I'M SORRY (Daniel-André Tande)

Part 7

7.

"Sophia?" I heard Andi asking me, I didn't answer I let the letter fell down and I ran into my room. I locked myself in it and cried.

I was sitting by the door, crying, I didn't know what was happening I just wanted to die. My whole world fell apart, deep down I knew that something like this was going to happen but now that it happened...I didn't want to live this life anymore. I got up and wiped the tears off my cheeks, I looked in the mirror and saw an unfamiliar face.

"This isn't you, Sophia," I said to myself and cleaned my face.

I did my make up once again, I was determined that I wasn't going to cry for that idiot of Daniel ever again. He broke my heart that day and I needed to stop worrying about the past and start thinking about the future. I knew that that wasn't the last time I cried for him, even though I said I'll get over him. I knew that when I'll have a bad day I'll remember him and cry for him again but for now I wanted to forget him. Maybe Stefan was the one but I didn't realise that because I still thought I had a chance with Danny. But I didn't have any more chances. I unlocked the door and went back to the kitchen but I stopped because I heard Andi talking to someone. 

"Dear Sophia, I don't know how to start this. It's hard for me to write this to you, harder than you can imagine and I know it's going to be hard for you to read it. It was Monday, 6th December when I woke up it was 6 am, you were sleeping by my side like an angel. I didn't have a heart to wake you up but I had a plane in 4 hours and our team was supposed to meet at 7 am. I was hoping you'd wake up before I'd leave but you didn't. It was 6.55 am, I kissed you one last time and then I left. I wanted to stay but I couldn't..." he was reading Danny's letter to the person on the other side of the phone. I went inside and pulled the letter out of Andi's hands.

"Sophia? What the heck?" he asked and tried to get the letter back. I looked at the phone and then back to him. Andi said goodbye to the person and canceled the call.

"This is my letter and it was meant for me. That's why it's addressed on me. Do you understand?" I explained him like he'd be two. He nodded and I put the letter back to the envelope.

"Who were you talking to?" I asked him and waited for him to answer. I was suspecting that it was Markus or someone from the team or maybe Stefan or mom. I wasn't sure who was it because Andi wasn't really predictable.

"Stefan," he answered. He didn't look guilty or ashamed, he looked like a big brother. He was taking care of me, he was doing a job of a big brother even though he was younger.

"If you mention this to anyone else you'll be sorry. Understand?" I asked him and he nodded. I looked at the envelope in my hand and left with it holding it tight in my hands.

I went to my room and looked for my phone. It was lying on the bed, I took it in my hands and looked for Stefan's number, I called him.

"Sophia?" he answered. I heard in his voice that he was worried. Maybe about me or about something else but he was worried.

"...I'm sorry I left you like that, I didn't want to hurt you. I talked to Andi in Russia and asked him about you. He said you're okay but he didn't say anything else. I don't know what I was expecting for him to say but knowing that you're okay was enough for me at the time.

Time flew by and I met Melissa. She was funny and smart and pretty. At the beginning I was looking for you in her but in few weeks I realised she's not you. I started to except her the way she was. Without knowing I fell in love with her and forgot you. Johann convinced her and the coach to come with me on the tour, he wasn't expecting you.

When I first saw you I didn't recognize you and when Markus told me you're his girlfriend I realised who you are. Last year when we first met Markus also told me you're his girlfriend that's how I knew. I'm not sure if Markus did that purposely or by accident but I'm glad he did.

When I saw you kissing Stefan I knew I don't have any chances. I'm not sure I even want chances. I love Melissa and when I saw you kissing Stefan I wasn't jealous. I want you to be happy. I don't love you, Sophia. I don't and I'm not sorry for not loving you. Because after months I realised you were my biggest mistake. Your past, Daniel" I read him the rest of the letter. He was quiet for a moment probably analyzing what I just told him. But when he responded I was touched.

 "Are you okay?" he asked me. He was worried about me, I didn't expect him to be worried about me after all I was just Andi's sister. Maybe he really liked me for who I was and not for who I wasn't. I knew Danny wouldn't respond the same way because he just wasn't that kind of the person.

"I'm fine. If he regrets being with me, I don't have a reason to cry after him. After all he was the one that left," I answered his question. I was relaxed.

Talking to Stefan was nice, I didn't have to worry about saying something wrong or if he'll be angry. I was feeling like me while I was talking to him. For past few months I really didn't feel like me and it felt good to talk to someone without worrying about anything. Stefan was really one of a kind and I'm lucky I realised that soon enough.

"So, tell me what are you doing home?" he asked me curiously. He probably wanted to distract me from thinking about the letter and he succeeded. I was glade that he did.

"Well, when I'm not worrying about how much I miss you, I'm annoying Andi. That's kind of my job," I said and we laughed. He was relaxed and I was relaxed, we were both perfectly comfortable.

"I miss you, too," Stefan said

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A/N

Hi, thank you all for reading my story. I won't be updating for some time because my computer stopped working and I can't publish anything without it. I'm sorry.

Merry Christmas and happy New Year!!

A. S. T.