Our New Fate

Chapter 48: I've got nothing to lose

Song used in this chapter: "The Only Thing" - Sufjan Stevens

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"Do I care if I survive this, bury the dead where they're found

In a veil of great surprises I wonder did you love me at all?"

It all happened in a second - the loud noise of a car brake stormed abruptly, and everything that he had the time to do was take a quickly glance at Heung Soo by his side and, before it was too late, to push him with all his might, making both of them roll over the ground as the noise of the brake echoed in that parking garage, followed by the shrill sound of the horn and the wheels skidding over the floor.

But it was all too loud, and Nam Soon wasn't quite sure of what he was hearing, what was really happening and what was a dream. His heart was beating so fast that he could feel it at the tip of his fingertips, and he was running before he even knew it. His fists banged on that door and against the window until he could no longer feel them, unaware of how much strength he was putting in his hits. In a second the door finally opened, and he wasn't sure if it was he who came out of the car or if Nam Soon forced him out by the collar.

Were his cries that came first or were his fists? He didn't care. One punch... Two punches... more screams, and then something gripped his hands tightly, pulling him away from the man who was looking scared at him, his cheeks already swollen and blank eyes that showed nothing but fear.

He looked up as Nam Soon tried to dodge from Heung Soo's arms, and in a second his fists met Heung Soo's face, making him stumble back - but that was not enough for him to let go of Nam Soon's arms - even after his screams and curses. Heung Soo just couldn't let go of him.

The boy lost balance and stumbled on his own feet after the punch, holding his hand that was probably bleeding from hitting some bone or tooth as he looked at both of them - Heung Soo turned his back, trying to keep Nam Soon away from him.

"LET GO!" Nam Soon was trembling, his heart beating so fast... It was so much anger, so much as he never felt in a long time - so much that he had once thought that he would never feel it again.

"STOP IT," Heung Soo scream was even louder than any of Nam Soon's when he managed to hit the man's face once more, knocking him to the ground even after Heung Soo's attempts to contain him. "Nam Soon, JUST STOP!"

Nam Soon finally looked back at him, and he was not sure if it was the desperate cry in his words or the blood on his face that finally made him stop struggling.

"He tried to kill us, why the hell are you stopping me??" Nam Soon managed to free his arms and gave one step forward to that man's direction - but he was standing now, and managed to take a step back before Nam Soon's foot could hit him right in his face.

"Your fault.." He whispered those words in a harsh tone, his eyes piercing Heung Soo's as the words finally left his mouth - words that he probably had been carving to say since a long time ago, "... it's all your fault"

"ARE YOU FUCKING CRAZY?" Nam Soon threatened to punch him again, but Heung Soo was faster and placed himself between them.

"He's the crazy one, he's the one that tried to kill me. Do you know how it's like to lose months of your life?" his words were getting louder by the minute, as he stared at him and Heung Soo, making sure to take a few steps back every time that Nam Soon seemed to dodge from Heung Soo's arms. "And even worse, to know that the person who did it to you is fine, as if nothing had happened?"