Our New Fate

Chapter 22: This is more than I can take.

Song used in this chapter: "Lego House" - Ed Sheeran

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"I'm gonna paint you by numbers

And colour you in

If things go right

We could frame it

And put you on a wall"

Heung Soo couldn't sleep. He rolled on the bed once again, but he didn't want to close his eyes. It had been long since Jin Ah feel asleep beside him, but he was still wide awake.

Because closing his eyes meant seeing Nam Soon. Sleeping meant dreaming about him and he didn't want to. He had to fade those thoughts away, but why couldn't he? He wanted to enjoy his night with Jin Ah, but why was it that, deep down, he wanted it to be Nam Soon by his side and not her?

He didn't know how long he slept that night, but it was probably only a few hours, since he was only ten minutes into the movie that Jin Ah had chosen for them to watch and his eyes were already heavy.

Probably the film did not help, but he was actually sleepy. Jin Ah wasn't talking much, and she didn't bother waking him. The situation had been more than awkward since the night before, so he couldn't contain a relieved sigh when he finally left her apartment to return home on that Saturday night.

"And it's so hard to say it

But I've been here before"

It had been a few hours since Heung Soo had sat on his bed with his notebook turned on, even though he wasn't using it at all - he just wanted to keep his mind blank for some time and finally get some rest. In the meantime, his cell phone soon began to beep - it was a message from Nam Soon. He wanted to ignore it and do nothing again, but he couldn't. The urge to check the message was stronger than his self-control.

"Are you home?" Nam Soon texted him. He should have said that he was with Jin Ah because he was not sure if it would be a good idea to see Nam Soon right now. But that would be him trying to fool himself - he knew that he wanted to see Nam Soon.

"Yes," he answered, sighing as he stared at the screen of his cell phone. It was so stupid to be feeling this way. What was happening to him? Was all this mess in his head just because he'd found out about Nam Soon? Perhaps he was confused, and for that reason these thoughts began to come to his mind - Heung Soo really wanted to believe that it was just that. He had to believe, or he would have to admit the truth that he couldn't even make himself to pronounce. That's why he would erase it all from his mind.

Nam Soon was his friend. He couldn't start to have these strange thoughts. Heung Soo wasn't like that - he couldn't be.

"Can I come over? I bought something awesome, you won't believe it!!" Nam Soon sent him.

Heung Soo sighed with a small smile on the corner of his mouth. What was Nam Soon planning right now?

"I'm out of sight

I'm out of mind

I'll do it all for you anytime"

Of all the things that went through Heung Soo's head about what Nam Soon could have bought, surely a PlayStation 3 was not one of them.

"Oh my God, how old are you again?" he mocked him, but Nam Soon wouldn't listen to his complaints. He went behind the television and began to plug the cables.