopped and looked around, nothing familiar. I looked at my phone, Andy sent me a text, where am I. I wanted to reply but my phone died, I forgot to charge it last night. I was slowly admitting to myself that I was lost and that I won't find the way back to the hotel.

"Such a big town that you lose yourself easily. Am I right?" I heard a voice from behind. I recognized it, I'd recognize it in the middle of the night. Danny.

"I'm not lost," I said and turned around to look at him. He was staring at me like he couldn't believe that I was actually there.

"So, I was right," he said and I was confused. What was he talking about? About me? Maybe he wasn't sure if I really was Sophia.

"About what?" I asked him not wanting to look him in the eyes. I was focusing on my breathing because I could break down any second.

"I wasn't sure last night if you are you, Sophia. I was surprised that I didn't recognize you when I first saw you. Maybe it was your hair or the sad face. I never saw you sad, you were always smiling when we first met. But your hair was pretty distracting too. I'd never thought that you'd color your hair on blue. Pretty odd for ballerina. Isn't it? But forget about it. Well, are you lost?" he asked me and smiled like he'd win. He was mean and I didn't know why he was mean. He left me, I didn't leave him. It felt like he knew what he did to me and was proud of it.

"I don't think that's any of your business," I answered his question but kept my face serious. I wasn't smiling like he was, it was too painful to smile.

"You can't lie to me, Sophia. If you wouldn't be lost you wouldn't be standing here right now," he said, still smiling like he'd know something I didn't. Maybe he did know something I didn't, something Andy didn't tell me.

I turned around and started walking, I wasn't looking where I was going until someone pulled me back. I looked up and saw that I almost killed myself, I almost stepped on the road full of cars. I turned around to look who saved me, even though I was pretty sure who did.

"Oh, Soph. You didn't change at all. You're still as stubborn as you always were," Danny said, he wasn't smiling anymore. He looked scared and angry at the same time. Was he angry one me because I didn't listen to him?

"Like you care," I said, turning my face around that he wouldn't look me in the eyes. He held me by my left wrist.

"Look at me, look into my eyes," he said. I didn't listen to him, I never listened to anyone except Julia but sometimes I didn't even listen to her.

He slowly put his hand on my right cheek and turned my head that I was looking at him. I lost myself in his eyes like I always did, these were the eyes that I loved. They were warm and I felt loved when I was looking at them. I felt how he pulled me closer to him.

"I loved you and I didn't want to leave you," he slowly whispered into my ear. At that moment it was just me and him and nobody else. I stopped breathing for a few seconds because I was afraid that I'll wake up and everything will disappear.

"But you did and I'll make sure you'll regret this your whole life," I whispered back and let myself go of his arms. I knew that I couldn't make sure that he was going to regret him leaving me because I didn't want to. I wanted him in my life. I ran away from him, from the pain, I wanted to ran away from my life but I realised that at that moment I had no life.

"Sophia?" I heard someone calling me from behind. It wasn't Danny, the voice wasn't Danny's. It was Stefan's. I turned around and looked for him. He ran to me and hugged me. I hugged him back and let my tears scroll down my cheeks.

"It's okay," he said, he didn't bother me with questions where was I. He let me cry, I knew and he did too, that Andy will scream at me but none of us cared. I was in Stefan's arms and for the first time after a long time I felt loved again. I forgot about everything that happened before and just lived in that moment.

I backed off after a few minutes but he still held me tight. We were closer than me and Danny were before. His dark chocolate brown eyes were sparkling and at one moment I felt his lips on mine. I didn't resist. I ran my fingers through his dark brown hair as he pulled me closer. His lips were soft and warm. I forgot where I was and probably he did, too, at that moment I didn't care about Andy or Danny all that mattered to me were two people. Me and Stefan.