I'M SORRY (Daniel-André Tande)

Part 17

17.

"This shouldn't have happened. Not now, not ever," I said and turned my head from Danny.

I slept with him. I cheated on Stefan. I was a horrible person, I didn't deserve to live.

"Don't turn away, Sophia. Please. Don't do this. It happened and we can't do anything to change it," he said. I turned around and looked at him. He was looking at me.

"We can pretend that nothing happened," I said and as I looked deep into his eyes I saw tears. He didn't let them fall but they were there.

I turned around and took my phone. I sent Andi a message that said 'I'm okay. I need a little alone time. I'll call you later'. I put the phone back where it was and covered myself with the blanket till the neck.

"Really, Sophia? It's not like it's the first time we slept together. I think I saw pretty much everything and you have nothing to hide anymore," he said and laughed a little bit. He made me smile, just a little bit but he made me smile.

"Okay!" I said and threw the blanket into the air that it landed half on me and half on the floor.

We both laughed and it was the first time we talked without hurting eachother.

"Look, Danny. About this, I need to tell Stefan and I'll tell him," I said to him. We were both serious again.

"He deserves to know. But you have no idea how this can affect your relationship," he said. I knew the risk, I knew that if I tell Stefan about this I'll risk everything I had.

"I know what I'm risking. But isn't the thing that matters the most in relationship honesty? Isn't relationship about trusting your partner?" I asked him. He sighed and thought about it for a minute.

"It is. Being honest with your partner is important. But don't you think it's okay to be quiet if you don't want to hurt your partner?" he asked me. He had a point. But I was getting the feeling that this wasn't just about me telling Stefan about this.

"It's a good point but I can't keep this a secret. It's just not right," I told him. He was quiet for a few moments, maybe he was thinking what to reply to my statement.

"Then what is right? Is it right to play with someone's feelings? Is it right to keep secrets? Is it right to pretend you don't feel anything even if you do? Is it right?!" he asked angrily. He was talking louder than before.

"I wasn't the one that pretended," I quietly whispered. I turned my head around and let tears to fall down my cheeks.

He stayed quiet. I didn't even hear him breathing, it was like he wasn't there anymore but he still was. Tears were still running down my cheeks when I felt how he pulled me closer to him and hugged me. He kissed me on my head and just waited for me to calm down. After a few minutes I finally calmed down. I put my hand onto his that was laying on my stomach and intertwine our fingers.

"I loved you so much. I really did," I slowly whispered. He pulled me even closer and I felt how something wet fell on my head. He was crying.

"I still love you, I really do. But I love Melissa, too. And you love Stefan. You're in love with Stefan," he whispered. It came as a shock, his words. Every word he said I slowly repeated in my head. I wanted to make sure I didn't hear anything wrong.

I didn't say anything because I had no idea what to say. His words made such an impression on me that everything that came to my mind just wasn't good enough.

I felt his breath on my neck and I saw how close his lips were to me. I took my hand from his and turned around to look at him. He wasn't looking at me, he was looking somewhere in the distance but I didn't care where he was looking at.

"One last time," he whispered and slowly and gently kissed me.

His lips were soft and dry but hot. His lips were burning and my icy lips just melted on them. I wrapped his arms around his neck and went through his hair with my fingers. With his arms on my back he pulled me on him and then suddenly he started kissing me harder and with more passion. I moved my hands down from his hair. I touched his chest with my icy fingers but he didn't sense it.

With my hands on his chest I pulled myself away from him. I let the tears to fall down my cheeks but he wiped them away and pulled me back to him. He turned us and suddenly I was under him. I let him. I didn't stop him. I wanted him. I needed him.

His whole body was hot and when his skin touched mine it was like a chocolate melting on Sun. I was melting under him, just like the chocolate. He took the lead and moved his lips from my lips down my neck. His lips were everywhere on my body just not there where I wanted them the most. Where I needed them. On my lips.

Finally my wishes came true and his lips met mine again. They were a little bit colder than the last time but still warm. It took me a few moments to be comfortable with the hotness again. His passionate kisses slowly came to a whole different level.

I felt how he was slowing down a little bit but the kisses didn't stop coming. I didn't want them to stop coming. I needed them. I needed him.

With my hands one in his hair and one on his back and his hands one on my hips and one on my breast everything started again. The game started again from the start.

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A/N

Heeeeeyyyy,

I think that #TeamStefan is probably planning my murder but you'll get your scenes too. I promise.

As you noticed I updated a little bit faster than last few times. I just feel like I need to speed up a little bit and give you some more scenes. I'm not sure when the next part is going to be published because I'm not completely decided how the story will end. Do you have any ideas? Should Sophia be with Danny or Stefan or maybe with someone third? What do you think will happen now?

As for like the comments and everything. I'm having some problems and I can't really answer on every comment. I'm just going through a lot, so if Sophia will be all depressed in few parts, you''l know why.

Thanks for reading,

A. S. T.