Our New Fate

Chapter 14: Unwanted Feelings

Song used in this chapter: "If I" - Ross Copperman

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"Well you came to me, like a ray of light

So suddenly, a beautiful surprise

My universe alight, and it all seemed right"

"Yah, you idiot, what are you talking about?" Heung Soo exclaimed, pointing the soju bottle at Moo Yul and purposely avoiding Nam Soon's gaze. "How would she look like Nam Soon? You're already drunk, aren't you?" He shifted uncomfortably in his chair, as Moo Yul sustained that I'm being serious expression on his face that was really pissing him off.

"They both even have the same speckle under their eyes. Yes, they do look alike!" Moo Yul insisted on his argument, and Heung Soo merely rolled his eyes, wishing they would really change the subject - why the hell had he mentioned her now anyway?

"Everyone has speckles, so what? I have dark hair too, does that make me look like you?" He mocked, but Moo Yul didn't look like he was about to change his mind.

"It's not only that. Their faces even look alike! If she were a woman she would be Nam Soonie ... and if Nam Soonie was a woman, he would be her!" He insisted, and Heung Soo gave up looking for new arguments. He downed his shot of soju in one gulp, still without looking at his side, where Nam Soon sat without a word since Moo Yul's comment.

Why hadn't Nam Soon heard of this girlfriend before? Since when was he dating? He knew that they had not spoken for a long time, but he could not help wondering why she had never been mentioned. Maybe that was the reason why Heung Soo always picked up his calls in secret? Was that the thing he thought Heung Soo was hiding from him?

However, that was not what bothered him the most - what bothered him the most was that unpleasant feeling of having something stiff down his throat. The unwanted feeling that someone had just thrown a bucket full of ice over him.

The feeling of his heart being shattered.

"But I was unwise, and fooled myself

Pretending you or I were somebody else"

Heung Soo drove them back over to Nam Soon's home at the end of the night. After that unexpected talk with Moo Yul, the situation got quite awkward and Heung Soo didn't take long to find the first excuse to leave.

Heung Soo went with Nam Soon to his apartment without waiting for invitation, but he couldn't avoid the awkwardness that preceded it. Nam Soon hadn't talked in a long time and this was really getting on Heung Soo's nerves.

"What is it?" He asked, following the other boy to the kitchen. Nam Soon did not turn around, and got a ramen package from inside the cupboard - since they didn't eat out, he was feeling quite hungry and a little dizzy from drinking too much on an empty stomach.

He didn't answer right away and also didn't look back at him as he added some fresh water to a pot and put it over the stove.

"Why didn't you tell me you have a girlfriend?" Nam Soon asked, trying his best to sound as casual as possible - even though he was feeling far from casual.

"You never asked me," Heung Soo shrugged, sounding uninterested. However, when he thought about it, the truth was that he didn't know how to tell that to Nam Soon. Back then, as he tried to remember it, nothing came to mind about him and Nam Soon talking about girls. They didn't - back then, this subject didn't even cross his mind.