Fraternity | lrh

36 - "yes daddy"

36 | Kai

I was pressed to his chest, his hand rested on my lower back as he desperately tried to keep me against him, I sighed in contentment as he swiftly brushed my hair away from my neck then he did nothing. All I could feel was his breath softly hitting my skin, the soft and gentle feeling caused goose bumps to litter themselves all over my arms. I could feel by heartbeat in my head, crashing against my skull in a painful yet soft way that constantly reminded me that this was all real. It wasn't another sick, sexual fantasy I was having about him, I wasn't going to wake up half way though and realise that this was all a dream then proceed to act as though I hadn't dreamt about him at all.

I distracted myself, sliding my hands up his chest, I settled them near the collar of his shirt as I tilted mt neck slightly. He shivered softly beneath my touch, the small and completely unwilling action caused a soft smile to my face as his breath hitched against the skin of my neck. His hands moved to my hips when he finally began to move.

He lifted his head, planting small kisses all up the column of my neck which urged a shiver of my own, the kisses were soft but ignited a sort of fire on my skin and I couldn't get enough. Which was why I whined when he got to my cheek and ultimately stopped, he chuckled underneath his breath before he pressed another kiss to my cheek.

"There princess, happy now." He rasped, keeping his voice quiet, allowing the music from outside the tent to fill most of the silence,

"Luke." I'd caught his attention, his eyes met mine and I gasped at how different his usual cobalt blue eyes looked. They were much darker, almost comparable to the sky outside, a faded blue that wasn't quite dark nor light but at the same time they weren't Luke's,

"Are you okay?"

He'd nodded his head, "Perfect baby."

"Then kiss me."

And kiss me he did, pressing his lips to mine, it was the final spark that set my body alight as heat rushed to every inch of my body. It was scary to me just how much Luke's touch effected me, it shouldn't've but it did and it terrified me endlessly.

Despite this I still let him mess with me, my arms moved up to hold onto his shoulders instead of keeping them awkwardly on his chest, and I pressed myself more against him as if I was desperate for his touch and in a way I was. His arms had weaved themselves around my waist and my arms were still hung loosely over his shoulders, while I knew I should've backed away for breath I also didn't sang it to stop in fear of him backing out like he does all the time.

So I kept him close to me, for a little while longer, just until I felt like every decision I would make from that point on would a good one. Being a virgin in college, I knew, would come with implications but I didn't fully know if Luke even knew.

I just assumed he'd be gentle about it considering he mentioned multiple times that he wasn't going to fuck me in a meaningless place, and in a way I kind of appreciated him for that, despite me really wanted to do it on all the occasions, I'm glad he didn't let me and in a way it felt like he at least respected that I probably wasn't ready at all.

So as he finally pulled away I found myself moving with him, clawing after him as I fisted his shirt in my hands, my eyes were closed as I tried to drink the feeling in.

The feeling of Luke, there, in front of me, kissing my like I was made of glass and god did I love it.

The feeling only Luke could give me, where I felt both insane yet perfectly steady, afraid yet totally safe.

Luke's breath fanned across the span of my nose as I hesitated to open my eyes, the feeling still hadn't quite sank in but I was scared that if I made him wait just a second too long then he would for some reason change his mind and decide that he didn't want this. I didn't know if I could handle that because at that point, there and then, I was 100% ready to let Luke take me in whichever way he desired. Whether that be pressed against a wall, I really couldn't care.

As my feverish desperation for Luke grew I decided that if he wouldn't do anything about the thick tension that hung like a curtain around us then I would, so I slid my hands down his chest and situated my hands at the top of his jeans, sliding my fingers through the belt loops to tug him towards me. My eyes had left him as I focused on my fingers which had began playing with the loops, I felt him rest his chin against my forehead, a slight laugh slipping through. I smiled to myself knowing he was probably laughing at how awkward I was, I didn't want to ask him to do anything but at the same time I expected him to do everything I wanted without verbally hearing it from me.

He pressed a soft kiss to the crown of my head, silencing my inner rambling and also emiting a soft sigh from me.

"Are you sure about this Kai?" He softly angled me back, just enough so he could look at my face, "I don't want to feel like I'm a complete dick and forcing you into anything you don't want."

In response I nodded, he tutted to himself quietly as he grasped my chin between his forefinger and thumb.

"Use your words princess."

"Yes."

"Yes what?"

I took a deep breath, there was an internal battle going on at that moment. The word was on the tip of my tongue and I didn't know whether or not to use it, I didn't know whether or not it would just make everything weird but decided to just go for it regardless. So I took a deep breath, locking eyes with him before opening my mouth to speak.

"Yes daddy."

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HEY WHAT'S UP? EHHH, I KNOW I'VE NOT UPDATED IN LIKE TWO MONTHS AND I'M REALLY SORRY. YOU ALL KNEW ABOUT MY GRANDMOTHERS PASSING AND THANK GOD NOBODY MADE ME FEEL PRESSURED TO UPDATE SO IM HAPPY ABOUT THAT.

THIS CHAPTER WAS NOWHERE NEAR FINISHED WHEN I OPENED IT LIKE TEN MINUTES AGO AND I JUST DECIDED TO ADD SOMETHING INTERESTING INTO IT TO GIVE YOU SOMETHING TO READ UNTIL I CAN UPDATE PROPERLY TONIGHT.

YES TONIGHT I WILL HOPEFULLY BE UPDATING THE REST OF THIS CHAPTER AND AS YOU CAN TELL THE CHAPTER ISN'T VERY NORMAL I GUESS AND THATS WHY I DIDN'T REALLY WANT TO WRITE IT WHEN GRIEVING OVER MY GRANDMOTHER BUT I'M BETTER NOW AND AM GOING TO TRY UPDATING ONCE OR TWICE A WEEK.

ALSO I'VE GOT SOME NEWS, I GOT INTO COLLEGE AND WILL BE STUDYING MUSIC PRODUCTION AND PERFORMING SO THAT'S EXCITING AND ALSO FREAKING WANT YOU BACK CAME OUT AND ITS SUCH A FUCKING BOP AND SO DIFFERENT TO THEIR DIFFERENT SOUND AND I LOVE IT BUT MAKES ME SAD BECAUSE I REGISTERED THAT THEYRE NOT LIKE 17 ANYMORE AND GOT DEPRESSED. I ALSO REALLY WANTED TO GO TO THE LONDON SHOW BUT COULDN'T BECAUSE THE WEBSITE CRASHED WHEN I ORDERED THEM BECAUSE EVERYONE WAS ORDERING THEM TOO FAST, I WAS GONNA SAY IF I GOT TICKETS I COULD'VE MET A FEW OF YOU THERE IF YOU WERE GOING BUT I DIDN'T GET TICKETS AND AM SEVERLY LIKE ANNOYED.

ANYWAY ENJOT THE SLIGHT CLIFFHANGER AT THE END, IVE BEEN FUELED BY THE NEW SONG TO WRITE THE VERY JUICY CHAPTER THAT WILL BE GOING UP AROUND 12AM GST I THINK.

SEE YOU SOON, LOVE YOU ALL.
- KEELY XX