Our New Fate

Chapter 13: Secrets

Song used in this chapter: "Pompeii" - Bastille

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"But if you close your eyes,

Does it almost feel like

Nothing changed at all?"

Nam Soon let his head fall on Heung Soo's shoulders, who instinctively pushed him away, making him wake up startled.

"Yah, did you sleep, you bastard?" he exclaimed as Nam Soon yawned at his side, unconcerned.

"It's not my fault that this movie makes me sleepy, how can you watch it?" he muttered, settling on the couch and stretching out his arms.

"Well, that was one good thing I got from being away from you," Heung Soo mocked, turning his attention back to the drama movie that played on the television, "I got smarter," he boasted, but he swore at him only a few seconds later, after Nam Soon's hand hit him hard in the back of his head.

"Oh, shut up, I won't watch this anymore," Nam Soon barked, standing up and heading toward the kitchen.

Heung Soo stood up after him, though he let out a little sigh of pain, which made Nam Soon look back at him. Heung Soo was massaging his knee, that had apparently begun to ache after being in the same position for a long time. Suddenly Nam Soon's mood faltered.

"Still hurts?" he whispered as Heung Soo followed him into the kitchen.

"I already forgot about it," The other answered uninterested.

"Oh where do we begin?

The rubble or our sins?"

They made ramen in silence in the next few minutes. However, that silence was killing Heung Soo on the inside because he knew pretty well the reason for it - and it killed him. Because the reason for that silence was what he wanted to forget - that's what he wanted Nam Soon to forget. How could they move on if they couldn't forget about that past? If anything would keep reminding them about it?

They sat at the table, eating without speaking a word. But Heung Soo didn't feel hungry - he saw the way Nam Soon ate, adding more food than he could handle inside his mouth.

"I really forgot about it," Heung Soo whispered, and Nam Soon, who was about to put even more food into his mouth, returned his chopsticks to his plate. But even so, his eyes remained staring at his food, not daring to look up. "It's not important anymore. It's already been too long."

Nam Soon remained silent for the next few minutes as he finished chewing the ramen he still had in his mouth. "I'm sorry," he whispered, finally looking up to face him. "You've been through so much."

"What about you?" Heung Soo said, his red eyes watering as he finally said the words he should have told him before - all that had been bothering him in the last few days. "Weren't you in pain too?" He whispered as Nam Soon's tear-filled eyes stared intensely at him, "So, stop being sorry. It was an accident. It's already been too long to be sorry about it now. Can't we just start anew and leave the past in the past?"

Nam Soon looked at his own ramen as he felt tears stream down his face. He quickly wiped them away, getting back to eat while he just nodded slightly without saying a word since he didn't feel like he could properly answer him right now. But Heung Soo understood.

Nam Soon would move on - he wouldn't let that past get between them anymore. He would try his best to forget, or even if he couldn't forget, he'd use that for the better - to remind himself of everything that they had been through, and that nothing would tear them apart anymore.