Adopted by the Avengers x oc

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(Myya's POV)

I sat in class writing in my book of poetry and thinks that just come into my mind, and also cool things I've seen somewhere. This book was kinda not meant to be seen by anyone else but me. I wrote one that reminds me of Wade.

'Your not a bad person. Your a very good person. Who bad things have happened to'

I had one for Peter to.

'I tried carrying the weight of the world. But I only have to hands.'

I also had one for (Y/n)

'All that pain, and that misery, and loneliness, just makes me kind.'

I got one for Senasia.

'I've been fighting since I was a child. In not a survivor. Im a fucking warrior.'

Keke.

'Sometimes it feels better not to talk. At all about anything. To anyone.'

Then there's Mark.

'I may be on the angels side. But don't think for a second Im one of them.'

And Damian.

'You don't think I know what its like to be abandon? Forgotten? The Robin that can't live up to the others?'

I have a lot for myself.

'If I named all the things I loved. I would never even put myself.'

'I don't need a weapon at all. When I was born one'

'I've been having a lot of bad days lately.'

The bell rang for class to be dismissed and everyone to go home. I quickly backed my bag. For some odd reason when I read those I get really depressed. But also I like the feeling its what keeping me here. I left to the woods. I sat down on a stump and cried I just am really depressed. Why can't I be like (Y/n), or Keke even Senasia. But I have to be a bipolar, insane person, with anxiety, and depression. Im really not fine.

***
I was back at the tower. I walked in like nothing happened.

Damian-Bailey, you ok?

I gave Damian a fake smile.

Myya-Im fine. So what's going on?

Keke-Well we were looking for you.

Peter-But your here now.

Myya-Cool.

(Bucky's POV)

The kids left and I saw a blue note book. It was pretty old. I opened it and saw Something.

Steve.

'What happens when the person you'll take a bullet for.....was behind the trigger?'

I had a flash back of me trying to shoot Steve. I kept reading. I saw me next.

'You think you can't threaten me with the Devil? What can the Devil do, that already hasn't been done?'

I saw Tony next.

'Sometimes I tell myself Im ok. Like a broken record. Im ok. Im ok. Im ok. Im afraid if I stop. Even just for a moment. I'll drown in all the reasons. Why Im not.'

I was getting a bit unconformable, but kept going anyway. To Natasha's.

'It doesn't matter who hurt you. Or made you cry. What only matters are the people who make you smile.

Pietro and Wanda.

'What doesn't kill you. Makes you wish you were dead. What doesn't destroy you....leaves you broken instead.'

Clint was next.

'Give me therapy Im a walking travesty. But I keep smiling because there's always a good side.'

I read Thor's.

'I lost my father, I lost my mother, I fought my brother, my home was destroyed there is a void. But I choose to live happily with my friends who are my family.'

Loki.

'Brother don't think that I hate you. I never said that I love you, but I just can't stop thinking about the lies I grew up with.'

Vision.

'My family is broken but ill soon fix the pieces and glue them back together. No catastrophe last for to long.'

Then Bruce.

'I'm more terrified of being like my father then, every being the Hulk. I'll never end up, that evil, that scary, that terrible.'

And lastly Sam.

'It doesn't matter none of it all I need to do is stick with my friends and life will go on.'

I saw some that was for herself. But this one was back in 2012.

'Things people are telling me at the orphanage. You should wear cleaner clothes-I tried, you should just get over it-I tried, you should talk to us more-I tried, you should just kill your self-Im trying.'

'No one hates me as much as I hate myself.'

I wasn't even off the first couple of pages when Myya came back for her book. She looked at wide eyed.

Bucky-Myya?

Myya-O my chuck! How far did you go in?

Bucky-Um... Not that far. Just the o is about us.

She took it and went away. I gonna tell the other.

(Myya's POV)

Why did I leave that? Im so fucking stupid. I walked in my room and Peter waited for me and Keke and Peter were off somewhere. I put a lock on the book.

Peter-What are you doing, babe?

Myya-Nothing.

Peter-Where were you anyway after school.

Myya-My quiet place.

Peter-The woods? You only go there if your feeling sad or mad.

Myya-Naw. Im fine.

Peter-You remember that song Just a human you sung? Then I sung angle with a shotgun?

Myya-Yes.

Peter-The lyrics was "I can fake a smile"

Myya-Yep.

Peter-Why are you faking there isn't anything ok with you.

Myya-I swear on my life nothing is wrong.

Peter-You sure?

Myya-Yes on my life.

Peter-Ok.

Myya-I wonder what Keke and Damian are doing?

Peter-Read her mind.

Myya-Ok.

I read Keke's minds there was a lot of um disturbing things.

Myya-*Screams* SHIT!!

Peter-What!

Myya-Daddy kinks, spanking, whips, role play.

Peter-Ew!

Myya-I hate the fucking daddy kink. Its so fucking wrong.

Peter-All of that is wrong.

Myya-I just gonna go bleach my eyes then scoop them out with a plastic spoon.

Peter-Same.