Our New Fate

Chapter 35: It's you and me.

Song used in this chapter: "Wild" - Troye Sivan

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"You make my heart shake

Bend and break

But I can't turn away"

Go Nam Soon let the warm water fall over his body, trying to calm down his heartbeats a little, but the smile on his face revealed how he truly felt at this moment - that he wanted to scream out the window how happy he was, and that he didn't want this moment to ever end.

However, all this happiness brought him another feeling: anxiety. Doubts started to appear that made him question this situation. What would happen next? And what should he do about it? He bit his lips, washing his face in the hot water, but suddenly realised that he should decrease the temperature of it - a cold shower would be much more appropriate in this situation.

He knew what he wanted to do next, and the fact that they were going to sleep on the same bed only made it even worse. Should he make the move first? Or Heung Soo would do it? Perhaps they should talk about it before anything? However he was not even sure of how to bring up the subject.

He bit his lips even harder, the smile on his face suddenly growing wilder as his heart beat joyfully inside his chest. It was a good kind of anxiety. One that made it seem like butterflies were throwing a party inside his chest and belly, and that made everything seem more delightful.

He stepped out of the shower, drying his hair, and wiped the fog from the mirror, looking at himself. Maybe he didn't use enough soap? He was not used to putting on any extra perfume, would Heung Soo complain if he did so? He said he liked the scent of his shampoo... Maybe he should have put on some more?

He felt his cheeks forming a smile again, because how could he control it? The memories of what just happened were so clear, and the fact that Heung Soo was there behind that door... And that it would be okay to just go there and feel those lips, his warmth, his scent... It was impossible to control this happiness.

He stared once more at his own dark eyes and wet hair, trying to make them look the best possible. Did Heung Soo prefer him with straight or messy hair? Maybe he should ask.

He heard the sound of his own laugh, and his cheeks getting slightly warmer. He probably looked so stupid right now. But honestly... He didn't care.

He put on his clothes, and breathed hard. It was not something from another world, so why was he dying with anxiety? Trying to fade out all these nervous thoughts, he just opened the door to the room.

"'Cause there's still too long to the weekend

Too long 'till I drown in your hands

Too long since I've been a fool"

The lights of the room were turned on when Nam Soon opened the door, but Heung Soo was lying down on the bed, his face pressed against the pillow and his breath was coming out slowly.

Nam Soon approached the bed, and watched Heung Soo's chest going up and down as the sounds of his breaths filled the silent room.

He pondered the situation, feeling a bit bad now as he realised that he had taken too long inside the bathroom. He had thought too much, and prepared to much. He knew that was because he was nervous... And, perhaps, he wasn't ready to leave.