Our New Fate

Chapter 42: I'll be here.

Song used in this chapter: "There for you" - Martin Garrix & Troye Sivan

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"I got you, I promise

Let me be honest"

"Noona... I have to tell you something." Heung Soo said, while thousands of things passed through his head. Something in his mind told him repeatedly to stop what he was doing, that it was a terrible idea - but Heung Soo wouldn't listen. He couldn't live hiding any longer. He and Nam Soon had been through so much hardships until now that he couldn't handle it anymore.

His sister stared at him with a startled and maybe curious expression, and Heung Soo didn't believe that she would really scold him about it - he knew her. Even if the news came as a surprise, eventually, she would come to accept it. What could be worse than sending a younger boy into a three months coma? If she forgave him for that, she definitely would forgive him again - because this time he wasn't doing anything wrong. How bad could it be to just love someone?

"What? Please just say it already, you're killing me!" She explained, impatiently waiting for him to finally say whatever he had to say.

"Noona..." He mumbled, taking her by the hand and leading her to the couch. "Please sit down first."

She did as he told her and he sat at her side, staring at his hands. He couldn't just say it straight away, but how should he start it?

"Heung Soo, you're scaring me, what is it??" She insisted, her eyes searching for anything on his face that could give her an idea of what it was.

"I'm fine noona, I'm not sick or anything," he calmed her down. "It's just..." He stared away again, looking at the frame of that photograph over the counter and thinking about everything that picture meant, and about those last months that had changed his life forever. "It's something that I've been hiding from you, and I just can't hide it anymore."

"Did you do anything wrong again??" She sounded worried, probably thinking about the things he had done during his teenage years.

"No, it's not that," he calmed her down again, unconsciously holding her hand. But that was probably more to tranquilize himself than her. "It's about Nam Soon..."

"What have he done?" Her tone was colder this time.

"Nothing! Noona can you listen??" his voice came louder this time. If she kept making questions he would end up spilling it out in the blank and he definitely didn't want this conversation to end like that.

But she didn't spoke this time, and stared at him, waiting. Her lips were still trembling and he knew she should probably be creating all kinds of scenarios in her head.

"I met him again five months ago... Nam Soon," his voice was softer now, like he was talking to an elder that needed time to assimilate everything he said. Joo Mi still seemed impatient, but this time she waited and remained in silence, just listening. "And it took some time for me to admit it... but that day... I felt like I had finally found the missing piece of my life again." Joo Mi lips opened as she was about to say something, but she didn't, and closed them again - and Heung Soo kept going. "Before that, my life felt... empty." He stopped talking for a few seconds. It was probably the first time he said all those things out loud for someone, and to say it to his sister... it felt like he was taking a heavy load out of his back.

But she couldn't stand it anymore without talking. It was probably to much for her mind to assimilate. "What are you trying to say?" She asked, searching for traces of an answer on his face again.