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38 - "i'm a bad person"

38 | Kai

I was awoken from what was possibly be the best sleep if ever had and while I wanted to be annoyed at Luke for waking me up, I just couldn't because as I turned to playfully tell him off, I noticed him sat on the edge of the bed with his elbows on his knees and his head in his hands.

He shaking slightly and the little whimpers that escaped him every so often let me know that he was crying, eminently I panicked. I was no good at comforting people because I generally never liked to think of myself as a people person, but there was something about Luke crying that took me back to a week ago when I'd found him crying in his room.

I just wanted him to stop crying.

"Luke?" I choked out, the effect of sudden awakening taking somewhat of an embarrassing toll on my voice,

His body stiffened as I spoke, he just because still, he didn't move and didn't answer me and I would have laughed if it weren't such a serious situation. Luke was crying and I was going to get him to stop.

"Luke, please speak to me." I reached out to touch him, only when my fingers came into contact with his shoulder he flinched away but not in like a was that made it seem like he was un expectant of it, he just didn't want me to touch him,

He stood up abruptly, wiping his hands across his face before taking his fingers through his hair, I covered my naked body with the small blanket we'd thrown off the bed last night.

Throwing my legs over the edge, I pulled myself up from the bed as I watched him pace towards the window and though the blinds were down he just stood in front of it.

I crept over to him softly and slowly because I knew that anything more would set him off on a crying rage he wouldn't be able to pull himself out of, his shoulders were still shaking softly and more whimpers left him as he wrapped his arms around himself. So I placed a hand on his arm, this time he didn't pull away from it, and pulled him towards me, enough so that he could rest his head on my shoulder.

He was tense and I understood why, the last thing I would want if I was crying would be someone trying to hold me but I also knew that's the only thing that helps. Though he didn't object to anything, he wrapped his arms around my and pulled me tight to his chest as he settled himself back on the bed, pulling me gently into his lap.

"Shh, it's okay." I coed, running my fingers softly over the broad of his shoulders hoping he would find comfort in it,

His head shook softly against my collar bone, "No." He choked out, a sob slipping from his lips straight after, an ache in my chest began to form and I had a strange need to get him to smile,

I placed my hands either side of his head and lifted him to meet my gaze, "Why are you crying, did I do something wrong?"

I dreaded the question, my ego was really walking on a line and if I found out that I was that bad that he'd cried then my ego would probably rip itself into one million tiny pieces.

"I-I, I'm a bad person Kai." My breath hitched in my throat as his hands gripped my hips a little tighter, "I woke up and you were just laying there, sleeping and I smiled but then - but then you had these bruises on your waist and your hips and - and I did that Kai."

He stopped and tore his eyes away from mine as I searched my body for validation on what he'd told me, and sure enough there were bruises but I just smiled at them.

"I hurt you Kai and you don't seem to care, you can't care because you like me so damn much but I'm a bad person Kai, I'm a really fucking bad person."

"Luke you're not a bad person, if I were pissed off or hurt I would've told you." As I spoke I saw him relax a little but not a lot, a placed a gentle kiss on his cheek hoping that would further relax him somehow, "You're not a bad person."

"I need to tell you something, I did t want to tell you before because -"

"You're bipolar." His eyes were wide as I smiled softly down at him, "I saw the mood stabilisers on your bedside table when we stayed with your mother."

There was a silence that surrounded us for a minute or two, it wasn't uncomfortable but it gave each of us enough time to comprehend the situation we'd ended up in.

"You knew? This whole time you knew and you didn't care?" I shook my head, hooking my hands around his neck and resting my forehead against his,

"Your still Luke, just a little more interesting." He chuckled to himself, pursing his lips,

He stayed silent for a minute, pulling me flush against him as he swayed me in his arms slightly, he sighed out deeply catching my attention.

"You know what?" He said to himself more than me, but I still replied anyway,

"What?"

"I fucking love you."

My heart swelled, I felt so happy and content in that moment that I found it hard to form a coherent and stable reply. I spent at least a minute looking like a fish, searching for the right words to say but in the end it always came back to one.

"I love you to."

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HELLO IM ALIVE, AS I TOLD YOU IM DOING THIS CHAPTER AND THE REST OF THE CHAPTERS AND THEN WORK ON CHAPTER 37 FROM TIME TO TIME. DONT EXPECT IT ANYTIME SOON.

LUKES SUCH A SAP I LOVE HIM, HE FINALLY SAID IT AND THANKS TI QUEEN_G1 FOR HELPING ME FIGURE OUT WHATS GOING TO HAPPEN WITH THIS STORY. THERES GOING YO BE A SEQUAL AND A FINLEY / ASHTON SPIN OFF OF HIW THEY MET SO YEAH.

ITS NICE TO BE WRITING AGAIN.

IL TRY AND GET ANOTHER CHAPTER UP THIS WEEK THATS IF IM NOT TOO DEPRESSED BECAUSE THE LONDON SHOWS TOMORROW AND I COULDN'T GET TICKETS TO IT.

SEE YOU SOON.
- KEELY X